/lit/ - Literature

>18yrs male
>about to drop out of high school where I've (for the first time in my life) made some friends
>I haven't felt my fingers in a week, they function but it's like there's no blood circulating
>Concider suicide often
>When I don't feel well, I hear voices
>I've hugged and kissed, even spooned but still virgin
>Still managed to get cucked
>Spend my days stressing my schoolwork, never doing it
>I don't sleep often and eat bread with cheese and drink only unprocessed milk
>I get very well along with girls if I put on a fun act, but I can't be at all be personal with, they go away
>Still need girls around, when I'm alone I have a consuming lust
>Sometimes my body will simply shake with need of sex that my hand cannot ease
>I'm afraid I will frighten someone and that my family would know who I am and that I am not a happy child
>I have decided that I will bicycle through europe this summer
>I will kill myself on the mediterraenian shore during a sunset and hope no-one finds me

In non-pornographic work, I hate it.
Makes me miserable and unhappy with my own sex life. Especially if it is feelsy sex, where the subjects engaged feel extreme happiness, derived from each others bodies (love?).
It's like being cucked by imaginary people and I hate it.

>>8737620
>Don't think you're amazing because you can act like a wise grandpa

What the fuck am I then supposed to do? My emotions are so muted that as a person I would be a void if I wouldn't be well-read
My only function in my social life is to be that wise boi who is liked by everybody but nobodys friend. Well-spoken but completely neutral, I have never experienced a close relationship but I'm held in respect by people who know me.
I hate it but I can't do anything else

I bought a copy of Infinite Jest after putting it off for years. How badly did I waste my money, bros?

>mobo dies
>projector could be hooked up to roku
>lol noaudio xdd

>tablet too small to watch videos on

>debating reading for the first non-plane time in years

>>7821990
>your children will never colonize Mars because people decided those resources were better used building interracial breeding grounds

>you just cracked open some husserl
>he's balls deep in your girl

>gender