/lit/ - Literature

I've spent the majority of my freetime as an adult cumming, drinking, watching and sleeping. I feel fucking pathetic. I can't -do- anything. My 28th birthday is this week and I have $500 sitting in my bank account. That's all I have to my name. I'm moving back home after working a dead end job, getting fired because of drinking, then proceeding to spend 3 months cashing in my measly retirement savings and spending it all on booze and fast food. I know its my fault and I need to change but it feels like there's some effort to make me and everyone else on the planet into a fucking bug. I'm going back to school for HVAC as not having a degree or skill is a retail death sentence. I'm excited about the possibility. I'l be working nights at Amazon which isn't too bad since Il be coming home when everyone is leaving for work. I dont trust women and my fantasy is working a job that affords me enough to afford a studio apartment and just try and become a better writer in my freetime. I dont even read books just watch youtube videos about authors. I'm scared il die an alcoholic death alone. FUCK.