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I hate everything and want to die so much bros

>>21281110
I'd say something like that to sound deep during my early 20s.
I'd say this today because I've actually experienced the truth of it
(please help me)

>>18464605
You're supposed to tell me where I'm wrong, not encourage me.
I worded my reply specifically for this purpose

What does philosophy and literature have to say about the process of sleep and those who can't find enough peace to even get 6 hours of it?
Any interesting takes on chronic insomnia?

It's either me who's become irrational to the point of madness, or everyone else I've spoken with. I'm either dead wrong with no basis for my claims, or else there MUST be some philosophers of the past who would side with me.
As far as coronavirus goes, the focal point and main defensive position for the absolute state of our society post-February 2020, is that:
*****Life is the holiest thing there is, and must be protected at all costs*****
At the expense of everything else?
In my european country, we've imposed laws that hinder childrens' and adolescents' education and upbringing, forcing them into an unnatural state of isolation. It's been only a year now, but from this point on there might be severe consequences to their mental and personal development that will become apparent in the years to come. Same goes for college and uni students or whoever else is supposed to be cultivating their personality through socialization and interpersonal relationships.
My question is: Is it not immoral to sacrifice the fundamental needs of young people, on our quest to preserve all life at all costs? Isn't this an extreme vanity and arrogance caused by a simplified and materialistic attitude towards life?
I'm not as big on philosophy as you guys outside a couple plato dialogues , but my common sense tells me that there must be things more important in this world than the mere safeguarding of our physical health to the point of social exhaustion.
>inb4 nice blogpost
W/e, please discuss even if I'm wrong and irrational

For some context, I wrote this bit when I was still a freshman, (so 15/16 if you forgive the poor writing) in HS. I journal periodically, and was reading through some past entries; the mind has been jogging since then. The writing is shit, but the sentiment is there.

>But, my dream was about this girl I started to notice in English class. She sits directly to the right of me, and probably has a massive crush on me. Really kind of cute, brown hair, relatively pale skin, very distinguished features In the dream, that I barely remember, context tells me she was a GF or something. It's getting difficult to remember because this dream ended well over 12 hours ago. But what I do remember, is walking with her, and she holds onto my waist with one hand, and and kind of uses me as a crutch to help her move, because I remember feeling the weight of her person, but then I moved my hand into the same position by her waist ( if that makes any sense ). Then she stars wholesomely laughing, in response to what had just happened, and we continued to walk while carrying each other’s weight. But this is when it happens, I start feeling super happy, like drugs, kind of happy.

>I just have this amazing feeling rush over me as I hold this girl’s, knowing she loves me as much as I love her, as I could feel the warm, smooth, and soft pale skin, and then the dream ends. I wake up, and for a split second of ignorant bliss, I think to myself, that I cannot wait to go see my wonderful girlfriend, and feel that again, I could not wait to hug her, and pick her up and hold her close, and see and feel her love for me.
Reality then kicked in, and I realized I had no girlfriend, and had no one to hold, and those feelings were just artificially produced in a dream. That rush just evaporated, leaving a depressed shell of what once was. I could feel the oppressed and ignored pit, drain and feel as raw as a new wound.

That dream messed me up for a good few days after that.

>>16800462
Fuck this one's hitting too close to home
5-5:30am is the time I usually wake up at night and my mind is swarmed by exactly this kind of thoughts in my hopeless attempts to get back to sleep

>>16216206
Not really anon, as much as everything's trivialised these days being suicidal isn't akin to having the Monday blues

I'm going to die friendless

>>15303260
we're a special breed, yet so cliched, so predictable

>>15219905
I wonder if going from 19 to 20 will change anything

>>15165145
We stood by some pond dat winta' day,
And da damn sun wuz honky, as dough chidden uh God,
And some few leaves lay on de starvin' sod;
– Dey had fallen fum an ash, and wuz gray. Slap mah fro!

Yo' eyes on me wuz as eyes dat rove
Ova' tedious riddles uh years ago;
And some wo'ds played between us t'and fro
On which lost da damn mo'e by our love.

De smile on yo' moud wuz de wastedest doodad
Alive enough t'have strengd t'die;
And some grin uh bitterness swept dereby
Like an ominous bird a-win'….

Since den, keen lessons dat love deceives,
And wrin's wid wrong, gots shaped t'me
Yo' face, and da damn God curst sun, and some tree,
And some pond edged wid grayish leaves.

Dough ah' wuzte watches framin' wo'ds t'fetter
Some spirit t'mine own in clasp and kiss,
Out uh de night dere looms some sense ’twere better
To fail obtainin' whom one fails t'miss.

Fo' winnin' love we win de risk uh losin',
And losin' love be as one’s life wuz riven;
It cuts likes contumely and keen ill-usin'
To cede whut wuz supuh'fluously given. 'S coo', bro.

p. Jes hang loose, brud. 28Let me den feel no mo'e da damn fateful drillin'
Dat devastates de love-wo'n wooer’s frame,
De hot ado uh fevered hopes, de chillin'
Dat agonizes disappointed aim! Right on!
So's may ah' live no junctive law fulfillin',
And mah' heart’s table bear no honky chick’s dojigger.

It really hit me when he said these