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I'm just a college student in my first semester but I just can't stop smoking thc. I should stop right? I want to be a nurse. I can't be smoking weed. I can't be high on the floor. I can't be high even a night before and retard myself. Fuck. I can't be smoking this shit. I should stop. Fuck man I've been smoking this for 2 years straight. It's going to remain in my system from when I've actually stopped for at least 4 months. Meaning I should make sure its out of my system that long before clinical begin. It's interacting with my meds making me feel practically nothing during the day. I am getting twitches.

Now reasons to continue smoking. Don't feel like killing myself. People around me seem way happier just seeing that I am not a depression blackhole in that moment. Stops the molestation and abuse flashbacks and can get to sleep at night.

Why am I always addicted? I need to stop.