/lit/ - Literature

>>18982239
God, was here, i said that i was not, said how me i saiy wait, not here, i want to see, my feelings, they're not here now, anylonger i said it right, i can't get it right, i can't say what i feel, how does one know what one feels? How do you feel? I've had the feeling of feeling numb, but now? i can't explain it, i can only mutter one word. ''Void'' that's all i can say, i'm not being adgy or anything but it's the thing i don't feel. unfeeling of something, avoid of void. I hate, I love myself, I know that my flesh is filthy but I love myself, I won't let this material plane destroy my essence, my face, my feelings, other people, my family, the people i can't see, the people i will see, the ground that i look at when i walk outside and the sky that i can never see, I won't let them destroy me, i won't let them rule me. i won't let this ME make who i am, it's not me but a mask, I've inherited this fleshbag, i don't know the reason, i don't know my will that i had before i came, but i won't let ME or my death, the after even this, mask, let me decide who what i am, will become. I won't limit myself as human, I will never be, no matter how many times i do this, no matter time i'm here, I won't let IT, I hate me that I AM, but noy myself, but the myself taht i am in here, This place, that i so disgusts, a filthy disgusting place, I hate everything that exists because, i don't need a reason to hate, but for that it exists to take my attention, i don't know the other word for it. It's to.. make me stay here, confused, scared, I'm not scared to be alone or not understood by anyone here, I know what I am, but i cannot word them, I don't know what i will become, I care, but at the same time i do not. what's the reason for the will to stay alone other than the desire to? I cannot see the light, I cannot see the darkness, but i waver not for I simply cannot see, I imagine, I believe that it exists and i give it a form. a symbol. how can one fear something that cannot be understood? what's wrong with being missunderstood and alone? time would be ones biggest torture. not the act of dying even, an act of torture by the second, a moment notice, End is endless, can i come to understand that time don't exists and do at the same it? can i understand the things most people can? I don't think so. what is there to understand? I need to set them out, draw the lines, I need order to things, but that's not what i want to talk about, I want to, i don't know what i want to talk about. i want the thoughts outside. outside where i cannot see them any longer. I'm not insane but there's no order either. I have to be Sane in an insane world with insane people. That's how it would be. I want to live, iwant to die, i know that it will always repeat, i'm put here for a reason, i reason that i can choose because that's what my fleshbaf wants, I moment of happiness, I know that this world is nothing compared to what will come. I'm not scared.

>>18529514
Jesus Christ

>>18202124
Hahahaha he's only 24 I can't relate, he's too young hahaha