/lit/ - Literature

>>19692035
I don't know op, but I struggle with the notion of 'normality' every day because I have "schizophrenia" or more accurately "schizoaffective disorder bipolar type".

See, I can't tell what is real any more. My "delusions" are religious in nature, and to deny my beliefs is to deny religion entirely. I believe the voices I hear are spirits. My doctor believes it is myself speaking to myself. Why does psychology assume that it is me talking to myself? Why is it impossible that it could be spirits talking to me?

I just get frustrated because I hear voices of the spirits of dead famous philosophers. We talk about philosophy a lot.

I just get so frustrated because I feel like modern psychiatry is just a sham to sell pharmaceutical drugs because my schizoaffective disorder is very treatment resistant (I take 3 anti psychotics and it's the exact same as if I take nothing.). The medications without insurance cost like 1000$ a month without insurance and medicaid. It's all bullshit and there's no saving me I'm probably going to commit suicide in a few years because there's a few voices that bully me constantly 24/7.

Any advice /lit/? Sorry for the blogpost. I was just trying to help op out.