/lit/ - Literature

i fucking envy the religious people so fucking much, they got at least "hope" that there is afterlife... i dont believe in it at all. i dont want to be fucking knowledge pilled, i want to be bluepilled sheep, but that will never happen, and i cant fucking undo it at any cost imaginable... i try to fucking brainwash myself into thinking that there will be reincarnation of some sort, but i cant fucking do it... i wanna get out of this god forsaken way of thinking, like really, last week i thought about goin back to church, to maybe gain that "enlightment"... holy fuck bros how do i make those thoughts go away