/lit/ - Literature

>>23229809
I like a girl I've come to know online a little bit too much. I only approached her because I found a chance to say some absurd funny shit that would make both of us laugh (mostly for my own entertainment), but then she turned out to be this earnest and level-headed woman that has gained my respect as time went on. It's not right because she clearly doesn't reciprocate my own feelings given that I'm the one initiating almost all interactions, with the typical unseen/unrepelied texts you get used to on social media, and trying to establish that kind of rapport online is a needlessly complicated hassle. You always have to consciously present some sort of attribute, waving from afar and sending signals and all this b.s instead of organic communication and fruitful rounds of observation. This surface level game of chess just sucks, it's demeaning and debasing. Having already been through a relationship that was built on those shaky grounds, i don't want to go through that ringer again. I don't know what else to do. I could just waltz around in her university or her areas of preference in order to ''bump into her'' and actually read her self in a natural context, but of course that's too close to creepo territory to begin with.
I just want to (or have to) get it done with in a clear, direct, and conclusive fashion so she doesn't keep haunting my thoughts for longer. I could spill the beans in a respectful & straightforward way strictly online, but that would be a guaranteed resounding No with an extra asterisk for disgust. I probably should have stopped using social media instead of getting in too deep.