/lit/ - Literature

>>16901960
Caring about spoilers is midwit. Like, everyone knows Jesus wins but it's still a good story. Everyone knows what happens to the ring and to Sauron in Lord Of The Rings, but it's still a good story.

Always the same question, isn't it? Always. Why not? Why the fuck not! Watch your netflix. Your /x/, your /lit/, your /his/. Scroll through the catalog, read the opinions of the well and the less well meaning. Argue with them! State your opinion, be cocky but not too cocky. Make anon engage. (you)s, this addictive tragedy. Give, but not too much. Take, but don't overreach. Never overreach. For my sake. For your sake. No spooks here, just anon.

There it is again. Is it a need to 'show off' some form of weakness, in this case paranoia? Is that a word too strong? I don't get 'gangstalked', not that I 'noticed'. But am I on lists? Official possibly secret lists? Probably. But there it is again! Right fucking there! It's not paranoia. It's anxiety in part, sure. Is it fear of letting go of habits? Is that the wrong way to put it? What do I have? What am I doing? Why am I this lazy, or is it really depression? I tried this a year ago on paper. Is it going to work this time? Will I stick to the regime? I better. Better. I want to get better. I will get better. The fear, the troubles, the malign patterns, they're temporary. I can work on them. I do work on them. I teach myself to enjoy working on them. I have to teach myself to be diligent. Punctual. Confident. After all, that's the key right? Confidence, the neuro-technology of success. Sheer willpower. I think I potentially have a lot more of that, than I grew up thinking. Trust yourself anon. Roots in hell and branches in heaven. That's how it works. The feet tingle. A good sign. I have to work. Become more systematic. Learn, study the ideas. I know which ones. (all of them)
So much to do. So so much.