/lit/ - Literature

I'm looking for new stuff I wouldn't generally seek out on my own. these are some of the books i like/have been reading for a general starting point. the most difficult writer i've read is probably Pynchon. I'm open to anything
>Mishima, Confessions, Sound of Waves, Sailor
>Kiedis, Scar Tissue
>Autobiography of Malcolm X
>Pynchon, Lot 49, IV
>Straub, Ghost Story
>Wiesel, Night
>Lansing, Endurance
>Williams, Stand Out of Our Light
>Crichton, State of Fear

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Any books or essays that will help me get out of this cynic, meaningless, relativist state I found myself in?

I started reading serious philosophy and literature during thie COVID-era and I have to say my life has improved but after some time when serious queations started popping up I dropped into an existential nightmare. I continute to relativize and minimize everything. I turned to God and it helped for some time but my position on Christianity deteriorated over time and made me very scepetical of it all.

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I kind of agree with you. Books and philosophy has made me come close to suicide than anything else. I question everything and everyone. My mind is constantly occupied with thinking of metaphysics, ontology etc. I constantly go into phases of nihilism and relativism of everything. Things stopped being exciting to me. I need help anons.

I used to think Christianity would save me but the more I read the less I believe. Help.

Convince me we have souls and that our consciousness isn't merely a product of chemical reactions in our brains. Convince me that materialism is wrong. Sources of your wisdom would be appreciated