/lit/ - Literature

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i would characterize myself as being a shitty 486 computer circa 1995 trying to run software designed for alienware laptops today. or like someone trying to run Doom or Unreal on a fucking Gameboy. the software was not designed for a tiny little fucking computer like this. but i fucking want to run that software, and the only way i can do that is in terms of the actual things that my shitbox processor actually *can* do. which is what makes reading my stuff so fucking tortuous i am sure. because i have to work like five times harder to explain something that a next-gen computer could do quite easily. but alas i am a fucking busted and primitive model never intended to run advanced software

i am a tiny little brain trying to accommodate big-brain stuff and it doesn't work perfectly. it is *slow*. and there are *crashes* and *lockups* and other stuff. philosophy makes me

a) feel *really really really fucking stupid,* and
b) gives me the eerie feeling that this en-stupidifying process, which torments language, nevertheless makes me a slightly more interesting GameBoy, tho a GameBoy i am and a GameBoy i always will be. this software was not really meant for me, and doing so not only fucks up my processor, it also runs the risk of denigrating the software too. i admit this. but i want to run those programs

i was going to schizopost some stuff about sphinxes and capitalism and metaphysical bloatware and hegel but i'll do that later. this is more interesting