/lit/ - Literature

>barely read anything for weeks because I'm forcing myself through the brothers Karamazov and it's so fucking boring and shoves its stupid and trivial philisopical themes in my face and I know that if I don't read it and proclaim it to be a work of genius then people will say I'm a pleb

>Wow son, you're always reading books or reading on the computer. You must be so smart and learning so much!

>realise I've figured out a good life philosophy
>realise that it's vague and bullshitty and there is no heuristic or core distillation of how to live a "good life"

Not to single it out but stoicism as a cuck philosophy is a fair criticism, just as every method of living has its flaws.

My current method is no method other than my moment to moment judgement. But that could leave me to be brainwashed by marketing

Has anyone else blown their chances of ever achieving anything intellectually worthwhile?

I liked my subjects at school but thoughtlessly picked a chemical engineering degree. Even at its best, a chemical engineering degree is just introductory maths / physics / chemistry courses along with a load of job training-esque stamp collecting courses. A fourth year physics student could easily learn any part of the equivalent chemical engineering student's curriculum, but vice versa is obviously not true. I feel really sickened to have wasted my time in a glorified job training degree. I have my entire life to waste on pointless "professional" BS, so to have a university degree that is glorified job training is depressing.

In addition, I picked my nearest university instead of the best possible for my grades and realised halfway through that the courses have much less content and depth than other universities and employers consider me dumb. My courses were a huge joke compared to what I've seen from other universities. As an example, I got to fourth year without knowing what dev, grad, eigenvectors, or curl were, and I didn't know the difference between a model and a theory, (and this is the UK, so I took zero phsyics courses).

Sometimes I feel like an unwarranted snob to criticise my university so harshly, but it deserves criticism when it skips entire topics that other universities teach to all STEM students. And it got government money because I chose it. What a fucking joke, they have almost no incentive to offer courses with proper content. It loves advertising its old age but it offers shallow shit.

I remember one really stamp collecty course in fourth year that I really fucking hated and realising that other fourth year students at a good university, doing maths or physics, would be learning almost cutting edge secrets of the universe stuff. I knew that it made no difference whether I did well or not, I would still have achieved literally fucking nothing.