/lit/ - Literature

>>11974619
don't

>tfw using friends only for telling them my philosophical ramblings, and waiting till they end their line so i could respond with my shitty insights
Why i am so terrible person? I cant even be sincere. I talk and think about literature much more than i write or read it. Stimulants are helping a bit with numbing futility of my day/day life, and make bit more creative, but crash is unevitable. I also combine drugs with SSRI medications, which not only does not help me (i know, i should not take drugs alongside them, but its one of a few pleasures i cant resist). I should just kill myself. What are some books with that theme: dreaming about one and doing anothers, and about this constant existential dread. Please do not delete this thread, i need your help. I could post it on /r9k/, but i feel strong disgust toward this board. I love you /lit/, you are closest to imaginary, cool friend i always wanted to have

>when you realize no one is publishing your novel