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>harhar get it black people are bad

>>14379612
{{Perhaps you have been coping since birth into believing love is such a big deal.

maybe

maybe
maybe huh? Isn't maybe a funny thing. Maybe I'm right. Maybe it means nothing.

My birthday is coming up soon. I don't really celebrate it. I better not get into the reasons behind my solitary existence, but my birthday is special for one reason. You could call it a gift to myself.

Every year, I make a chess move and then seal up a drawing of the position of the pieces in a letter and open it on the next birthday. Every year, I change the side of the board I'm playing for. It is my theory that if one tries their hardest to defeat yourself, it will always will end in a draw. Certainly, if you play as black with all you might, but as white with middling interest, you can "win", but it doesn't really count.

I'm a chess champion, so of course I've tried playing myself where you spin the board around after each move, and it always ends in a draw. I can remember exactly what I was thinking a moment ago and counter it perfectly. But what if you let a year elapse between every move and you've forgotten your own strategy? Is it still impossible to beat yourself? Will it all end the same? I will find out what happens but I don't know if I will learn anything, because I already know the end result is either checkmate or stalemate.

well anyway whatever who gives a shit. at the rate that I make moves, I'll be dead before I ever find out who wins. Like I said, I either win or end up in stalemate.

>>13646709
you can't trick me into joining your groups

I'm too wise to fall for propaganda about there being no third option and that I have to choose between the options given

>be me
>dinner with my mother and stepfather
>I don't do this often because I don't really get along with them
>I finish eating, but there's still food on my plate
>I don't eat after I'm full though
>Cue the trivial comments about the size of my eyes versus my stomach, or that I ordered too much
>anyway, the time to depart has nearly arrived and stepfather asks for a box to-go
>it's clearly for my food, since there's no other food remaining
>I consider briefly cancelling the order to pack up the food since I don't want to take the leftovers home, but I decide to say nothing
>so the plastic carton comes and gets set down
>I do nothing and the conversation grows strained as it is clear they are simply waiting for me to put the food in the box
>so she says: Well, put your food in the box and we'll get going
>that's alright, I don't want to take this stuff home, it won't keep well and there's not much left
>stepfather grabs my plate in a miffed fashion and fills the box himself
>once this is done, we all stand up to go
>the to-go box is still sitting on the table, as I have not picked it up and neither have they
>I start to walk away
>they tell me I'm forgetting my box
>I thought you were taking it, since you packed it up to go
>I packed it up so you could take it home
>I don't want it
>You're wasting food, you can't leave it behind
>I pick up the box and carry it until we pass by a trash can, where I dispose of it
>the ride home is grumpy and silent

It is truly puzzling.

>>12328770
actually, he said exactly the opposite. He was making fun of people who do everything a book tells them to.

with all the books you've read so far have you found one that tells you what the point of living is?