/lit/ - Literature

The world is my representation representation of what? All signs point to existence being inherent to the universe and not merely to its representation yet that is impossible to prove and the implications of causality and existence being inherent to the universe are many and schizophrenic. However it is still impossible to comprehend what existence even is even though it is inherent to our own representation. it is impossible to explain basic things like what is a question, what makes a valid deduction in the non-mathematical realms. what kind of philosophy is true and what not. Why is awareness both inextricably tied to thought and able to observe thought as a separate entity even though how can you observe something if you have no thoughts about it and don't have the faculty of perceiving it. The very basics of reality can't be explained and don't make any sense God doesn't solve anything because our vision of God will always be teleological yet teleology isn't even inherent to the universe supposedly since our teleology oriented brains evolved through a non-teleological process. but how do we know that? supposedly we are brains but that is determined empirically and it is impossible to understand the relationship between empirical science and reality because empirical science gains knowledge about the thing in itself yet it is impossible to determine whether the thing in itself even exists. If we resort to apophatic theology we draw the same conclusions and the One is simultaneously a unity but it is not Unity and you can say that the one is a unity yet you also can only say that the one is not something which makes no sense because if you say that something is not something you are still saying that it is something namely that it is not something. I don't understand the dialectic i'm currently engaging in because the rules and where the concepts come from is all unexplainable and not formalized like logic please someone fucking explain reality none of it makes any sense god damn it

>>20111298
even you guys don't get it. nobody gets it. I guess I guess my brain just doesn't operate in this century. I have a strange bloodline as half peasant and half nobleman with cult leaders and advisors to kings in my list of notable ancestors. Even my own family members don't get it because this history is weak in them. It's strong in me and that's why I don't fit in, why I don't belong here. I inherited it all as the firstborn son, all of the tradition of my bloodline is in my genetics, but at base my family is still stuck in the 13th century. So when people talk to me, I don't understand. My subconscious still sees things from the perspective that it's the height of the bubonic plague and I have to ensure I harvest enough this year to feed myself and pay the tax to my lord. So when people talk to me, I think they're mad. Why are you talking to me about this? What are you even talking about? I still live in the era when the stars were gods, not balls of hydrogen, and we had souls, not brains. Intellectually I know we are just animals, but deep inside I still believe everything is divine and I still carry the divine legacy. That's why I can truly understand the force of the revelation that God is dead. This modern life is absurd to me, and at this point I am just along for the ride, nothing provides so much interest and wonder to me as observing the development of the modern human. I'm not smart, but there is no great genius who could possibly understand my perspective on life, due to how absurd it has been, and how this world has made me a schizoid freak, so that I constantly think the most insane and bizarre things. But it's still everyone else who seems mad to me, I have no beliefs, they are the ones who are delusional. But the fact that I have no beliefs means I do not belong here, in this world, but purging belief was the only option when faced with the lack of divinity in this world

i'm going to learn everything
you think this is a shitpost
you think i won't do it
you think i won't even start
you think i'm not serious
you think that's impossible
you think i'm an idiot
that's why i'm going to learn everything and you aren't