/lit/ - Literature

How do you cope with the fact no one reads around you? It feels my whole life I've only been able to discuss books I've read to old English teachers and ocassionally my cousin. But it feels lonely sometimes that I don't have anyone in real life to talk to about what I've read or am reading. Does anyone have this feel?

4chan-inspired short story.
Forgive me.

https://medium.com/@PlatinumB/january-0-8964c41547e8

How do you even make effective physical character descriptions?
Is having lesser details better?

>>9234177
I'm kinda still finding out. All my life I've been into technology and guitar, but at around 16 I got deep into classical music, basically spent every day doing nothing but listening to the shit, from ockeghem to cage and everything in-between. If anyone remembers that youtube channel magischmeisjeorkest, I used to love that shit before it got deleted, something about classical music and anime, I liked that aesthetic. During that time I got interested in philosophy, particularly scholastic philosophy. At age 17 I started playing viola, and at 18 moved to violin, I learned the partita no.2 for solo violin by bach in full, and saint-saens introduction and rondo capriccioso which I think I'm able to play to a decent enough standard.
I was home schooled most of my life, only attending public school up until the end of the 2nd grade. I'm 19 now and entering community college, planning to transfer to UW for computer engineering, but also doubtful about abandoning music. Lately I've been into zizek, hegel, marx, socialism etc. Not necessarily because I advocate or agree with them, but because I think there's something that they missed or failed to attain to which I call Catholic socialism (not 'Christian socialism').
I'm also pretty interested in the relationship between ontology and quantum theory, I think that with one or two more swings of the dialectical pendulum we might make a groundbreaking discovery in philosophy, thus reconciling the universal with the particular and marking the beginning of a new golden era of mankind, which in some albeit confused sense may have been the case during the carolingian renaissance.

Let's talk about this fucking age we live in.
Specifically, our human institutions.
There's appears to be no place for genuine philosophy any more. Actually, I'll extend this and say that there's no place for genuine humanitarianism.
Maybe in the past there was a place where a person who's primary project in life is to uncover the truth about reality could go, and be at home. Maybe there wasn't. But that's what the medieval university appears to me to be anyhow.
I want to grab somebody on the street by the shoulders and say "what do you believe."
I feel that way because there's no place for this to happen, it's always an intrusion in society to ask about life, everybody lives performing all these works but the moment somebody whispers 'why' it's suddenly perceived as meta, not welcome in the workplace, or the library, or the schools. There's always some productive activity people are engaged in in their public lives to which real thought is an interruption. But to me everything else is an interruption. What worse is there than to pass through life not realizing what any of it was? I feel like philosophy is the most crucial, life-or-death struggle that it keeps me awake at night, a fact that means I will never not have bags under my eyes, and will never properly habitually settle into a sustainable, productive routine of daily living and working. Why is there no public space for my sorrows? I spend so much effort on it after all, modern science ought to be able to convert it into electricity at the very least. I want to be understood by other people, and not posthumously either.
The coming generations won't be able to fill the gap left by the baby boomers, the introspectives have no place in the society their fathers created. The internet augments this, by giving them a place, like here. And so we learn to be habitually docile, unpreductive. Although sometimes intelligent, intelligence can't benefit us if there's no place for it, and if there were we couldn't apply ourselves. What will happen to the world when every worker bee stops to ponder or sometimes when he feels crushed by these questions does not go out at all? We need a new basis for all these works we do, there has to be another paradigm shift, or another large historically significant dialectic like the french revolution. We can't go on in this way where the focus has been shifted from man and God to the world man created.