/lit/ - Literature

I've been thinking about how people used to have dreams in black and white back before colored TVs. It's weird because people didn't have dreams in black and white before television existed at all. It was just a thing that happened to people who watched black and white TV. Nowadays people have dreams about video games, usually after they play them a lot. Some people relate it to the Tetris effect. I think they also have dreams about animated media as well. It's interesting how people have dreams about these things.

There was a post on /x/ or /pol/ some time back, it was screen-capped but I don't have it, and it was by a guy who claimed to have worked for MK Ultra. He said that the brain can't actually differentiate between what happens on TV and what happens in real life, even if our consciousness can. So people subconsciously believe that what they've seen in movie and television was real and the brain remembers it like it was. He said the CIA and deep state and all those people were using it as part of their brainwashing program. When you talk to the type of people that watch TV often it does seem pretty plausible. But I don't think that's true that the brain can't differentiate between screens and reality. But since people have dreams in black and white, and people have dreams about other things they see on screens, I don't think it's entirely wrong either. My personal take is that the brain interprets what happens on a screen in a similar way it interprets dreams. That is why there's a cross between dreams and screens. Obviously, one can watch Harry Potter and be certain that it was not real at all. One can also have a dream and be certain that it wasn't real at all.

I'm curious as to what the implications of this are. It makes me want to filter what kind of media I watch on screens, since I don't want any brainwashing to make its way to my dreams and subconscious. I hope that the MK Ultra anon was wrong as well. If the brain really can't know the difference between live action TV and real life, then it makes me want to avoid looking at anything live action on screens at all. I would prefer if all my dreams, memories, and experiences are my own. I don't want elites beaming their propaganda into my brain. Even if it only applies to dreams and not memories it still makes me want to stop playing games and watching stuff altogether. I don't want my psyche shaped by the shitty pop media I consume. Reading books is the only thing worth enjoying. I would prefer if my dreams were based on my real life experiences and not the hours I wasted on Civ 5. Even if that dream where I had a threesome with Rei and Asuka was nice. I would still rather have shitty dreams about my reality. Hyperreality is real.

This all sounds like schizo bullshit. Maybe it is. But I would appreciate it if someone gave their serious thoughts on the matter that wasn't just telling me to take my meds.

Why can't I stand to be around other people? Whenever I'm in the presence of another person I just get uncontrollably uncomfortable. I have to get away from them as soon as I can without outing myself as a sperg. I just want to be by myself. Is that really too much to ask?

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Take it from someone who almost went off the deep end. Wanted to do a shooting, but never had the balls to buy a gun. My plan was to make little explosive charges to blow the locks off the doors of the classrooms once the school went into lockdown so that no one could hide from me. Just killing two classrooms of people (30x2) would've given me a high score of 60.
I made these two posts, in fact: >>20433931 >>20433972 . Didn't want to admit I understood where these people are coming from because I was one of those people myself.

I felt alienated both at home and at school, my parents were neglectful at best and abusive at worst. I was bullied and excluded at school, and vividly remember being singled out for humiliation several times. It felt like everyone was hostile to me, all the time. In computer science - a class I thought I would fit in, the first week of class, some guy just started taking the piss out of me unprovoked. Every project I worked on, he was there to tell me that I had no idea what I was doing. Looking back he was obviously a jealous cunt - he had to copy his code from his friends while I did everything myself.
Band was another place where someone at the bottom of the social hierarchy should've fit in but even in band I was singled out. I just wanted to play music - that's all I was there for. But everyone else was hypercompetitive and kept pushing me down, saying I was a bad player because I didn't master some technical piece.
I was a loser in the eyes of the losers. That's not even counting the shit talking I got from normies and my declining grades. Around this time I found out about 4chan (/r9k/ specifically), Elliot Rodgers, Columbine, and incel forums and could relate to these people. Ironically I think these groups saved me even if they gave me inspiration for what I could've done. Just knowing there were other people out there like me, and that there was one place I wasn't alienated from was comforting. There was a sense of solidarity, I guess. Rather than take out my resentment on other people (then myself) I could share my experiences with anons and fellow incels as a support group.
If you want to make your mass murderer, just alienate him from everything and give him no choice but to take out that hatred on other people. It's what almost happened to me.