/lit/ - Literature

Books about a wasted youth and a ruined future?
Seems like a plague of the current times, there must be some interesting perspectives on it.

I don't know what to do /lit/. I seek meaning. On one hand I want to commit my life to a purpose, on the other I want to live in complete decadence and hedonism and ignore earthly suffering. I have a job that pays quite well but I don't enjoy it and it goes against my fundamental will, I have to act like a normal, well-adjusted person for the majority of the day and its torture. I would rather be paid half as much to do something I find emotionally congruent with my nature, even if that means delivering parcels during my waking hours.
I have accepted completely that I will never be conventionally "happy", I don't know if that's a symptom of long standing depression or a personality disorder but it's the truth. The inadequacies of the world really bother me, more than most people, and I find the only solution is insulation from reality, complete ignorance. I don't really enjoy anything but I feel most "myself" during introspection. Perhaps writing, elucidating my thoughts for others and working the bare minimum to sustain a comfortable life is the most authentic life I can live. Does anyone relate to any of this? Just tell me what I need to hear.

Do some people go their entire lives without ever experiencing romantic love? Is it a one and done deal, as in you’ll never love as deeply as you did the first time? Philosophy or maybe even psychology on chasing the dragon (never being as fulfilled as the first time) when it comes to love? Fuck it— philosophy of love in general

Jan 9

Yesterday I had the worst night of my life. I put away the mic and other setup for art, I know I will never use any of it again. But then I felt horrible, I wanted to kill myself and I couldn't sleep until late in the morning, and then I had a dream where I was walking in a village and inside the houses were lepers, dead people, prostitutes. A man with leprosy was standing in the streets and he saw that I was disgusted by this all, so he started chasing me and laughing, spitting at me, his mouth foaming. I ran away but he'd catch up. Eventually I grabbed a knife and I stabbed him, over and over, and he was dead.

>squandered my youth
>can't get over it
books for this feel?

What are some good books to read to help pull myself out of a longterm slump?
No memes please.

what is the The Shins - New Slang [OFFICIAL VIDEO] of literature?

What are some books that focus on the growth of a character/characters from childhood to adulthood?

>thought life would get better after high school
>it doesn't
>thought life would get better after college
>it doesn't
>thought life would get better after i got a job
>it gets worse
any books for this feel

Can someone make a vid that shows 2 soijaks flying around (this represents 2 child brothers playing) then cutting to wojak in bed reflecting(pic del)

Literature explaining this phenomenon?

You know why you can't kill me,
my friend?
'Cause I died many, many years ago
when I was young.

Any /lit/ for this feel?

>>14823428
It was the needy part of me. The part that had to impress my professors, or prove I was smarter than my peers. Maybe it was more than that. A year before I read it an old friend of mine had gone missing for a few days. I only found out months after the fact that she was raped. I was away for school. When I met up with all of my old friends, I realized that everyone else had found a way to move on. I was still in shock. I tried to talk, but I realized that we just didn't have anything to say to each other anymore. Bolano, I think, is good at writing about distance- distance in time, distance in space, and the things that change along the way. Mainly the images you build for yourself. The needy part of me. I was overly dependant on others to define who I was, and that led me into a world that was out of sync. Anyway, thanks for reading my blog post.

>>14754287
backyardigans started in 2004, 16 years ago.

how are you holding up, /lit/?

how are you holding up, /lit/?

>>14505840
Leah

Brooklyn

Rachel

Grace

Megan

Elizabeth

Taylor

kennedi
how do you get over women you never even asked out

Oh god guys how do I get a cute art hoe gf. I don't drink or do drugs I'm a virgin I'm pure why am I still alone

I have like 5 papers to write but I just want to jerk off and play video games. Modernity was a mistake

>>14458467
A woman falls in love with me

when does it end

>>14382026
>post post modern era
pleb we're in the post ironic modern era now