/lit/ - Literature

I want to work but I don't want a job.

im so tired of every slimy loser in the world trying to manipulate every situation to attack their perceived enemies. Putin is a KGB agent and pretty clearly not a "religious fanatic" yet this commie faggot has a hard on for genociding Christians like commies tend to do, so waste not want not! better lie and manipulate to justify my own hatred instead of giving some clear and precise commentary! yea bros Putin is a religious fanatic, totally not a stone cold materialist oligarch born from a ruthless intel agency of a militant atheist regime

i cant believe people actually look up to "thinkers" like this that dont even have the mental capacity to control the impulse to indulge in things like this

James… you made me happy

Books where the protagonist is an empty shell?

>>22390891
it's all so tiring

I haven't had a drink in four (4) days.

There's nothing more painful than chasing your dreams and just straight up failing. It feels like a lead weight has been dropped on my soul

>>22185193
I've already put my shit up on 3 sites and no one is reading it. I was hoping for a handful of bored people giving it a go at least.

>"you should take daily walks anon it's good for you"
>start going on walks daily
>brain filled with negative thoughts the whole time I walk
>it's really unpleasant and as soon as I start I just want to turn back and go home
>not even putting on music or a podcast helps
Why is the brain like this man
Exercise is objectively a good thing, it's supposed to feel good

It is the cusp of my 31st birthday and I find myself far from the man I wish to be. I'm in need of a catalyst of evolution, anon.

The archetypes with which I define myself are wanting, and my obsessions have yet to be shaken fully. This past year of my life has awoken me- I never thought I'd be here, surrounded by dead, empty idols of childish things, action figures, Legos, thousand dollar lightsabers, vinyl records, (still sealed in their packaging and no record player in sight). Shelves of fancy books upon which my fingers have scarcely grazed. Movie prop replicas, etc etc.

I came to the realization several months ago that it was time to rid myself of my physical idols that I had acquired of the last decade or so of my life, since it was clear now to me that such collecting amounted to nothing more than a sad attempt to inject meaning into my shallow, empty existence. I can only imagine the responses being cut inside your head, but I beg your patience to to stay with me to the end of this post, as I wish to arrive at my watershed moment with you, and with your guidance elevate out of the mire to which I have become all too accustomed.

I grew up with franchises like Star Wars, and Batman and never really had a good relationship with my dad, so I looked to pop-culture to fill the gap of role models, of course following the path of the angsty nihilistic dickhead, but I find myself still in my 30s, looking up to roll models like Luke Skywalker, genuinely holding in high regard the mythological weight of the architypes in Retiurn of the Jedi, yet knowing all the while that I could be using that effort and time to discuss works of much greater worth and meaning. I never found the next level and I don't know what to do. I don't know where to look. I recognize that I don't want to continue to be this person- I don't want to continue to be aiming so low. My best friend is 39 and is obsessed with The Last Jedi “ruining“ Star Wars, complaining about Marvel, and parroting Youtubers like critical drinker, believing himself to be intelligent. I just hear echoes of myself in his words, and I don’t want to be like that in 8 more years.

I want to get back into reading- I want to get back into a frame of mind which is measured against higher ideals. I know there's something more and that is what I'm seeking. The desire tears away inside my head like claws. I’m the self-aware monkey who now needs direction. What is the higher level role model of a man goes past these superficial archetypes with which we have measured ourselves in this modern age? What are the epic works that are truly worth the time of a man, anon? What can replace my juvenile attraction the to “cool factor” of Batman, Darth Vader, and Patrick Bateman?

You know, part of me wants to embrace Relativism because, even though it's soulless and depressing, it seems like genuinely the closest we will get to solving philosophy. How the fuck do we account for differences in sense experience and intuitions otherwise? The gap appears impassable.

>>21801950
>i intentionally read books i know i won't like to increase my low tier ratings without changing the rating system so that low would be semi-positive too and without lying. I derive more pleasure from finishing a shitty book than an actually good one since then I have more negative ratings

nevermore

>tfw just received news that my friend from high school is getting married to a 10/10 girl
>tfw he was one of the worst students in our class with me being one of the best but he's a good guitar player
>meanwhile I'm a 24 yo KHHV with zero prospects for the future
Are there any books that accurately convey the experience of people who are "left behind" and whose social development was arrested at an early stage?

What are some books about emptiness? Sometimes I don't even feel like a human being, I feel like a mannequin pretending to be a real person.

>meet dead pet in dream
>wake up and he's gone

>>21475118
Mourning

>When you bend your book so much and the spine breaks

>24
>no life direction
>no job
>hate myself
>disappointment to my parents who were told I would be someone
>falling out of love with my girlfriend of four years who loves me desperately
>can't get out of bed till 4 pm most days
>savings dwindling
>embarrassed to be alive
>ashamed to be alive
>feel guilty for existing
>nothing is enjoyable anymore

books for this feel?

>put $500 on heaven
>loses to fucking lake in the first round

>>21284398
>40 pages
>pages

>Realize that I share a lot in common with how the mentally ill characters in his novels think and act
I am fucked up, ain't I?

>be kid
>get told you're special and that you can do great things
>grow up
>nobody cares about you anymore
>only people who listen to you want stuff from you
> you have no talents, yet still somehow believe you will do something special
>you will more than likely not be remembered

How do I escape bros

Is this the default modern condition?