/lit/ - Literature

I am a depressed retard who feels like he exists to observe, not to experience. I just want to walk around and observe people and listen to their conversations. I feel like an outsider, like I'm not from here. I also look for a place I can call home but can't find one.

What are some good books for me? Is there anything like this?

>since yesterday visit subreddit Writing on reddit
>threads about writing "people of colour", diversity, how to add homos and not offend niggers while writing niggers
>"how to add a transexual person?"
>"how to write a woman???"
>"I have an idea for a book, is it good? should I write it or not worth it??"
How do they even exist and survive every day in the real world?