/lit/ - Literature

>>9522548
>Aquí no te toca nada;
>que un muchacho aún no ha llegado
>a saber qué es ser amado.

>>9186159
Blog post incoming, I usually hate these things but it's been a problem I've had for years now and I'm tired of being Pagliacci, so I'm just gonna get this off my chest.

In high school, people always told me I was really funny. This validation felt nice, feels nice, but only makes the reality of the situation more painful. Nobody seems to want to be my friend.

People always loved me at school, and laughed at everything I said. But the minute I left, every day, nobody ever invited me to anything. Nobody ever called me, texted me, nothing. I thought maybe people assumed I had friends because "of course he does, he's so funny!" so after graduating, I started taking the initiative.

I'd text them, ask them to hang out, or send them something funny. And they'd reply, or we'd get lunch, or they'd laugh at what I sent. But it never went anywhere. They'd stop replying, even if I had asked a question. If we met up, we'd leave with a respective "We should do this again sometime!" and I'd never hear from them again. Everything always went one way.

I kept telling myself that they're busy, and I just need to be persistent with them. But at what point does radio silence just mean "Leave me alone"?

I can't fucking figure out what's wrong with me. Like, if we're having interesting conversations and laughing whenever we're together, why do 100% of people never try to initiate anything with me. I just want to turn on my phone and see a message that isn't a reply for once, just a simple fucking "What are you up to?"

I don't know why I'm posting this on /lit/, I feel like such a fucking tool for complaining about this, but the loneliness is really getting to me and I'm honestly getting more and more paranoid every day.

I unironically feel exactly like the main character from Good Old Neon

https://sdmiller.github.io/octo/files/no_google2/GoodOldNeon.pdf

I mean I'm not dead so not 100%

>>8312215
You keep talking about death as a 'valid option' just like anything else, but can you elaborate on this feeling? Do you believe in an afterlife?

Suicide gets painted in a sort of romanticized, 'end of the suffering' way by most of society, but the more I hear from suicidal people it seems a lot more like a lack of feeling or caring about the world around them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X2dCkOI6LY

I feel like this^ clip sums it up fairly well, but i want to ask is this how you feel as well? If you're still hanging around this thread I'd love to know.

>>8233986
Maybe in pretentious hipster circles, but I mean whenever there are mainstream pushes for people to address video games as art, they present some of the shallowest experiences gaming has to offer.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Art_of_Video_Games#Games_exhibited

Look at the exhibit the Smithsonian put together, and tell me one game on that list that wasn't made to either simply entertain or tell a story. Not to say that some of the stories told in these games are bad, many have gripping narratives and relatable characters, but there's really nothing to analyze after that.

If people are going to take video games seriously, we should be showing them games with more complex themes and more substance. We should be emphasizing the aspects of storytelling that video games do better than older mediums, instead of trying to push stories that could be told in any other medium just as well.

>>7757424