/lit/ - Literature

>try to read outside
>someone comes up to me and says "why you trying to be the main character so hard bro?"

>be home
>feel lazy and unproductive
>would literally sit and watch hours of useless youtube videos on hours
>play vidya here and there
>go out
>suddenly feel like I can get a grip of my life
>want to be more productive and have plans I want to implement in my life to make my life better

Why am I like this? Its like being home is a curse.

I need to get my shit together. I need to stop jerking off to porn so much.

>>14986365

help me or shut the fuck up, you're not helping. you fucking slut with daddy issues.

Not to get too off topic but I never watched the original movie; I read the book and then watched Bladerunner 2049. I like both a lot. They were so different that comparing them beyond their similarities was pointless because they were doing different things and telling a different story. It was nice seeing the homages the book, which were more likely just references to the first movie, but it was nice nonetheless.

>>14636968
I got something worse.
>at new years party with my first girlfriend who is growing distant from me after I had erectile dysfunction the first time we tried to have sex, and the times we did have sex afterwards were darkened by the shadow of my first failure to perform and were ultimately dead actions, but we still care about each other
>she gets really fucked up and halfway to the party gets really attracted to the only other guy there (this is a party with 6 people total, all close friends of her)
>end up completely disconnected from everyone at the party
>when its time to go to sleep, try and finger her but i cant even find the fucking vagina
>i cant fall asleep
>shes trying to fall asleep with her back towards me
>spooning is really uncomfortable for me so i try to get her to fall asleep facing me
>for the first time, she brushes off my hand as if disgusted by me
>cant go to sleep
>lay in the bed until morning with my whole being aching in anguish and being the most alone I've ever felt in my life, begging god to just let sleep take me
thanks for reading my blog post

>>14429466
I met a girl at the beginning of this month. She said she really liked me. She took my virginity. Now she no longer likes me as much. It seems like she loves me but is not in love with me, so to speak. Our first two weeks together were good. Then she became sad. It doesn't feel like we "click" anymore. At times I wonder if she stays with me because she pities me. Yesterday I went deep into her instagram spam, and saw how deeply she loved her ex-boyfriend, who broke up with her 8 months ago and used her for sex after that. This love is nowhere near how it seems she feels towards me. It seems like she's broken, as she said so herself. I wish she wasn't sad. I wish she was in love with me. I'm not even obsessed with her. I'm just sad. Maybe I'll find someone who loves me.

>32
>in my own way
>the society of the spectacle

>>12119063
I can't remember

Why do you keep coming back?