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>>10658918
yeah i dont like the ones you take everyday it feels like a heavy grey blanket but i need the other ones that are shorter and stronger and fast because it can get really scary sometimes....
the otherday someone said the girl i wanted was like a mom or something and yeah you know i get it i dont want to burden someone they dont need to take care of me i just want her to care about me you know- just one person that would mean so much to me if i could be honest and a girl liked me for it it would mean so much
but i know they wouldnt like me i dont even like me no one likes me and it feels like im less than nothing because i dont mean anything to anyone even my mom only tries to like me but its in spite of me and i know my dad doesnt like me even if they say he does he hates me in the way you could only hate yourself because hes supposed to have something kind of similar but doesnt believe it and hates doctors and medication and thinks its fake and would always fight about it and thinks its my fault and that you cant blame illness and thats cowardly he always talks about cowards but he doesnt know what its like and no one knows what its like they just want to put me in a box they made that has a list of medicine below and then send me away... i dont im just me you know
i dont know..