/jp/ - Otaku Culture

[Anonymous No.]

I ate a packet of microwave pop-corn for breakfast, then began to cry, my head hurts, I'm almost narcoleptic, always tired, malnourished and alone, also my joints hurt because I almost don't move.

I've lost the control of my life, a couple weeks ago I spent 5 day in bed due to depresion, it happens every couple months so it's ok, but I'm depresed again, no money, nothing......

When you seriously think about killing yourself childish ideas, like portals to Gensokyo, don't cross your mind, instead bitter thoughts about how my life should had been in order to had become a happy person. No family to help, no a friend in my life that supported me, it's like I was born to suffer and then kill myself, I don't see what I did wrong, other than being born of course.

I'll go away without leaving a single thing that is worth after having consumed a handful of resources, that's what bothers me more, once I do it this world will keep going without me or any prove of my existence, the anguish is hard to stand at this point.

>Two in distress makes sorrow less.

I'm asking, have anyone of you experienced this feel?

Dying, without leaving anything.
Are your existences worth?

I have an awkward feeling, I want this world to end so we can die all together, theres no one to flame but the circumstances or at least someone come and kill me, so it's not my fault dying.

Sorry if I didn't make my point clear, is hard to explain this complex feeling without writing a digusting TL;DR.

[Anonymous No.]

I had popcorn for dinner yesterday but at least it wasn't the microwave kind.

[Anonymous No.]

Sorry, I stopped feeling depression and loneliness long, long ago. My life is very similar though, minus the crying parts.

[「ロリあき」 No.]

Waiting warmly for the end of the world.

[Hong Meiling 門門 !!4kI2ajBUI8D No.]

I'm sure every person feels like that or similar at least once in a lifetime. I think the most important thing you can leave behind is the memory of yourself in other people's minds. If someone remembers you, you will never be truly dead. Even if you feel like you're leaving nothing significant behind OP, be sure that I at least will remember you. With that said, don't take the easy way out. Leading a though life also leaves a mark of yourself as human being. A mark that says you had dignity as human being not to give up in the face of horrible circumstances.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164018
>I'll go away without leaving a single thing that is worth after having consumed a handful of resources, that's what bothers me more, once I do it this world will keep going without me or any prove of my existence, the anguish is hard to stand at this point.

Eventually everyone will die and everyone will be forgotten. We're all on a tiny little rock floating around in a possibly infinitely large space. Nothing anyone does will really matter, any purpose that you think that you could have had or that anyone else has is just a delusion propagated by your survival instinct. If that really bothers you that much then just kill yourself. Everyone will stop mourning within a year, and in a few decades they will all die and you will be forgotten.

[Anonymous No.]

just stop browsing here, go out and get hurt.
trust me, it works. after some time you'll become stronger.
that's how I survived. and yes, we're all alone, and everybody will just vanish without trace at some point. the only thing that you, or everybody can do about it, is not thinking about it...don't trust what people here says: escapism isn't good forever. it will only make your life more worthless. c'mon, get out of here.

[PRINNY !nLFbzB/0pw No.]

>>8164031
http://rt.com/news/bird-flu-killer-strain-119/
Captain Trips is becoming a reality very soon.

[Saegrimr !SHIELDM.mE No.]

Post your steam and i'll be your friend if you want to talk about it, instead of making another thread like this on /jp/.

[naitoknaito No.]

No no no no no...
lisen lisen lisen
Won't be going,,,, Won't be goin to Gensokyo.

Repeat: Dying I won't go to Gensokyo, Dying I won't go to Goddamn Gensokyo.

Smile /jp/ smile?
smile smile /jp/?

that's good.

[Sig !!DBI97MeOzwZ No.]

>>8164018
Fortunate for you, dear anon, I know how you feel...that is, I used to know what it means to know that when you're gone, nothing changes in the world, the show goes on, we're just ants waiting for someone to stomp on us.
But then, I reached that point of no return, I tried to kill myself with a sharpie in the middle of my class when I got an F instead of an A as I hoped because of all the time I've invested into studying I was sure I'd get one.
I ended up in the hospital, woke up the next day only to be surrounded by my classroom friends.
It was all that I needed to think of to get myself the next time out of it:
I am a winner in life!
Why?
I have only like 3-4 friends, but fuck if they'd ever stab me in the back!
I don't have much money, but hell, I can buy myself a small cup of coffee every day!
I may be a little overweight, not obese, just a little, but I know that the suit ain't wearing the man!
I don't have any parents alive, but kill me now if they wouldn't love me the way I am!

Don't worry about not leaving anything for the world to remember you in the next 1000 years, you've done enough already! I'm sure you at least once cracked a joke, made someone happy or a bad guy get his right deserts, and that is enough to change the course of the whole friggin' universe!

So the next time you feel like that again, remember anon, you got friends everywhere around you, you just don't see them. We're here together, bro.


Stay strong, stay loved

[Anonymous No.]

Hi there.
I'm just here to remind you that millions of kids in Africa are doing everything they can to live and see another day, while you spoiled kids get to have access to the internet and whine about how no one cares for you.
Instant gratifications have spoiled you. Know that the only things that are worthwhile in this world are all gained through pain and perseverance. Millions are already dying against their wishes. So quit the game if you want to, we could definitely put the resources to better use.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164104

Nobody cares about Africans.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164104
A society that by this time can't produce the resources to keep themselves at least alive is because they are more animals than humans, just because elephants can cry too you can't compare their mental complexity to ours.
In a nutshell: Nice fallacy.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164117
Just say you're a racist. Save people the time reading your post.

[naitoknaito No.]

>>8164104
>>8164108
>>8164117
>>8164127

>>>/pol/
Keep that shit out of here please.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164148
Except it is an accurate reminder of how spoiled and entitled some people are, not about politics. Learn to read next time and ignore racist idiots.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164164
Being from a more well off society doesn't invalidate our existential anxieties.

If anything, it compounds it because we actually have time to examine our lives on a philosophical basis rather than just living every moment fighting to survive.

[Tokiko No.]

>>8164148
...naitoknaito...

[Anonymous No.]

Try going outside and walking at least once a week, OP. Nothing is as refreshing as walking at night on a cool day. Except where I live because it's too dangerous to go outside at night. ;_;

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164078

Just wanted to say your post made me smile, Anon

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164018
Found this yesterday OP.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html

[Anonymous No.]

Nope, I feel pretty good most of the time.
Work as much as you can, save money, travel and relax when you get older.
That's what I plan on doing, now stop blogging on /jp/ and go get a job. (or autism money if you're that bad)

[Tokiko No.]

>>8164078
Why do ou force me to still live?

[Anonymous No.]

I hate it when I sit down so much that my butt begins to hurt.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164192
>philosophical
What you have here is useless bantering aka waste of a mind. Many people want to be happy but they're not allowed to. You can, but choose not to. That's grossly pathetic.

My PE instructor nailed this pretty much in the head : people who rarely work out tend to have a lot of toxic neurochemicals piled up and see the world through a used coffee filter. The positive chemicals aren't coming and the negative aren't going away. If you don't experience the pains and joys of overcoming challenges aka living, your brain is pretty much guaranteed to be a barren wasteland. This is where most of your nonsensical anxieties come from. Or to be more accurate, OP's sociopathic dependence on the evaluation of others, because his mind has ceased to work in any meaningful fashion and refused to step out of that vicious comfort zone.

You should be constantly experiencing excitement from intellectual challenges in study/research, the thrills and spills of physical activities (something like badminton might do wonders) and great relief from knowing that no one is telling you how to live your life and you alone give it its meanings. That is WHAT you should be doing with your free time, as one of the privileged.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164104

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164277
Because i love your cock.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164293
These are completely different scenarios in completely different places you cannot compare the two. There will always be someone worse off than you and saying they have any less right to complain just makes you look like an unsympathetic asshole.

Also Africans have had their chance so many times, it's a money pit. It's not like they don't have the resources they just don't fucking use them.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164293
>people who rarely work out tend to have a lot of toxic neurochemicals piled up and see the world through a used coffee filter. The positive chemicals aren't coming and the negative aren't going away.

What kind of fucking dumbass would say tha-

>PE Instructor

Oh, nevermind.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164305
http://www.clairedorotik.com/NLWC-EXERCISE_AND_MOOD.htm
Google it and save yourself the humiliation.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164314
Yes because the reason the world sucks is because people aren't working hard enough as it is.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164293
Working out both physically/mentally and feeling "generally happy" won't overcome the soul-crushing realization that your life is wasted no matter what you try to accomplish.

This type of solution helps those who suffer from inexplicable types of depression (i.e. chemical imbalances in the brain) but it doesn't do much for people who have issues coping with their own existence.

To that, there really is no solution. But thanks for trying...?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164302
Actually I believe it's all the warlords that are making it a money pit. So in essence it's all due to greed.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164323
Oh look, another unique snowflake that doesn't think his mood does not actually stem from chemical balances.
And before you ask, your anxiety is both biologically and intellectually soluble. You just can't be arsed to do it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164314

>Non-academic source

Oh wow.

I'm not contesting the values of excercise on neurochemicals, just that you and your PE instructor described it in the most retarded manner possible.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164328
Africa has had good leaders and even some civilizations in history but they always fail and go right back to shit. There are places worse off with no resources and yet they have managed to move out of the fucking dirt huts. I don't know what it is but Africa insists on staying in the age of dinosaurs.

We dump tons of money into the country every year and yet they still live like monkeys, what the hell?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164333
>>8164328

Africans and blacks are inherently inferior, and if you can't see this, you're brainwashed.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164331
At this point you're just saying no for the sake of saying no and offering nothing cogent.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164333
The level of corruption in Africa is so high that most of the money that goes into the country ends up in some rich guys pocket.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164330
We should just throw out philosophy entirely, clearly every great philosopher in history was just some depressed old man with nothing better to do. Humans are all machines and we shouldn't question our existence, why when or how we came here, whatsoever. Why not pick religion back up while we're at it?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164340
So fucking what? What country hasn't?
They don't seem to want to do anything about it.

[Anonymous No.]

Maybe we'll get blindsided by a fast, large asteroid in the next 16 hours. I mean, it could happen.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164341
You're confusing your adolescent nonsense that everyone goes through when they grow up with philosophy. Next someone is gonna say visual novels are the high points of Japanese literature.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164341

He's right. Philosophers also don't mean shit in the face of actual evidence. You only feel anything as a result of neurotransmitters.

So, why don't you pick up religion again, if you're going to offer the dogmatic mumblings of old men as being more valid than empirical evidence?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164346
>adolescent nonsense
Oh so what we aren't allowed to feel bad?
Where the fuck do you get off being so "logically superior"? I'm sorry Spock but just because you're perfect and have no emotions whatsoever doesn't mean everyone else is too.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164346

To be fair, they probably are, considering Japanese literature is a complete joke.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164344

I rather enjoy seeing those shitmonkeys suffer. I don't want them anywhere else in the world, and wish daily that Africa would be carpet-bombed into nothingness.

[KING OF /jp/ !2K23m85knQ No.]

>>8164018
>I don't see what I did wrong, other than being born of course.

You are the same person who spam "reported"
You are pushing people away from you even on the dam internet.
Stop hating everything, If I am wrong , then try to make some friend trough games or try to get contact with your family again.

Suicide is the last option you shoul do , this dam africans aren't even suiciding , why should you?

[Anonymous No.]

It suddenly feels so /b/ in here...

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164349
That is the basis for empirical evidence, otherwise we would just take everything as is.
We would still think the Earth was flat, that gravity was magic, and that we're the center of the universe because no one bothered to come to a more complex solution.

[Anonymous No.]

Let's be honest OP-it's not going to get any better.
Just end it. You have our love, the world is a miserable, harsh, painful place, and most people spend their entire lives trying to convince themselves that it's not hell.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164357

Philosophy is the basis of empirical evidence?

No, you fucking dolt, philosophy is based on (often-flawed) logic, and has nothing to do with empiricism.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164333
Every geopolitical landscape is a massive, complex system of interconnecting threads, and the simplest answers are rarely the right ones.

The current state of Africa has more to do with civil wars, ethnic tensions, high level corruption, international leeching, lack of work, education and opportunity, awful leaders, counterproductive received national aid and much, much more than some inherent inferiority in its people.

And remember that before, most of the world was shitty, except for Europe, the Middle East and hotspots in Asia.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164351
I'm not sure if you're the same as the Kyon guy but we're about to set a new record for setting up straw men. First someone said I was dissing all philosophy. Then someone said I was forbidding people from feeling bad.

You are free to feel bad. It does not prove or disprove the fact that the single kind of anxiety I'm talking about is exactly that, 'adolescent nonsense'.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164367
No, not really. You can easily trace everything back to race, as well as Jews being Jews.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164364
You missed the point entirely.
Philosophy pushes us to find better conclusions to our questions. Science is the method by which we find that information but had it not been for philosophy then why would any of the questions matter? Why do you think we have spent billions trying to understand the universe? Many of these experiments don't have any practical use so what's the point? It's to answer those questions. The famous question "Why are we here?" alone is very the foundation of scientific advancement and discovery. Without philosophy none of those things matter or would even be considered, might as well just say "fuck it who cares?"

[Anonymous No.]

>>>/r9k/

Fuck off, normalfags.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164367

>The current state of Africa has more to do with civil wars, ethnic tensions, high level corruption, international leeching, lack of work, education and opportunity, awful leaders, counterproductive received national aid and much, much more than some inherent inferiority in its people

>Civil wars
Many countries and all continents have these.
>ethnic tensions
Ditto
>high level corruption
Ditto
>international leeching
Ditto

>lack of work
>education and opportunity
>awful leaders
>wasting national welfare

Lol niggers gonna nig. Are you sure you didn't get those last four out of a sociology textbook blaming the white man for everything?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164371
I'm fully open to racial differences, but in a "field" not using the scientific method, peer review and all that jazz, you can trace everything to anything if you look hard enough.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164364
You suddenly have invalidated yourself immensely.


Philosophy is like fucking math--it's everywhere. You don't seem to understand the concept of empiricism, even on the most basic of levels.

Empiricism IS a philosophy. It's one that stresses sensory information as a determining factor of ideas, rather than previous notions that ideas were innate.

Subsequently, Empiricism in the PHILOSOPHY of science is one that stresses evidence as proof of ideas, which allows the separation of things like hypotheses, theories, and facts.

What you are is retarded. I'd say that this is just a hypothesis, but with the evidence that you've provided, it's pretty much known fact.

Captcha: citlyzi Locke
How appropriate...

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164382
Pffft, no, racism is well documented, only liberal kikes like yourself try to claim otherwise.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164293
Precious little story, but it has no basis in science. Depression is a real mental disease with physical implications (less serotonin, non correctly "wired" synapses, etc). You can't wish it away in a few weeks and some fresh air/workout. It needs many years of training (that is, psychological training) and medication, and even then recovery is by far not guaranteed. Seeing as it is the number one cause for death for people under 30 (via suicide), this needs to be seriously addressed.
This is also why the fuckhead (also you?) who complained about children in Africa is retarded. Those kids can suffer from depression as well. It's a universal human sickness, not confined to the first world.
Also, more often than not (unemployed) depressed people and social recluses live at the edge of poverty, not comfortably.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164376
You are now forgetting the most important thing that drives people to do science : simple, unadulterated intellectual curiosity. People didn't develop curiosity after philosophy. In fact, curiosity gives birth to philosophy.

And why people fund science : profits and/or the desire to leave something meaningful behind for the world.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164388
>Depression is a real mental disease with physical implications (less serotonin, non correctly "wired" synapses, etc)

i don't really buy physiological excuses for depression

serotonin seems like bullshit to me

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164354
Bomb the shit out of Africa, make sure there's not a single human left in it. Then recolonize it with non-fuckups.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164399
>>>/http://www.infowars.com/
>>>/www.scientology.org/

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164399
Congratulations, you're an idiot.
Next!

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164403
i think it's nonsense because i have been on dozens of medications for depression and every time i would report the results -- or lack thereof -- my psychologist would be dumbfounded because "IT'S SUPPOSE TO BALANCE SEROTONIN WHAT'S HAPPENING THIS MAKES NO SENSE"

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164018

>head hurts
>narcoleptic
>always tired
>malnourished
>joints hurt

I suggest making a minimal effort to sustain your health.

>No family to help
>No friends

Well, I guess you just have to do what you can. I assume you live in some modern civilized country with some kind of welfare system. Do what you can to get some support. I've heard of people faking mental illness to get on disability.


>I'm asking, have anyone of you experienced this feel?
>Dying, without leaving anything.

No use regretting your decisions if you aren't going to do something about it. Time to retreat into whatever form of escapism you prefer.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164388
>Those kids can suffer from depression as well.
I don't supposed I need to start counting how many ways you can deliberately misinterpret the message ? Obviously kids can get depressed (oh wow). The message is to look at them giving their best and at least be ashamed of yourself, and strive to do your best as well. Or you can keep being shameless and trying to misinterpret it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164409
Have you considered the very fact that because it's a mental problem your mind plays a very important role ?

In fact, I would even go so far as to say placebos would also work if you have the right mindset. Well, that's a tautology since if you had the right mindset you wouldn't be having a problem.

Either way, remember that your own mind plays the most important role. No kind of automatic treatment can solve your problem if you keep doing harm to yourself.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164364
PLE((L˅¬L)˄(E˅¬E))→P
000 | 1 1 | 1 | 1 1 | 0
001 | 1 1 | 1 | 1 0 | 0
010 | 1 0 | 1 | 1 1 | 0
011 | 1 0 | 1 | 1 0 | 0
100 | 1 1 | 1 | 1 1 | 1
101 | 1 1 | 1 | 1 0 | 1
110 | 1 0 | 1 | 1 1 | 1
111 | 1 0 | 1 | 1 0 | 1

Conclusion: Retards.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164442
lol thats exactly how treatment for "depression" works; they manipulate you into believing that you're fine

everything is a placebo. the only real medications are hard alcohol and soft drugs.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164444
What does that have to do with anything? Also why are you building a truth table for what is bleedingly obvious True -> P, which is equivalent to P?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164462
Because that was the argument, which said just as much as that truth table, which was redundant.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164387
Well, shit.

I knew that Africans had less IQ that white people on average but I figured that was because of malnourishment and not having proper mental challenges to develop your mind.

Guess I was wrong.

[Anonymous No.]

> depression thread
Wait, I thought that having /jp/ and 2D lolis were supposed to make us happy?

[Anonymous No.]

>>8164604
/jp/ has more than one person it. Therefore, the existence of happy people does not contradict the existence of unhappy people, nor vice versa.

I can assure you that this is true, even though it may seem to the uninitiated that /jp/ is just one person talking to himself as fast as he can reload his ten proxies.

[Anonymous No.]

I know that feel OP.

I've been all day trying to get doubles and all I get are singles, feeling depressed, can't fucking getting a single one. I'll off myself if I don't get doubles soon enough.

[Anonymous No.]

Hola. Me llamo Pedro. Estoy buscando un trabajo.