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Let's have a realy heart-to-heart, /jp/
What is on your mind?

>> No.9489601

I want to die

>> No.9489603

it's my birthday, and i'm virtually spending it alone doing nothing.

also i am hungover, and my game just finished on a not-so-happy note.

>> No.9489611

My game keeps crashing...

>> No.9489615

My stomach has been hurting since mid day. It's rather unpleasant.

>> No.9489616

I'm not lonely enough to discuss my personal matters with strangers on internet.

>> No.9489619

I wast chatting with a girl and i think i said something awkward. She didn't even cared but i still feel bad about it and can't get over it.

>> No.9489621

>>9489601
Why is that?

>>9489603
Happy birthday.
What game?

>> No.9489622

>>9489601
I don't want you to die.

>> No.9489626

I kind of have to pee but not enough to get up.

>> No.9489630

>>9489621
My life has no meaning

>>9489622
Who are you

>> No.9489631

>>9489611
What game?

>>9489615
Drink some tea.

>>9489616
Alright then.

>>9489619
Don't know what you said, but I'm guessing since it's /jp/, it's not anything too bad that you should stress over.

>> No.9489634

>>9489619
Don't worry about the small things so much. It's not good for you. Think of this as a learning experience, and make sure not to repeat your mistakes.

>> No.9489639

>>9489626
Then wait till you definitely have to pee.

>>9489630
Well, what do you do?

>> No.9489641

>>9489631
>What game?

Fallout 3.

>> No.9489643

>>9489621
embric of wulfhammer.

really could have been way worse, i guess.

still dumbfounded that /u/ and /tg/ can make a reasonable game and we can't. most /jp/ projects just disappear.

>> No.9489648

>>9489639
Absolutely nothing.

>> No.9489652

>>9489641
Console or PC?

>>9489643
A collaboration game?
If so, that's a strange board pairing for a project.
And yeah, it'd be nice to see a completed project from /jp/

>> No.9489661

>>9489652
PC. It crashes for no reason, sometimes upon just entering a small room. It can't be too many mods, because I barely have any.

>> No.9489655

such negative Nancys.

Tell me more about your mother.

>> No.9489658

I slept all day and now I have nothing to do for the night.

>> No.9489671

>>9489648
Try to die,, there's no reason not ot.

>> No.9489677

>>9489648
Any hobbies? What do you do outside of /jp/?

>>9489655
My mother is a hardworking woman that puts her family first over anything.

>>9489658
Well, now you have time to talk to me.

>>9489661
You can try turning off what little mods you have and begin your diagnostics from there.

>> No.9489697

>>9489634
>>9489631
I was looking streams on nicolive, and i found a lonely japanese girl singing without much viewers. I started to chat with her, my japanese is good enough to maintain a conversation, but not perfect. Everything was going perfect but then when she finished another song i said "Loved it" in past time when it should be present time, and she was like "hm? Past time?", and that's it, i know it's nothing but damn. I'm /jp/ afterall i rarely chat to anyone, and even less in japanese with a girl.

>> No.9489699

>>9489661
Have you just installed it? or is it crashing a new thing?
If it's always crashed, blame bethesda. some cards just refuse to run their games.

>> No.9489712

>>9489699
I've had it installed for a while but never really played it. I don't remember if it crashed or not.

I run New Vegas and Skyrim just fine, though. I get some crashing with Oblivion, but not near as much as I get with Fallout 3.

>> No.9489715

>>9489697
Did the conversation end after that?
Sounds like a mistake any person can make. You shouldn't sweat too much about it.

>> No.9489716

>>9489677
Hooray for talking to strangers online!

I...I don't know what to talk to you about through.

>> No.9489717

Wondering if the melatonin I took will work tonight or if I'll be in bed awake until dawn.

>> No.9489725

>>9489716
Well, since we're just anonymous strangers, we're open to talk about anything.
From what you did yesterday to your deepest darkest secrets. Your choice.

>> No.9489726

>>9489712
Problem is most likely unrelated to your grafix then. I would just re-install it.

>> No.9489739

>>9489717
Why not just drink until you pass out?

>> No.9489742

cats with woman legs

bishujo

>> No.9489743

>>9489739
I have a couple months and days before I can...

>> No.9489746

>>9489743
Oh?
Why is that?

>> No.9489750

>>9489746
Underage.

>> No.9489757

>>9489750
You can try masturbating to exhaust yourself.

>> No.9489758

>>9489715
It didn't ended, but still we didn't keep talking that much after that. More people came to the stream and after a while it ended. I still have her added in nicovideo. Wathever, thanks anon, i'll sleep and get over it.

>> No.9489762

>>9489758
Ah. Well I'm sure you'll recover. Good night, anon.

>> No.9489773

I want to get out of this sorry excuse for a state and go somewhere where I can actually be myself.

I live in Ohio. ;~;

>> No.9489775

>>9489581
configuring ALSA again, patching Skyrim to my Wine prefix, and other such things.

>> No.9489784

>>9489773
Where would you want to go?

>> No.9489786

I hate that period in between emails, it feels like forever, especially when it's someone you really like. But I don't want to be clingy and annoying

>> No.9489790

Someone, please teach me how to refuse things and less sympathetic .. I can't even do things right for myself

>> No.9489794

>>9489786
Do you have a crush on this person?

>> No.9489800

>>9489784

Somewhere less... Oh how do I explain it... Somewhere less "Murica" if that makes any sense. Everyone in my small town is a catholic republican closed-minded hardass. My 2 friends and I are the only people who have any sort of cultural diversity in our lives at all. I'd like to move somewhere on the west coast, really. Or maybe a big city.

>> No.9489799

>>9489794
I don't think so, we've only recently met. They're special to me, and the first person I've talked to in such a long time.

>> No.9489809

I'm a girl

>> No.9489807

>>9489800
Why wouldn't you want to live somewhere with no sign of American culture instead? Say isolated forest or in the mountains.

>> No.9489808

>>9489790
You can start by saying no and hating others rather than yourself when you do

>> No.9489811

>>9489808
I have begin to do it and lose enough, I have lost faith in this world.

The only reason I'm living is myself.

>> No.9489818

>>9489799
Oh well I can understand your anxiousness. Just play it cool and I'm sure it'll start feeling natural again.

>>9489800
I hear ya. Well that's definitely the place to go. Try visiting a major city or a state like California. All you need is the money.

>> No.9489825

>>9489811
You don't have to go as far as to lose faith in the world.

>> No.9489820

>>9489807

It's not that I don't like the American culture, it's that I don't like people who take over-zealous pride in being American. Take my neighbor, for example. He's your stereotypical middle-aged beer bellied gun toting christian hick. He's loud in the early morning when I wish to sleep, and whenever he tries to make conversation with me, it's usually about how Romney is the next jesus or some odd shit. I don't mind America as a whole, I just want to get away from people like this.

>> No.9489827

>>9489818

Money is a bit tight. You know, collage and everything.

>> No.9489830

>>9489827
>collage
hoooo boy.

>> No.9489833

>>9489825
Sorry, my paranoid level is quite high. That is why I can talk to you as we are anonymous.

>> No.9489837

>>9489827
Ah so you are going to school. See ifthere are any transfer opportunities or internships that'll send you to a more liberal place.
Might as well look into scholarships and grants that'll help pay for things.

>> No.9489838
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>>9489581
I'm beginning to feel I have no mind of my own. I try to keep an open mind for everything and it just ends up seeming like I drift between fads. I still like all the things I've been introduced to through my open mind, but the newest one always seems to occupy most of my time. It's strange.

I had a friend that I used to hang out with every day. We'd discuss our interests in music and things of that sort, but then we sort of grew apart mostly due to monetary reasons. Parents finally giving the both of us the boot. He went off to join the airforce. I still enjoy the music we talk about it just hasn't been my focus for a while.

Yet now that I've had a chance to talk to him after his basic training and he keeps bringing up "how I've changed" and stuff of the like because I got into Touhou and other stuff of the like.

It made me feel bad. It made me feel like that me being open to new things all the time let him down or something. But my best friend now was the one who introduced me to these things. I feel that I probably cling to him more than I should too. I get very lonely when he isn't around.

It's sad really. Am I really that useless and dependent? I mean, I truly enjoy the things I've been introduced to, but am I just doing it to appease my friends so I'm not lonely? I sincerely hope not, but maybe I am. Who knows.

Sorry for the wall of text. Feel free to ignore it.

>> No.9489843

>>9489833
Well give me a situation in which you have a hard time refusing someone.

>> No.9489848
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9489848

I just watched Solanin... It made me really think about the way my life's been heading.

I've had a strange life. I decided I wanted to be the little girl when I was young, and I jumped on hormones as soon as I legally could. I went away to college, for a major I didn't follow through on. Transitioning in college was scary... I was bullied a lot, and I even got beat up a few times. I developed severe social anxiety. I started browsing /jp/ consistently. If it weren't for going to required classes, I would have been a complete hikkikomori. Even now, I'm taking the summer off, trying to get my shit together. Part of me loves having time to be a NEET, and actually having time to expand my wardrobe and do regular girl things. But part of me is scared. I don't want to be a NEET forever... even now, I have nothing going for myself. I'm scared of people. I dream of being a musician, but I lack the skills... I wish I could become a gravure idol.

>> No.9489852

I am a girl but my body doesn't agree. I wish there was a way to fix it.

I want to lose weight but I am constantly in situations where I am expected to eat. I don't want to eat any more.

>> No.9489855

>>9489837
*grumbles* If the credits from my fuck-off collage will even transfer anywhere...

>> No.9489857

>>9489848
What college do you go to? Where should I go so I can beat you up?

>> No.9489861

>>9489838
That does sound tough. The only thing I can really say without ruining your situation is that you'll have to figure that out on your own. You should know yourself better than anyone. How much of the enjoyment that you get from your hobbies is truly genuine? That's something you'll have to look over yourself and imagine your friend out if the picture.

>> No.9489867

>>9489855
COLLEGE

It is COLLEGE

>> No.9489870

>>9489857
I go to the University of Oregon. I'd rather you didn't beat me up...

>> No.9489871

>>9489581
mama ran

>> No.9489876
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>>9489861
Indeed. I suppose I was just venting. Typing it out felt good.

>> No.9489892

>>9489848
I can relate to how it can be nice being a a NEET and taking the time off to do whatever you feel like doing. But it's a slippery slope and if you never take initiative to do what you dream of being then you'll be ruining yourself. You say you want to be a musician, well you're in the perfect situation to start stepping in the right situation by learning some music with your free time.

>> No.9489902

>>9489870
I'll be there in October to beat the shit of you, expect me faggot. I know I'll be able to find you easily by asking around where to find that trans faggot weirdo.

>> No.9489905
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9489905

>>9489867

I believe we're talking about two different things, sir.

>> No.9489911

>>9489855
How many credits have you accumulated? If you have a lot, it might be best to just tough it out.
>>9489876

Glad you feel better even if it's just a bit. It's always tough when you start questioning your identity. I hope you figure things out in a way that doesn't bring too much heartache.

>> No.9489939

>>9489911
I appreciate it. I hope I do as well. And thank you.

>> No.9489943

At some point my hobbies that involved too much thinking or creativity slowly left my interest. Since then I've substituted those with hobbies that really require next to no effort to maintain. I'm not to happy though. Because I'd like to get back into those old interests of mine but every time they cross my mind, an idea of how to live of them shortly follows.

I can't ride my parents finances forever, but I'm not cut out for most work. I can't get disability this late either. I don't know what to do with my life.

>> No.9489975

>>9489843
From as minor as asked a favour, or doing a small job. They know I have something, they'd want it.

The most visible example is that I never tell anyone how much cash left in my wallet because of that.

>> No.9490026

>>9489902
Stop being a bully, it's not nice.

>> No.9490034

>>9489848
Besides the social anxiety part, you are living my dream...

What did your family think about you taking hormones? What about classmates?

>> No.9490039
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9490039

I think my parents are going to kick me out this winter. They've come under financial trouble recently, and paying for college is something they're not too happy about. They think I can live on my own now, due to a stupid choice I made in high school. I took a program to become a nursing assistant, because I was interested in becoming a doctor at the time. Later in the year I realized how much I disliked being around other people, and my interest was not in helping people. I finished the program though, and currently have an assistant's license.

My parents agreed to pay for the first semester, but they won't say anything about after that.

I don't want to help people or work or live on my own yet. I just want to go to college and learn.

>> No.9490040

>>9489616
You seem lonely enough to make a passing remark about it, instead of simply leaving the thread alone. I'm betting there was something in your mind.

>> No.9490049

>>9489943
Well I won't tell you how to live your life but a lot of people will agree that it's usually not the best idea to make a living from your hobby. I personally tried it with drawing and I ended up burning myself out and I'm in the middle of taking a break so I can enjoy it again. Most if the time the people that are able to pull things off are those that are incredibly talented in it. So I hope that gives you some idea of how that is.

>> No.9490050
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9490050

I hate that I'm a working man and can't go back in times to my NEET years where I sat in my room playing PS2 and Dreamcast games while eating for months on end only saltine crackers, ramen noodles, pepsi, and water.

My mom used to joke "haha you could survive in prison with your diet".

Now I'm a world traveling working man, I have contacts I interact with every day, and even so when it's night or it's the weekend, all I want to do is sit in my room and be alone, playing video games and posting on the internet.

It's 0044 right now and I have to wake up at 0530. This has been my routine for this month and I've been having the worst sleep of my life.

I'm hoping come August I can do something about it and actually rest.

>> No.9490051

>>9490039
if you wanted to learn badly enough, you would work for it.

>> No.9490078

>>9489975
You might benefit from telling these people to fuck off once in awhile.

>> No.9490084

>>9490050
Take a vacation?

>> No.9490085

>>9490050
You could just hate your job more than you miss being a NEET

>> No.9490086

I've been using ``LaTeX'' quotes ever since /jp/ started using them and I can't stop. I like them more than normal quotes now but I refrain from using them outside of /jp/ because I don't want anyone from /jp/ to recognize me or for other people to catch on and start using it.

Please tell me other boards haven't stole it from us yet...

>> No.9490093
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9490093

I don't understand why you are all so sad all the time? Why don't you just smile and be happy?

>> No.9490095

>>9490086
They haven't stole it from is yet.

>> No.9490101

>>9490093
Because that's not how living works.

>> No.9490116

>>9490050
I know how you feel, man.
I almost wish I had never been a NEET at all. Those were the best years of my life, but now the memories only makes me think of what I'm missing.

Someday we'll be able to go back, right? If we save our money and act good surely we'll be able to go back, right?

>> No.9490125

What I should fap to...?

>> No.9490142

>>9490078
Every time I refuse, I am all alone again. It has become a severe cycle.

How can I make people stop expecting something from me? How can I stop feeling bad when I can't do it in the end?

>> No.9490160
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9490160

I have a lot on my mind, you know? I've somehow managed to fall for a girl all the way across the ocean. I'm still really attached to the last girl I was in a relationship with. Can't get a job here, so I might have to move to live with my relatives in Japan to get one over there. Working up the courage to try and reconcile with a girl who played me and my best friend. Don't know what I want to do with this life. Want to lose weight, but I'm just not motivated enough. I don't know... I'm feeling better lately, but I think that's mostly because of how much I've given up on myself.

>> No.9490171

>>9490093
I really love you and your posts, Mediator-chan. They always lift my spirits and make me really happy!

>> No.9490175

Normals like >>9489848 should be permanently banned.

>> No.9490210

>>9490171
I get really sad thinking that he'll stop afterJinrui ends.

>> No.9490212

>>9489848
Solanin wasn't very good.

>> No.9490231

Welp, I've been thinking a lot about drugs lately. That's never good.

Not going to actually do any, so I'm transferring my addictions elsewhere as per usual. Obsessing about toys I can't afford instead of working on some stories I'm supposed to submit to a literary journal, ohhhh, tomorrow.

>> No.9490246

>>9490093
It's hard to smile and be happy when there's so much to be sad about and so little to be happy about.

>> No.9490268

OP here. Just spent the last hour running around downtown trying to find a drunk. Going to bed. It was nice talking to you /jp/, feels like I got to know some of you a lot better. Well, goodnight.

>> No.9490275 [DELETED] 

>>9490268
Don't forget pretentious college kids.

>> No.9490291

>>9490268
oyasumi~

>> No.9490399

I was not lonely for a few days because i've been having email conversations with a /jp/sie. They haven't responded to my last one, and now i'm lonely again, and moreover feel pathetic for managing to be fulfilled as something as inconsequential as anonymous talking.

A person as clingy as me does not deserve to live.

>> No.9490403

>>9490399
do you have a steam and are you a secondary?

>> No.9490433

>>9490403

A-are you trying to identify me?

>> No.9490435

>>9490433
Well, I'm saying I wouldn't mind having a friend.

>> No.9490460

>>9490435

I don't have steam. I'm not a secondary either...

>> No.9490467

>>9490460
Do you have any other form of communication other than email? I don't mind clingy people.

>> No.9490483

>>9490467

Sorry, i'm not comfortable sharing it right now ;_;

>> No.9490511

>>9490483
he was just asking if you had anything, moron

>> No.9490518

>>9490511
It's ok, I don't mind being rejected.

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