/lit/ - Literature

>>21470350
Original poster.
What if i am unable to feel grateful? What if i simply don't feel anything, other than the pleasure of being desired by someone and guilt when the post-nut clarity hits.

I mean i don't even need to cum. When the girl cums, i'm done aswell.
My pleasure is to please, just like i couldn't please my mother enough to see me. Maybe one of those girls will see me for who i am and take care of me?

Huge doubt though - i know it's not a desire, but a demand, that i have ensnared myself in and pull others into. What i want is not sex, what i want is to be able to express all the ugliness i bear inside of me without wanting to kill myself.
But how can i do that, if i literally don't know where to start?

So i just... dip deeper. Into every hole. The hole in my heart, the hole of the cunt, and the hole of the throat. My cum is a gift, a weapon and a curse.

>>21330667
>>21330596

You end up becoming quite a loving partner; On one hand it can be good as it can be a motivation to form further connections with your gf.
On the other hand, it can turn you into a narcissistic cock that will do anything to maintain a sense of self worth - because deep down you know, that if mommy didnt want you, how could you want yourself?

Every man has mommy issues

>>21329271
Because you don't want to die, the whole misery you live in is ascribed to the person you have created to cope with the world.
You want to kill that person, but not the subject that is within you.