/lit/ - Literature

>>19381876
>25
>Shipping at a hardware distributor
>Anna Karenina
>Southern Nights by Glen Campbell
>ISTP
>Hadji Murat (just coincidence that i am revisiting Tolstoy atm)
>I've been self isolating lately. Kind of a bad habit, but I think its healthy for me. I'll spend a few months being social but then retreat for a few months and do nothing but read and spend time alone. I've been drinking too much and I really wanna stop since I've gained 25lbs this year. I still have no license from a DUI a few years ago so my mom drives me to work. Eternal tfw no gf. My dad is dying of cancer but my spirituality keeps me from getting too stressed over it. I'm not afraid to die and I don't feel like anybody else should be either. My life is by all accounts sad and pathetic yet I don't find myself becoming depressed or unhappy that often. I have loyal friends, I enjoy my hobbies such as reading, riding my bike and foraging for mushrooms and wild plants in the local nature preserve, so that keeps me going.

>>17566312
Not much to say I suppose.
I live my life in an unmotivated haze. Days just pass from one to the next in an endless fog. Even among those I work with I may as well just be a ghost floating through life, only doing that which is required in order to sustain my existence.
Any tendril of hope that I reach out into the dark is inevitably cut short, not by malicious intent or through my own shortcomings, but from the simple fact I may as well not exist in the minds of those around me.
The urge to give in to despair is always lurking within me. I wish I could just lay down in the courtyard and let the cool wind cool my body down as I let the ocean of depression swallow me up. The only thing holding back the tides is the small flickering flame of hatred for the sad sack I'm becoming.

I never did have my emo phase in high school. Maybe I'm just a late bloomer