/lit/ - Literature

>>21701421
I faced it once a couple years ago when I lived in a student dorm and was enrolled in university. Now I barely see people and am despised or laughed at almost anywhere I go. I know that there is something wrong with me, yet I cannot break out of this curse. A couple years ago I thought I broke out but now it feels like everything is worse. I know all the causes and solutions IN THEORY and FROM EXPERIENCE in the past, yet I cannot overcome it all a second time. Like I blocked to access that same state of bliss.

>>21701463
>but you need to develop some ability at conversation
I mastered the art of talking and conversing, it is more that once I feel afraid all goes down the drain and women (and men but they care less) feel afraid and hate me. I can ramble and talk par excellence at this point, but the feeling I convey creeps them out. I am ashamed to admit but I hate my mother and father and I would not care much if something bad happened to them. I have no empathy for the and I would be joyful if they would be gone, especially my mother. A couple months ago my mom visited me (I live in another country) and while she stayed in my apartment I could tell she was very afraid to fuck anything up in the slightest. Honestly if she stayed longer it would've been a newspaper article.

>>21689088
Heiled. You have to cut your losses and never look back. There are vices that hinder you, people that are not good for you and thoughts that conquer you. You need to be consistent and consequential. Without it you are not even a man.

>t. halfway hypocrite