/lit/ - Literature

>Back War of Rights before it even goes into early access
>Play a lot from 2018-2020
>Take a break 2021-2023 due to life shit
>Start getting back into it again in 2024
>A rank system has been added since I've been gone
>Rank 0 because nothing you did before it was added counts to it
>Whatever
>Play for a few days, get to rank 14
>Get a REALLY shitty CO one game
>CO orders his company to downvote another CO for "not listening to him" and gets him taken down when he wasn't doing anything wrong
>CO then proceeds to blow all our tickets, get us into Final Stand, and positions us in a coverless line in an open field sandwiched between the point (which the enemy is holding), and the enemy's spawn
>We get fucking annihilated from both sides in under a minute obviously
>Tell him what a fucking retard he was
>He says he doesn't want to hear it from a low rank
>Two or three of his fuckboys start defending him
>mfw
It's been a while since I've been this angry.
That's what's on my mind. Thank you for reading my blog.

>>23160216
Seeing zoomers call impulsive thoughts "intrusive thoughts" is fucking infuriating.
It's like words and language don't have meaning anymore.

>Memoir/autobiography
>Author recalls word-for-word conversation he had years ago
LIAR LIAR LIAR LIAR LIAR
I CAN'T RECALL WORD-FOR-WORD CONVERSATIONS I'VE HAD LAST WEEK
THERE'S NO FUCKING WAY
IF YOU CAN ONLY REMEMBER THE GENERAL OUTLINE OF YOUR CONVERSATION, THEN WRITE AS SUCH; DO NOT LIE ABOUT IT JUST FOR THE SAKE OF "FLOW"
YOU ARE WRITING A HISTORICAL DOCUMENT AS WELL AS A NARRATIVE ACCOUNT AND SHOULD BE MORE CAREFUL, BECAUSE DOING THIS SHIT ONLY DISCREDITS YOUR RELIABILITY AND WORD IN THE EYES OF THE EDUCATED READER
FUCK

I genuinely could use some talking through on this.
Of all the countries and peoples on earth, Croatia and Croats must make me the most angry. Yet I'm not a Serb; I have no ancestry from the Balkans period. I'm an American, who never left North America, whose ancestry is almost exclusively from the British Isles and France.
For the past year I haven't been able to read about Croatia in the '90s without my blood pressure rising; one time I got tunnel vision and my ears popped.
It certainly isn't from ignorance or lack of knowledge; I'm sure most people haven't even heard how it was Croats who bombed the Statue of Liberty on June 3rd, 1980, and hijacked a plane while bombing Grand Central Terminal, killing a NYPD officer on September 11th, 1976,
https://youtu.be/eqLU0QTrir0?t=1748 (29:08)
https://nypost.com/2017/09/28/the-true-story-of-a-cops-forgotten-911-death-from-1976/
So I certainly have reason to detest the Croatian state and Croatian nationalism, but why does it elicit such stronger emotions than other abhorrent nations and peoples? The only other countries that elicit even a semblance of this reaction for me are China and Israel, yet they really aren't even close. I can actually hold constructive conversations with Israelis. If I had to guess why, it would be because many people know of the crimes of China and Israel, and are actively opposing them, whereas Croatia's crimes are unknown and forgotten. But is that seriously it? My reaction to Croatia and Croats is akin to the evolutionary reactions of people to fangs, spiders, and snakes. Can an added layer of escaped accountability really be the only difference?
I was born amidst a Croatian offensive against Krajina Serb civilians, although I admittedly was not conceived during any noteworthy offensive. I sometimes wonder if I'm the reincarnation of a Krajina Serb civilian, brutalized and murdered by HV criminals, and the trauma of it lasted into my current life. I mean, what other answers are there? The more I learn about Croatia, the angrier it makes me; is it beyond the realm of possibility that I'm unlocking sentiments and memories, or opening wounds from a previous life?

>Make one simple mistake in a low stakes discussion
>30+ retards smell blood in the water and ooze out from the wood works to rub it in my face even though they're clearly dumber than me overall
>I don't even hold myself to be particularly intelligent, and never inferred so; that's just how apparently dumb these arrogant scavengers are
How can I be anything but a little bit misanthropic for a little while?