/lit/ - Literature

still not over it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IqCh3OkTRDY

holy fuck, good thing I live in Germany. We've read Goethe, Hesse, Kafka etc. in school and it was wonderful. I feel bad for burgers

>>15148520
I get what you're feeling anon. When you're home alone staring at a screen you don't feel like you're part of a physical world. It is only when you step outisde that you realize "damn, I'm really in this bitch". crazy how the real world can feel so surreal at times

>>13924757
I'm not actually planning to do this warehouse job for much longer, it's just a minijob. I actually don't mind the dullness of it, there isn't much happening and I don't have to be communicative by force, which I highly appreciate. The options for me are pretty limited with a fachabitur which is why I can't decide what I want to study. There's only a handful of studiengänge here in Dresden, I'd probably have to move out if i want a career that fits me. I tried computer science (Medieninformatik) at the HTW Dresden and dropped out this february not even finishing the first semester. Courses were too hard and I lacked the passion to actually study for the finals. Film school interests me because it's the only field I think I'll like and I have expertise in.
I learned from the 6 months of NEETdom that I don't wanna keep living this consumptious life full of junk food and entertainment. The issue is that I just don't know where to go. I feel pressured bc at my age you're supposed to prosper - you're supposed to have all of these friends and live a wild life and what not. I'm like the complete opposite of that right now.
Ich weiß nicht genau wieso aber ich fühle mich irgendwie gezwungen Deutschland zu verlassen. Hier ist nichts was mich großartig am Leben hält, abgesehen von meiner Familie. Dresden ist ziemlich altbacken, traditionell und langweilig. Das zeigte sich auch in der Landtagswahl. Ich würde voll gerne in Amerika oder vielleicht sogar Japan studieren, nur fehlt mir dafür das nötige Kapital.