/lit/ - Literature

>>19784954
>It's not hard. You are just making it hard. When you feel resistance or distraction, that needs to be your trigger to get back on track and focus.

Thank you, maybe I was just being overly paranoid thinking someone would appear into my room then harshly judges my actions every time I do something. I have a rough home life and ever since this pandemic begin I'm constantly living in survival mode. I wake up everyday, work this and that to save money so I can move out from this hell hole, then sleep. I finally get it how those veterans got PTSD, they can't even enjoy their daily normal life again because their defense mechanism makes them in constant fight or flight mode all the time.

Idk lad is there a better way to actually cure stress? To soothe myself?

>>19290259
Funny how someone with a condition like mine is doing so much better than all of you at work. You're not as determined as me and you're not as willing to sacrifice for the occupation. You're no where near on my motherfucking level. How many years have I been there and you still haven't changed one fucking bit from the day I met all of you. But me? I've changed so fucking much in the span of the short years since this condition started and since I first started on that freight day. I'm not blind to what you are anymore. I see all your fucking flaws hanging out in the open. You boast that you're better than the new workers and i'll give you that but it's not much of a fucking difference. Seems like throughout all my life i've been surrounded by inferiority and it's treacherous claws trying to sink into me and drag me down to it's level. I'll never be like any of you. So unlearned and never tasted the pain of what it's truly like to go through a travail that put's your sanity to the test. Soft and corpulent and sloven. Why should I respect you when you don't even respect yourself enough to live everyday as though it would be your last. Tomorrow is never guaranteed. There are no promises. Especially in the current state of the world.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Yx0msFM6Zk

>>19086967
Jesus Christ i'm so motherfucking tired of her and her bullshit. I JUST WANT TO BE FUCKING DONE WITH HER ALREADY