/lit/ - Literature

Had to let go of a woman I've loved for a long time today. She's the only girl I've ever loved. We've been together for years, but she was becoming someone that I couldn't be with. Depressed, selfish, generally apathetic and boring. It was one of the toughest decisions I've ever been forced to make. Just to let go of someone who I've cared for more than anyone else for years, because I knew it was the right thing for myself and eventually for her also.

First loves are difficult, I knew ours would at some point end once I realized that she was falling into a different mindset that wasn't who I fell in love with. It hurts that people change, often for the worse. Usually only to stagnate and find something to prop them up indefinitely until they die first spiritually and then again physically later.

I think what I hate most is that I believed I could 'save her' (lol). The only person you can change is yourself. I've improved immensely as a man over the last few years (published author, lifting, good job/money) but the thing I care most about was solidifying our relationship so I could give her half of the world I'm creating. Thanks for reading, anon. Diary post over.