/lit/ - Literature

There hasn't been a lot going on lately.
Earlier this week I got sick and threw up in my car as I was driving, so I guess that's some experience.
I failed a bit at the secondary duties in my new job and was pretty frustrated as its affecting my rapport with the rest of the team.
I mentioned before that I sometimes felt like life in an asylum would be almost preferable to my current life but after more investigation into the matter, perhaps monastery life is closer to what I feel drawn to. Of course, this is still unfeasible for me given my familial attachment. Thus, I've began thinking of ways I could be more monk-like in my life, such as meditation. I've already got the abstinence part down and I don't partake in self-inflicted pleasures of the flesh as often.
Another thing that brought this on a bit was the birth of my nephew; I always believed that I wanted children and I love the little guy but I don't think I could stomach cleaning piss and shit and dealing with hormones for 18+ years. I realize that I want to be a mentor, not a parent. I want to pass on my worldview and my interests.
On another front, I have been writing a little bit. That riddle project has at least turned into a barebones plot with two better-defined main characters.
I also find myself craving friendship with the opposite sex; I don't want to go at it directly in the romantic way but I do find myself censoring the words I use a bit compared to what I would say someone of the same sex.
Something else that has come my attention is that Christianity isn't descended from Judaism in the modern sense; both have root in the ancient Israelite religion that is also called Judaism but modern Judaism observes the Talmud, a work to my knowledge iterates on the the things I found controversial in the Torah such as the treatment of gentiles. I cannot bring myself to believe in something that preaches inequality based on something that a person cannot change about themselves such as their family lineage.

There hasn't been a lot going on lately.
Earlier this week I got sick and threw up in my car as I was driving, so I guess that's some experience.
I failed a bit at the secondary duties in my new job and was pretty frustrated as its affecting my rapport with the rest of the team.
I mentioned before that I sometimes felt like life in an asylum would be almost preferable to my current life but after more investigation into the matter, perhaps monastery life is closer to what I feel drawn to. Of course, this is still unfeasible for me given my familial attachment. Thus, I've began thinking of ways I could be more monk-like in my life, such as meditation. I've already got the abstinence part down and I don't partake in self-inflicted pleasures of the flesh as often.
Another thing that brought this on a bit was the birth of my nephew; I always believed that I wanted children and I love the little guy but I don't think I could stomach cleaning piss and shit and dealing with hormones for 18+ years. I realize that I want to be a mentor, not a parent. I want to pass on my worldview and my interests.
On another front, I have been writing a little bit. That riddle project has at least turned into a barebones plot with two better-defined main characters.
I also find myself craving friendship with the opposite sex; I don't want to go at it directly in the romantic way but I do find myself censoring the words I use a bit compared to what I would say someone of the same sex.
Something else that has come my attention is that Christianity isn't descended from Judaism in the modern sense; both have root in the ancient Israelite religion that is also called Judaism but modern Judaism observes the Talmud, a work to my knowledge iterates on the the things I found controversial in the Torah such as the treatment of gentiles. I cannot bring myself to believe in something that preaches inequality based on something that a person cannot change about themselves such as their family lineage.

I just realized earlier today that I only write so that I can continue to LARP as a writer.