/lit/ - Literature

books that help with existential dread stemming from belief in terror management theory and the fact that this mediocre existence is all there is before the spotlights turn off and the show inevitably ends forever? reading the ending of stoner a few weeks ago was the moment i realised the magnitude of death for the first time, this realisation had been building up for a while and i used to think im a "positive nihilist" for quite a while but i never took in the full seriousness of the fact that i will be dying whether i like it or not, that experience will end whether i like it or not, that not only i will cease, but with me everything as ive known it as well.. whether i like it or not, whether ive come to terms with it or not. i love life and love looking for what this world has to offer ti me a lot.. but i never saw the upcoming void so clearly as i do now and im terrified of it, nothing i do to continue functioning in this society feels real anymore, my mentally ill mom screeching at me, my previously abusive dad trying to calm the situation while continuously (understandably) pulling me back into family matters all the time, me being pretty close to obtaining my degree, parents telling me tonhave a word with my little brother about taking school seriously, it all feels so unreal, i know the cards ive been dealt couldve been so much worse, i have a solid social circle, a family im in touch with, im young and born in a 1st world nation but i never really realised that this is really it and it drains me, my hobbies feel pointless, my previously burning interest in the humanities feels pointless, going out feels pointless

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>you ugly? Get fucked kek
>you old? Get fucked kek
>you have goals? Only pussy matters get fucked kek
>you wage? Get fucked kek
>civilization is crumbling get fucked kek

>you wanna have a peaceful death? HOW YOU FUCKING DAREEEEEE