/lit/ - Literature

>>18253409
george bernard shaw - esp. Major Barbara, Back To Methuselah
the fountainhead/atlas shrugged
colin wilson
p.g. wodehouse
neville goddard
new thought writers: troward, atkinson, marsden, scovell
emerson
chesterton
verne and dumas
seneca - letters to lucilius
carlyle - sartor resartus

>>16481378
>the intellectual man that everyone loves to talk to
I think this is the case but it was completely unintentional. I changed schools at the beginning of grade 11 and decided then that there was no reason to make new friends. I spent all my free time sitting alone in the library reading whatever and people gradually started talking to me. Since then I've never tried to initiate conversations with people and I put zero effort into friendships for the reasons I mentioned earlier. I don't feel like this is a "problem" per se, but thinking of how unreceptive I was and am to people who try to keep some kind of friendship going makes me worry that I might be an autist. It feels like, by trying to befriend me, people are trying to extract something from me. Time, attention, whatever.
>Hey Anon, let's go to Tim's or something
>Hey we're going to the campus bar later
>We should get together sometime
>My girlfriend is having a party
For some reason I get a pit in my stomach when people do this. Intuitively I know that they probably like me and just want to hang out, but I still feel like they have some ulterior motives. It still feels like they're infringing on me. On top of that I'm completely content to do my own thing, so. Probably autism or schizoid personality disorder or something.
>Sometimes I feel like it’s normal for relationships to be short and trying to make them last forever sours them.
I feel this too. I don't know if it's just me, but I get tired of people very fucking quickly. Even if things have been going well for a month or two I still wonder "what's it going to be like a year from now? I'll probably be sick of them."