/lit/ - Literature

I wish I was born Slavic. I hate my culture so much. I wish I could go to an orthodox church but they won't let me receive communion because I'm trans. All I want is to be a traditional slavic trad wife and be bred and bear 10 kids. I was born male and can't do this. No I do not want to be the "masculine" figure and be a trad husband. I fucking hate myself and think about blowing my brains out daily. Just wanna be a trad wife.