/lit/ - Literature

>>14139269
Thought I was atheist, but really can't help but fascinate myself with Eastern Doctrines, their absolutely mind-blowing to a person like myself. Wanted to be an Egoist but the moralist in me is so nice, so moral. I even picked up a dollar someone dropped and ran back up to them so I could return it, never did I think for a second of pocketing it then, only after. Is it a thing where you condition yourself? I want to be a stone cold hard alpha but can't help being a romantic mess. I want to be read into philosophy but I read more often then not fiction and more often than not write poetry and half-baked short stories. I thought I was a hard-science type guy but after reading so much the amount of crazy shit that could be possible in the world, this strange,strange world, I figured things like telepathy, scrying and trance states are entirely possible. As for the crazy stone mason shit and Gnosticism who knows, but I rather apply myself to something I love in this peak of mine before searching for the truth in a highly controversial field, where I might be left unsatisfied. I thought I was destined be a strictly business-type of guy but I'm just a dead-faced monotone ex-drug addict that appeals to poetry through the last bit of love I have in me, because I'm a lover, an emotional type. The only thing I have pride in is how much i'm able to love. My work, my poetry, anything I write can be done by any other but the reason it is special is because it was done and finished by me and the beauty of it as it is is just there as it is.

So much to discover while im still young. I need to get off this drug business though. I wish you all the best whoever read to the end, much love to you.