/lit/ - Literature

>>23033659
How much more? I literally feel as if my skull is empty. As if there's a crater on the back and there's nothing there. It's this sort of "phantom pain" like sensation. How much dumber can I get?
>>23034302
>>23035959
You're both right in a sense, but my problem is that I always want to give anything a chance. But because as time has gone on and my brain has degraded, thus I cannot properly articulate why I find something to be subpar, I feel insecure about it and I have it ringing at the back of my head. As if there's some hidden knowledge or greatness in that "ludo" vidya I haven't finished yet, and I need to do it. It took me literally a decade to finish Deus Ex Human Revolution, because I'd play only once every few months. But then I finished and... it was fine, I guess. The problem I think is that we've seen pretty much most of the things that they have to tell, so what's left? You can get the same story beats from the average 2-hour Hollywood slop or some artsy "film", regardless of the genre.

If I play a vidya, I want to relax and just have fun, with a TPS/FPS/HNS. But those are always a rudimentary story held together by set-pieces. If I have fun, I can ignore it and just waste an hour, but these days I cannot think of anything that's just "fun". Vidya have become so bloated that everything feels like a tedious job. I used to like RPGs, now I can't stand them because it's so much time invested into something that becomes tiresome shortly and is ultimately meaningless. Back in the day you wanted the game to be big, so that you could immerse yourself into that world. Now that I'm older my tastes have more or less solidified and I cannot "get lost" in any world anymore. If something "clicks" with me entirely I'd want to give it a shot, but that's rare.

I don't know. I'd like to get better at RTS games because I guess I could sharpen my strategic skills, but where does it end? I bought a 4X game and it was an absolute timesink. Then I said
>only good story driven vidya from now on
which brought me to the points I mentioned above. I just don't know anymore. Vidya just have a LOT of bloat and filler. Same with TV shows. But whereas you can fast-forward a tv show, skip a page in a book, and so on, you can't do that with a game, you have to keep doing the same things over and over to get to the end.

Even non-fiction books have started weighing me down. I feel this tremendous suffocation at all times, as if I'm at crossroads and forced to choose, but I do not know what to do. I'm constantly tempted to just let it all burn and go and do nothing at all. Why watch that movie or why read that book, why devote time to read that fantasy series when you could be reading philosophy and why do that when you could be reading non-fiction related to your work and why do that when you could work out more and- It goes on like that. I just don't know.

All that said, I still feel the need to finish DS because of how unique it looks, at least.