/lit/ - Literature

>GOAT
>A Woman

Uh oh, anon

>first novel took 3 months to complete a draft
>second novel took 3 years
>my frustration and slow progress convinced me I was losing my spark and that I'd never be able to finish editing all of it it
>believing that stripped my hope away and made my progress even slower until it eventually stopped
>a 9-month break did nothing to make this easier

the anguish from this failure has gotten so bad that some nights I can't even look at my writing. Even knowing the anxiety is irrational and disassociating doesn't help. it feels like there's a magnetic force repelling my eyes, and i have to look away reflexively. I suspect it's a defense mechanism. My brain is trying to keep me away from a source of fear and shame on such a fundamental level that's it's become a physical reflex

i need to fix this /lit/. what can I do to accomplish that?

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>>16718540
Malaise