/lit/ - Literature

I feel like a fool who has overloaded himself with too much work. I finished my undergrad last year, and currently work as a salaried engineer. I decided outright as soon as I graduated that I wanted to pursue my Master's degree in programming while at the same time making an attempt to take the LSAT and get into law school, because engineering bores me, and at the same time dedicate most of my free time to writing and music.

I started my Master's in January, and I have to take my midterm today, of which I did not study for at all. I've been floundering the entire semester, turning in nothing for my first project, mechanically trudging through lectures without thinking about the material. The overall ennui experienced in this semester is most likely going to culminate with dropping the class and eventually dropping from the master's program completely by the end of the year. Personally, I would love to sever myself from this dreadful Master's completely, to focus what energy I have left of a 40 hour work week into LSAT studying, writing, reading, and music. The problem I am struggling with is one with my ego, there is nothing to boast and brag about giving up halfway through the first semester. I am only taking a single introductory Master's course, and I can't even motivate myself to at least complete it before I drop out. What good am I? I know for a fact that I am making a fool of myself for telling friends, family, coworkers of my grandiose plans in the months leading up to the start of the semester. And now I will have to live with the embarrassment of either lying to their face when they ask of my progress, or telling the truth. At least I haven't completely ruined myself yet, I haven't told anyone of my aspirations for Law... and that is only because I fear what will happen to me if I do follow through with law. The possibility exists that I will be in this exact same position, a lawyer suffering from the pangs of l'ennui.

Still, there is nothing left for me to cultivate in engineering, I've mastered the domain of engineering, I've reached the optimal peak of the profession: getting and retaining a job that pays an obscene amount of money (before my department gets liquidated and outsourced to the Orient). There is nothing more to engineering, in this sense at least. I speak vulgarly and badly of this profession, which is undeserving, and in actuality I do not harbor any hatred towards it. I simply fell for the age old trick, 'get a STEM degree and get a job', and I have, and I've been sore ever since. The education I've received is only useful for getting a job, and now that I have one, I've reached my conclusion with engineering. Now, I must go take this exam, and gracefully bow out and get a partial refund for these god damned credit hours.

Pic related, sitting in my uni library next to D H Lawrence books in the English literature section. A book cover with his face on it is staring at me. Hello, friend.

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