/lit/ - Literature

I'm in a similar situation. I have a crisis of identity. I know longer know what is good about me. My accomplishment have not served me. And my downfalls fill my mind. Suicide has been a regular thought, though i know i won't do it. I get little pieces of help from a therapist, a close family member, a friend. and lit. My issues revolve around identity, a serious breakdown in empathy for a girl that i was in love with. I have read Ishmael and it gave a small piece of myself back. I've read women by bukowski and gave a little piece of myself back. I've looked at my finances and it's given a little piece of myself back. I am in state of complete withdrawal from the world. I've lost a lot of weight. I torture myself with guilt over a break in sanity that led to hurting the one i love. I'm tortured by the desperation i felt when i saw myself loosing her. and i'm tortured by the loss of my identity that led to it all and i continue to struggle, locking myself inside and finding little pieces where i can.