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8492363 No.8492363 [Reply] [Original]

How pure are you?

It goes without saying that our virginity is intact, but have you performed or thought any lewd acts that have defiled your spirit?

>> No.8492367

Every time I fap to shitty 3d porn I feel like shit.

>> No.8492368
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8492368

She's so hard!

>> No.8492371

Sometimes I think I might like to try cosplaying but then I remember that /cgl/ exists and I feel dirty.

>> No.8492378

I follow the teachings of Socrates ~75%. So I'd say I'm pretty pure.

>> No.8492382

I'm fucking disgusting. I practically inhale cum for over 12 hours a day and would not blink before opening every orifice for men to gawk at for cash. I install binary drivers on my Ubuntu machine and use them to search alt.sex.stories for nepiphilic humiliation stories. For over three years I spent my life as a sex slave to a man who made me wear a buttplug all day, eat my meals on the floor, and put rubber bands around my testicles until they were blue. And I enjoyed it and continued too even after he was dead.

>> No.8492380

Pure enough not to care about being pure.

>> No.8492386

I've never masturbated in my entire life. I do feel dirty when I wake up with sticky boxers.

>> No.8492387

I was in a loving relationship and despite making it clear I didn't want sex, my partner pressured me and eventually I gave in and had consensual, awkward sex every few days. I'm not bragging though--I feel fucking terrible about it. I feel alienated even on /jp/, and it's completely contrary to my character.

C-can you guys forgive me?

>> No.8492388

Every time I look at or fap to something depraved I imagine Yukari is looking at me and shaking her head.

I imagine this is what believing in Christianity is like.

>> No.8492390

>>8492387

What is anal sex?

>> No.8492397

>>8492387
Was she hot?

>> No.8492393

I beat off to Oyster eromanga regularly.

>> No.8492400

>>8492390
Why are you asking me?

Is this some sort of test?

>> No.8492401

Pure enough to want to be an arms reach away from normals and their silly lifestyles. I'm actually trying out what a scholarly life is like.

>> No.8492410
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8492410

Last year I went to my cousin's birthday party and one of her female friend's was hovering around me the whole time. When I was about to go home she stopped me, said that my shyness looked very cute, and then kissed me on the cheek.

It really upset me and I still feel ashamed.

>> No.8492411

Quite pure. I do have some unusual fetishes but nothing too extreme. I mean, drool is cute, so why not lick it? I only masturbate about once every three days, and even that is only to avoid unpleasant discharges at night, since my sex drive has been rather small for a while. The lewdest thing I've ever done to a real person is accidentally groping a breast, and the lewdest consensual thing I've ever done was hugging, which is not lewd at all. I love hugs, and I hug my body pillow frequently everyday, whenever I feel down, bored or just need to embrace something. I live for cuteness, not for lewdness.

>> No.8492414

I used to be a normalfag so I'd say I'm pretty impure. Unless born again virgins count.

>> No.8492420

>>8492410
Honestly, that does not really strike me as lewd. My younger cousin has touched my penis while we were taking a bath, but she was just curious about how it felt like, so I don't think it is dirty or anything. Unless, of course, you have a specific reason for thinking it is.
I feel bad asking this, and you don't have to answer if you don't want to, but, what is the age difference between you two?

>> No.8492433

I have never masturbated before, just the thought terrifies me and I feel like I would ruin my character if I ever allowed myself to do anything perverse like that.

Fortunately I also never feel sexually attracted to anything so it's not particularly hard to do this. My purity has remained intact ever since I was little and I never felt the lewd hormonal influence of puberty that many people mention.

>> No.8492440

>>8492433
...How old are you? Also, what is your gender?

>> No.8492443

>>8492420
Oh god, for some reason your post reminded me of when I was a kid my 2 year older brother would "experiment" with me. Like he'd say, "I wonder what tongues touching feels like. Can we touch tongues?" then we'd basically make out.
Funny because he grew up to be the normal one.

>> No.8492445 [DELETED] 

>>8492440
I'm 16 and male.

>> No.8492448

>>8492433
Urgh, I wish I'd never masturbated before. I have a perfection complex about these things, so I'll go years without masturbating then I'll think, "What's the fucking point? I've already masturbated anyway" and start again.

>> No.8492451

Holding hands makes me blush

>> No.8492453

>>8492443
Recent study says that the more older brothers you have, the higher the chance of you have of becoming gay. Blame your parents.

>> No.8492455

>>8492443
>>8492448
what in the actual fuck?

>> No.8492456

>>8492445
Your story is believable, then. Were you over 20 (as are most posters here, I believe), it would be so extremely unlikely that I would feel quite inclined to call you a liar. However, in this case, all is well. I am very sorry for doubting you and bothering you with these personal questions.

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>>8492451
M-moe~

>> No.8492462

I love everyone on /jp/, even the non-virgins. Don't feel bad if you've had sex, you are still my friend!

>> No.8492463

>>8492451
I have never held hands ;_;

>> No.8492464

>>8492455
?

>> No.8492465

>>8492456
Haha, I'm not actually the guy you responded to!

>> No.8492470
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>>8492462
H-honto ni?

>> No.8492471

>>8492420

I'm 18 and I think she's nearly 20. My cousin didn't kiss me though, it was just her friend. It felt lewd because she forced herself upon me and I think she fetishized my social anxiety, it seemed like a kiss with lewd intentions that she used because she wanted to see my startled reaction.

>> No.8492474

>>8492443
Interesting. I wonder how does having your tongue touched by a hand feels.
How does it feels like?

>> No.8492479
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>>8492363
I have the awkward feeling that most people was born corrupted. Also we spend most of out time in front of a computer thus filling ourselves with information which is the strongest corruptor.
I know that I'm going to hell according to 99% of the religions.

I hope to meet someone interesting there.

>> No.8492481

>>8492420
God, this reminds me of all the "experiments" I'd do with friends/cousins when I was little. I get a gross feeling in my stomach when I think about it.

>> No.8492478

>>8492464
How can people feel insecure about masturbation? I'm inclined to believe they're both lying.

>> No.8492491

>>8492451
This, plus if anyone compliments me or touches me or smiles at me etc.

Back in middle school I think I accidentally flirted with a girl this way, and she thought it was cute and always tried to hug me to make me embarrassed. I'm pretty sure my brothers and parents think I no shit have autism because I can't handle being touched, even by them.

That aside, I think lewd thoughts all day every day and fall asleep every night cuddling with an imaginary girl.

>> No.8492492

>>8492481
I didn't remember doing anything with my cousin until I read your post. I don't know whether to feel aroused or sickened by it.

>> No.8492498

>>8492479
>I know that I'm going to hell according to 99% of the religions.
Of course.

>>8492363
>but have you performed or thought any lewd acts that have defiled your spirit?
I wish you hadn't reminded me. I molested a child when I was a teenager. I'd say that I have a pretty good reason for killing myself, and isn't living the way I am now better than suicide?

>> No.8492495

>>8492471
That woman sounds very manipulating, toying with your anxiety like that. I do feel like I can understand your rationale better now, however. Thank you very much for going through the trouble of explaining such a traumatizing experience in detail.

>> No.8492500

>>8492479
"Fundamentally, man's mind is not without good. It is simply that from the moment he has life, he is always being brought up with perversity. Thus, having no idea that he has gotten used to being soak in it, he harms his self nature and falls into evil. Human desire is the root of this perversity."

Unless you live in the mountains or something, you're fucked to begin with.

>> No.8492501

I talked about masturbation with a girl over the internet with whom I was in a short-lived and utterly disastrous online relationship. I don't remember that this happened very often, though, since I'm good at not remembering the past.

I also feel dirty whenever I masturbate but that's hardly unusual or exciting.

>> No.8492508

>>8492478
It's very common. I don't see why it's not very believable.
In my case it's because I'm obsessed with "records". As I mentioned I have sort of a complex, though I wouldn't describe myself as a "perfectionist." I pride myself on having never done something, then if I do it I'll feel tainted. Thanks to Western media brainwashing, this applies more so to taboo areas like sex and drugs. I've "quit drinking" about five times, and every time I start again, I hate myself for it. Not that I'm an alcoholic or anything. Just knowing that a drop of alcohol has touched my lips feels like I've completely ruined the last X years of my "record".
It's the same with masturbation, though I have the usual obsession with purity and such which makes it worse. I honestly don't want to have sex, I just masturbate out of habit and the odd biological urge.

>> No.8492504

>>8492498
depends on your definition of molestation.

>> No.8492511

>>8492479
Thou hast reminded me, my one true friend had said she wanted to pull the devil's tail, because hell sounded quite a bit more fun than heaven. I guess a lot of people share those thoughts.

>> No.8492513

>>8492498
I did too. I was 15 and she was 5. All I did was touch her while she slept and I'm (almost) certain that she doesn't know, but I still feel terrible. It was a line that I shouldn't have crossed and that I can never go back from.

I only mention this because misery loves company.

>> No.8492516

>>8492440

I'm 18 and a male.

>>8492478

>How can people feel insecure about masturbation?

I was raised by a very religious parent and even though I'm no longer religious myself it's still very hard to get past the stigma associated with masturbation. I have trouble even looking at that area of myself without feeling uncomfortable and the thought of doing something lewd like masturbation just makes me feel very ashamed. I'll admit that I did once attempt to rub that area of myself, just out of curiosity, but I felt so ashamed that I felt like I was going to throw up after a few seconds.

>> No.8492519

>>8492433

>>8492386 here.

I never thought I'd actually run into someone like me. I can perfectly relate to everything in your entire post.

>> No.8492517

>>8492498
Oh my fucking god. I didn't know I had those memories until now.
I guess you can guess it. Seven years of difference but still despair

>> No.8492520

>>8492513
Well it's not like you full on raped the kid. I'd be lying if I said I've never had the thought cross my mind. Babysitting my cousins is hell on earth.

>> No.8492525

>>8492491
>This, plus if anyone compliments me or touches me or smiles at me etc.
Urgh. I always used to freak out when this happened. Sometimes I'd get really snappy at people if they said I was cute or whatever. Not sure why.

>> No.8492523

I don't know if it counts as being pure, but I'm genuinely afraid to lose my virginity. Not because I'm afraid of sex, but I just feel I should stay a virgin as long as possible. Like, if I do have sex then I'd be "tainted" and I'd feel bad doing it with anyone else. If that makes sense.

>> No.8492528

>>8492523
I know how you feel. I think it's common; don't worry.
I used the word "tainted" too somewhere ITT, so yeah.

>> No.8492530
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8492530

I've never masturbated in my life. I'm 20 years old too. I feel like a weirdo.

>> No.8492532

I hate masturbating. It is a perverse addiction that needs to be sated, and for what? A tiny reprieve from the suffering of the world? Worse yet is that it is an activity that involved some parts of my body I was never supposed to have. Had I been born the correct gender it would not be an issue

>> No.8492533

>>8492471
Jesus christ I hate it when women find my social anxiety "cute". I'm not shying away from you trying to play hard to get, I am legitimately repulsed by you.

>> No.8492540

>>8492471
>>8492495
I've always wondered if there are women out there that like socially awkward guys in the same way we like awkward moe 2d girls.

Either way, I'm sure there are limits to it, such as "shy hipster guys that wear glasses and only had 2 girlfriend back in high school", not "26 year men who don't know how to kiss and freak out if anyone even touches them."

I mean lets be realistic, as optimistic as I could ever possibly pretend to be it's too late for me.

>> No.8492541

Funny how people here seem to get nervous whenever they are complimented and stuff.
I just lock myself and start my deadpan mode, spouting the occasional word whenever someone talked to me. Everyone thought I was like a robot.

>> No.8492545

>>8492533
Yes, this. Though I wouldn't word it so strongly.
I'm more terrified. I'm not being shy-moe or whatever. I'm genuinely frightened of you and want you to stop saying words at me.

>> No.8492546

I really, really, really am glad I'm a virgin.
If I lost my virginity sometime when I was young and stupid, I'm sure I'd end up as a male prostitute or something like that.
I don't like casual sex, and I think selling sex for money is very degrading, but I dislike myself enough to hurt myself like that on purpose.
Having this one silly bit of purity left is probably the only thing that stopped me.

>> No.8492549

>>8492541
You mean when you're complimented?
I can talk like that in a normal conversation, but not when someone flirts with me or whatever. I generally freeze up.
Similar thing used to happen when I was insulted, but then I discovered sarcasm.

>> No.8492552

>>8492533
>I'm not shying away from you trying to play hard to get, I am legitimately repulsed by you.

For me, my social anxiety is fear rather than revulsion. It's not that I find everyone disgusting, it's that I'm very worried that they are looking for ways to hurt me regardless of what their outward behavior is. (I do find some people disgusting of course, but that's a separate issue.)

>>8492545
Yes, this is more like it.

>> No.8492554

>>8492545
Well I did word that wrong, I don't me repulsed in the "3D whore wouldn't bang" sense I just mean human beings in general make me want to hide.

>> No.8492560

I once raped East Prussia along with the rest of my supply unit.

>> No.8492562

/jp/ really is the cutest board on 4chan. You guys are adorable.

>> No.8492569

If girls liked shy-moe more I wouldn't be so alone. I'm gonna do it, /jp/. I'm gonna have a girlfriend one day.

>> No.8492565

>>8492562
HNNNGGGKLSFJFSD
DIDN'T YOU READ
>>8492491
>>8492525
>>8492533
>>8492541
>>8492545
>>8492549
>>8492552
>>8492554
?!

>> No.8492568

>>8492562
ITT: sexual dysfunction, social anxiety, and child molestation are adorable! I'd say that this board probably has the highest "future serial killer quotient" of any of the boards.

>> No.8492572

Back in my first year of HS, I had this female friend who was the tomboy with whom I could talk about everything. So we were really close friends, and she was very very anxious among people (specially men), so she pretty much only had me to talk to about male things. One day, there comes the shy girl fidgeting, and she asks me whether I have ever seen porn. As a honest friend, I proceeded to tell her everything I knew about sex and stuff, but I don't think I've ever felt as lewd as when she asked me about male masturbation, offering to tell me about female masturbation in exchange. After some awkward explanations, we ended up watching H Anime together after school. No lewd touching happened, but I did feel impure, and even worse, I felt like I'd just corrupted a perfectly good girl, throwing her on a shady, dangerous path.

>> No.8492574

>>8492562
>>>/cgl/
I thought you whores like /a/ better?

>> No.8492578

>>8492574
I'm going to pretend this post didn't happen.

>> No.8492579

>>8492569
That's /r9k/ talk. You don't need 3D females, Anonymous. You don't even need to hate them. Just accept that 2D is a much superior substitute, and save yourself a lot of money and heartache.

>> No.8492576

>>8492520
What I didn't do doesn't make me what I am, only what I did do. By touching her, I went beyond redemption and atonement. `Child Molester' is a property that I can never remove. No matter what I ever do, I can never escape it. I could cure cancer, AIDS, and world hunger and I would still be a corrupted person. And that bothers me constantly.

I respect your restraint.

>> No.8492577

>>8492549
Yeah, when I'm complimented I generally (pretend) I don't care at all. Eventually, most people stop doing it.

>> No.8492583

>>8492572
You realize you are on the road to having a fuck buddy, which at your age is volumes better than a generic girlfriend.

>> No.8492590

>>8492576
I know exactly how you feel (despite not being a child molester).
But know this: every man and woman on Earth makes mistakes. Even "serious" ones, far more serious than yours. Don't let it define who you are. Just forget about it--it was a stupid mistake.

>> No.8492593

>>8492583
This was on the past, friend. Nowadays that girl has moved to another city with her family after a failed suicide, and I am no longer allowed to keep contact with her.

>> No.8492596

>>8492576
Well if it makes you feel any better I wouldn't care if you molested a child.

>> No.8492598

>>8492593
so not only did you miss your chance, you demoralized her so much that she tried to kill herself? go die.

>> No.8492600

>>8492590
If I might add something to you, friend, I would say that if you have to choose to do something you are uncertain about, try to do the things that has the shortest impact on the time-scale.

>> No.8492601

>>8492598
I seriously doubt that her watching a ero anime drove her to the point of suicide.

>> No.8492606

>>8492601
missedthepointentirely.png

>> No.8492610

>>8492606
Well honestly you didn't have to be such an asshole joking around with it. That might be a sensitive topic for that poor anon.

>> No.8492612

>>8492600
What does this even mean?
Give an example.

>> No.8492620
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>>8492579
I can't delude myself anymore, it's been 6 years since I dropped out of college and gave up on feigning a social life in general to be a shut in, but just last year I started working and being around people again. I can't do it anymore. I want a real person to be able to hug, not a pillow. I realize it will never happen but the urges will drive me to suicide eventually. I mean lets be honest I never thought I would live this long anyway. Unfortunately(fortunately?) I care too much about my relatives, particularly my mom, and could never do something to hurt them, so here I am.

>> No.8492625

>>8492598
I don't give a shit about fucking her or not. All I want is for her to be happy, and I'd tried to be a good, honest, trustful friend in order to achieve that. She was a victim of bullying and had serious psychological problems that I won't pretend to understand; all I knew is that she was a friend I cared about and that she needed me. Her suicide attempt was not triggered by my actions, and I have no regrets about the way our relationship was. If I could do it again, I would do the same things, because there's no way in hell I would let such things change who I am or how I behave. Now kindly go choke on a dick on whichever board you came from, because I don't believe you're from /jp/.

>> No.8492628

>>8492579
Thanks, but I think I might actually be able to do it! I realized one day that if I wanted something like that to happen to me, I couldn't just wait around and hope a girl came along who liked me, I had to actually talk and stuff!

>> No.8492629
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8492629

I've kissed a girl and had lewd thoughts on several occasions and masturbate about once or twice a week.

>> No.8492630
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8492630

Not very pure to be honest. Lost my virginity at the age of 14, whored myself to any girl that wanted it till the age of 21. Can't really look at myself in the mirror even 5 years later over how I acted. Was a complete douche back then

>> No.8492631

>>8492620
I know what you mean, I wish I could be involved in a terrible accident that would kill me quickly. That way there's no guilt.

>> No.8492632

>>8492620
That makes sense. Good luck with work and real life, Anon!

>> No.8492636

>>8492634
When you say "lolicon" do you mean real life pedophile?

>> No.8492633

>>8492612
I mean that for example if you can either choose a work you can easily bail off of if you dislike it or one you have to stay for a fixed time due to a contract, I'd choose the former even if the pay was (slightly) smaller, because its impact on my future is smaller.

>> No.8492634

Lolicon with a nympho girlfriend. I'm almost as far from pure as they come.

>> No.8492635

>>8492625
Hey anon. You're a true friend. I'm sorry it turned out that way. I think you're a good person, and that's surprising from someone on /jp/. Best of luck in your future endeavours.

>> No.8492638

Threads like this make me sad. It seems I have no past. I can't remember any interactions I had with friends, family, or strangers as a kid. Hell, I don't think I even had any friends. Maybe I've always been asocial.

>> No.8492642

>>8492635
Uh, thanks, I guess? Now I'm kind of embarrassed. But I do think there's lots of good people on /jp/, in fact probably more than on the other boards. We just don't blog about it that often is all.

>> No.8492644

>>8492638
I'm not sure if I have a bad memory or if I don't consider them important enough to remember, but it's rather similar for me

>> No.8492647

>>8492638
At least you can't feel like you changed too much and start regretting it, for you've always been like this.

>> No.8492648

>>8492631
Well, see, when I said 'work' I joined the Marines

So wish me luck in the terrible accident department. Sure it would make people sad, but in a completely different way.

>> No.8492651

>>8492636
2d only.

>> No.8492658

>>8492651
Pretty sure you oversold yourself with the:
>I'm almost as far from pure as they come.
line.

>> No.8492656
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8492656

I am still a pure maiden at heart~

>> No.8492657

>>8492648
Well, chances are you'll be remembered with honors and stuff, so it's better than a random death on the street.

>> No.8492662

>>8492656
I love you saten-anon, I really do.

>> No.8492668

>>8492648
Good luck. My troubled brother joined the marines, hoping to either die and be remembered as a hero or to do something glorious that would make up for everything in his life up to that point. Instead, he just came back even more screwed up than he was before. Hope things work out better for you.

>> No.8492671

>>8492658
I guess I did.

>> No.8492684

>>8492671
Now if you were to say you fapped to real CP and loli porn, dated a 14 year old who was into BDSM and anal play, and fantasizes about his 9 year old cousin. I'd say you were the farthest thing from pure.

>> No.8492694

my dad used to beat me when i touched myself and made alot of threats so i have a big stigma about it. ive also been told i look a lot younger than i am so i guess that adds to the stigma. i often get lewd thoughts but i dont really feel like i can comprehend how to act on them.. like i know what to do but i dont understand how to put it into action if that makes sense. i wouldnt say im actively pure.. i mean no one on 4chan is really, but im ignorant about alot of things i guess, not really the act, but the reasoning behind it or the specifics.

>> No.8492701
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8492701

I wish to do lewd things with all of you. I can introduce you to a world that you've never known.

>> No.8492711
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>>8492387
There's only one way to redeem yourself.

>> No.8492716

>>8492701

I don't want what you're selling, lady

>> No.8492736

>>8492701

>So he carried me away in the spirit into the wilderness: and I saw a woman sit upon a scarlet coloured beast, full of names of blasphemy, having seven heads and ten horns.
>And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colour, and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls, having a golden cup in her hand full of abominations and filthiness of her fornication.
>And upon her forehead was a name written a mystery: BABYLON THE GREAT, THE MOTHER OF HARLOTS AND ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH.

>> No.8492741

>>8492740

Stop being around lewd people

>> No.8492740

I've been around drunk/high people and sometimes acted in an unrefined manner, but I feel pretty shitty about that.
I generally try to be as pure as possible, but its hard. Especially wet dreams, I tried giving up masturbation, but it they always got me, and I felt filthier then ever. Any advice on how to avoid them/make masturbating something pure?

Also, can I save myself if I start acting more pure? Earlier today I was around people and the sheer amount of drug use/swearing/lewd things they where talking about made me ill, I forced myself to pass out in order to avoid it, but I still felt ill being around that kind of stuff. How can I carry myself in a refined manner around non-refined people?

>> No.8492748

28, still virgin, no lewd acts ever, etc.

I don't feel bad about it at all though. Then again I don't got any depression or social anxiety and such.

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8492758

only recently have I learned to accept complements without blushing and being embarrassed, I still freeze briefly though.

>> No.8492755

>>8492741
I try, but I dont want to be mean to them, and I've known them since childhood, so it wouldn't be very honorable to just cut ties with them.

>> No.8492776

Pure virgin maiden. I only fap about 6 times year.

>> No.8492812

I am dating a girl, but we're both very shy virgins and neither of us want to have sex.

Does this make me impure?

>> No.8492821

>>8492758
>>8492638
>>8492549
>>8492541
>>8492540
>>8492533

wait.... did I post all these or are there really more people like me?

>> No.8492822

>>8492812
Depends.... is she cute? Do you get to cuddle? do you kiss?!? you bastard you!

>> No.8492825

I spent my teenage years as far worse than the average normal. I am as defiled as it gets.
Nowdays I prefer not to be seen by anyone I know or really to go out at all, it reminds me of how horrible of a person I used to be. Not to mention the experiences I had alienate me from the few new non-normal friends I've met recently. I wish I would have realized an otaku lifestyle was much more fulfilling from the start, it took me till I was 21 to realize it.
It's an awful feeling regretting years of your past.

And I had sex with my ex yesterday
I hadn't seen her in years, I hate her so much, but my defiled spirit won't seem to leave me.
How do I fix myself?

>> No.8492839

>>8492812
No, if its loving its fine.
I danced with a girl a few months ago, and the whole experience made me feel much more pure then I normally feel (it was to playfully, with a shy virgin, to country music). If done right, you could end up becoming less lewd then when you started.

>> No.8492855

>>8492825
Don't let it get to you, indulge in life. If I were capable of not being a social retard I would love to do all those things. Its what makes humans human, and what makes us inhuman.

You only have one life, preserving such a vague concept as purity past the teen years is silly to say the least.

If you were to die tomorrow, regret the things left undone, not the things you did. Trust me this is coming from an experienced 26 year old virgin with absolutely no life story to tell.

>> No.8492860

>>8492812
What do you (or her) consider "dating"?

>> No.8492865

I don't know, does cybersex count against purity?

>> No.8492876

>>8492825
>How do I fix myself?
Prayer, meditation, and abstinence.

I've found fasting and starvation greatly improves my outlook on life, as well as my moral fiber.

>> No.8492902

>>8492855
You're sounding dangerously normal there, bro.
Anyways, a huge part of purity is so its all the more enjoyable when you lose it. I'd much rather lose my virginity in some ridiculously awkward manner with a blushing virgin then be a pornstar, I'd rather awkwardly get drunk and cuddle with someone I love then get shitfaced at some party like most people seem to enjoy doing.

>> No.8492913

/r9k/ - /jp/ edition

or the other way around, can't tell

>> No.8492919

>>8492363
I helped film a porno, but I'm still a virgin. I'm still pure right?

>> No.8492924

I have really old memories of me and some other boy playing with our penises under a blanket in day care, I have no idea if it really happened or not. Then when I was in about 4th grade I would jack off with my best male friend. In high school I invited over one of my female friends from karate with joking about having sex over IM and she backed out and we still talked awkwardly. In my last year of high school just before I turned 18 I used nerdy jokes about a robe and wizard hat to convince a girl to be friends with benefits with me. We had sex once, neither of us came during it and we never talked again. Now I live in my room and talk to one other person with regrets on all of the above.

>> No.8492956

>>8492876

>meditation

Does that actually do anything?

>> No.8492996

>>8492956
To be honest, I dont know. It seems like it would work though.
Abstinence is awesome though, not sleeping or eating or masturbating feels much better then most people think it would.

>> No.8493005

I performed cunnilingus on a my mother's friend's daughter while she was sleeping. I've also touched my two of my cousin's pussy, one when i was young, and one as a teenage. Both as a game/experiment. Those memories dont haunt me but im pretty sure hell is where im headed.

>> No.8493003

>>8492924
You sound pretty normal to me.

>> No.8493035

>>8493005

>performed cunnilingus on a my mother's friend's daughter while she was sleeping.

She wasn't really asleep. They never are. They're just too scared to say anything so they pretend and wait for you to stop

>> No.8493037

There is no hell. 'Right' and 'wrong' are merely human constructs.

>> No.8493043
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>>8493037
I miss being 14.

>> No.8493058

i like both 2D and 3D lolis and have a fetish for lolis peeing themselves. id like to be forced by them to have sex and beaten to a pulp. then ill force them to take my whole cock..
i am far from pure

>> No.8493076

>>8493043
Nobody misses being 14

>> No.8493081

>>8493076
but if I was 14 I could stare at 12 year old girls and not be treated like scum.

>> No.8493099

>>8493081
If I could be 14 again I'd get on testosterone blockers right away so I wouldn't end up a repulsive monster.

>> No.8493196

>>8493099
I think you're beautiful, you dont have to be a women for us.

>> No.8493203

None that i didn't like, no.
BUT, i've stripped the other persons shirt off, Made out on the bed or floor, dry humped, groped, spanked, etc.(just a day-ish ago pretty much)
No sex though. Im still too innocent for that shit.
.... i'm probably pure, right?

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