/jp/ - Otaku Culture

[Anonymous No.]

Its my birthday today, /jp/ and all I plan on doing is listening to some comiket music and sit alone doing nothing. I dont really feel like doing anything. Still no job, still hate going outside. I am seriously considering suicide. I dont expect to end up in gensyoko or something but man its gotta be better than this...right?
yes yes I know not your personal blog, i dont give a fuck.

[Anonymous No.]

If you do something pic related get something bigger because 9mmSlav won't spatter your brains all over the place

[Anonymous No.]

Happy birthday!

[Anonymous No.]

I'm in the same boat, OP. I wish there was a way I could just go to sleep and die.

[Anonymous No.]

誕生日おめでとう！！

[Anonymous No.]

[Anonymous No.]

Hi OP, I just stopped being a teenager today, how old are you?

[Y10NRDY !kxh.1oTAkU No.]

Happy Birthday, you miserable son of a bitch.

Don't kill yourself. Write.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108987
>>8108983
>>8108968
Thanks guys, it means quite alot. I dont post often and lurk a shitton but you guys were always one of the best boards imo.
>>8108989
20 today.

[Anonymous No.]

Take it easy. You have internet access, a roof over your head, food, water and no job to worry about. Is it really that bad?

[Anonymous No.]

What's wrong with listening to music alone? Your birthday is just another day, and hell, if it's your birthday and I assume you like music, then spending it doing something you like sounds awesome to me. Play some games or something to. Maybe read some mangoes? Whatever you like. Since you can spend it doing nothing, you can spend it entertaining yourself.

Maybe I'm just cynical as hell, but I usually keep my birthdays quiet and do things I like. I hate going out with people, because in the back of my mind I'd always rather be doing something else. So who am I going out with them for? If all I wanted was discussion, I can chat with them while doing something else I want to be doing, not pretending to enjoy myself while I'd really rather be at home.

I doubt either of our ways of looking at it is really healthy to normalfags, but cheer up. Don't be down for no reason. Happy Birthday.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108960
I was like you once. Then I found someone to love. She gives me a reason to live, especially since we're on the cusp of virtual reality tech. Gotta keep going so I can meet her.

The vodka helps too.

Lots and lots of vodka.

Overall, I'm pretty happy nowadays.

[Anonymous No.]

fuck you

and happy birthday

[Anonymous No.]

It gets better, life will improve, your problems will fade away, and things get be easier to deal with.

When you die, thats it, your dead, and your never coming back
Once you die, everything you've ever experienced or will expiriance is gone, you'll never wake up or eat food or laugh at a joke or smile, its all gone.
Every memory you hold dear, every dream and aspiration you've ever had, all that will die with you.
Every friend you've ever had, every friend you'll ever make, all will be gone.
You'll never see your mother or father, you'll never see your friends, you'll never get to watch a new south park episode, or laugh at a funny green text.

All the thing you have yet to acomplish, you're never going to have, you'll never look at your newborn child, you'll never kiss a women and tell her you love her, you'll never learn a new skill, or read a new book.

Every thing you've ever done, and have yet to do, goes with you.
So please, reconsider.

Talk to us OP

[Anonymous No.]

Trust me, spending your birthday alone is better than having your mom get drunk and inviting your grandma and cousin over as you're forced to look like an idiot.

A 22 year old blowing out his birthday candles with grandma. It's like my mother wanted me to feel as pathetic as possible.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108960


>but man its gotta be better than this...right?


WRONG. You dont go anywhere when you die. If youre feeling suicidal, go out and change that. Get medication or help if you need it, get a hobby, meet some people, whatever. You only have one life so dont throw it away.


My birthday passed recently and it was pretty meh, too. Most of my "friends" couldnt be fucked to pick up the phone and call me to say happy birthday, and the one friend I hung out with got angry (not playfully, like serious) because I was a bit late to meet him at his house and was ready to ditch me (so he said.)

So, as someone with a lame birthday to another, happy birthday, anon. Now, dont let that shit get you down.

[Anonymous No.]

THANK GOD /jp/ IS BACK.

[Anonymous No.]

No better time than now to kill yourself.　　　　　　　　　　　　　

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109030
Dude...

You have my condolences.

>>8108960
Also, happy birthday OP. I support your judgement, should you choose to end your own life or not.

[Anonymous No.]

[Anonymous No.]

Happy birthday anon. I also spent my birthday alone listening to awful japanese music, so cheer up.

[Anonymous No.]

Happy birthday, OP, you belong here and we all like you.

Bring that cock over here, dude.

[Anonymous No.]

I did the exact thing in my birthday, so don't feel bad about it.

[Anonymous No.]

For a board about Japanese-ness, you guys sure have some crappy taste in Japanese music; or should I rephrase, you don' pay attention to anything other than Vidya or anime OSTs. There's post rock, math rock, jazz, noise rock, IDM, Psychedelic, etc. etc.
visit the /mu/ archives and look up the Japanese sharethreads

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109114
This board isn't about Japanese culture (a common mistake, thanks to moot). It's about _otaku_ culture. That means video games and anime OSTs.

This is like complaining that we don't care about Japanese history, or Japanese cuisine.

[Anonymous No.]

OP, my birthday is in two months, I'll be 21.
I know how it will go. I have no friends at all, not even close acquaintances.
My mother will insist on calling my two cousins to do something. That's sadder than it sounds. Yes, my cousins are successful on their own ways, and I'm pretty sure they don't want to lose a day by being with the sad bastard I am. But the sad thing is that she mentions my cousins because she can't think of anybody else who's closer to me. The most she can 'hope' for is me meeting with two people who do not really care about me (and they shouldn't).
I'll also receive calls from my mother's parents. They'll be all 'woot, you're growing up' and etc. But what they won't say is that they won't last much longer, and whatever I could have made to make them proud or whatever, I didn't. I'll be 21 years old, jobless, my biggest achievement will be having graduated high school, and I'll be without one single friend.
So, OP, I know that feel. But if you want to end it, do it because all your days are shit (which I guess they are), not because one is.

[Okuu !!Jq0MHPvHhpb No.]

Happy birthday OP!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IcRXO5vVcRg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QCZU9J8iraU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dO_LxiKSL3Q
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsfIbHjOPPY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6V4oUMZyUs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mwVuJUiPJM

Enjoy!

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109146
Now that we're sharing familiar stories.
I tried to commit suicide and failed, now I'll have to wait for christmas, and I'll get to see all of my succesful cousins, and they'll all ask "why did you do that?"

Fuck.Me.

[Anonymous No.]

It's my dad's birthday today as well...

Are you my father? ;___;

[Anonymous No.]

Stop being a weakling OP.
Try to find a way to enjoy your life, believe in self-improvement, think for yourself, do shit for yourself. Also, lie to yourself, lie to others, deceive people. If you can't just ignore them, somehow make sure they have a good enough opinion of yourself, it's not that hard. Be it family or strangers. And use them.

And if you really want to die, don't die like a bitch.
A simple suicide when you are at your most miserable state? How weak are you.
In your current state you shouldn't even have the right to think about dying.
How pathetic are you? At least try to enjoy life a little, I'm sure you can. Also, if you have people you like even a little, such as family, try to make them proud a little, even if you have to lie.
And again, don't die like a bitch. Dying like a miserable faggot? How shameful.
Once you have improved a little, and enjoyed what you could have enjoyed, don't JUST kill yourself. If you want to die, do it properly. Find a good way. Make your family proud of you. IDK, go somewhere dangerous and try self-defence, or try to help someone. Nowadays it's not that hard to find an hopeless situation to jump into.

Anyway, happy birthday pathetic weakling.
Next year you better come back there and, tell to my face that I was a retard and that now you are better than me.
Faggot.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108960
>I am seriously considering suicide. I dont expect to end up in gensyoko or something but man its gotta be better than this...right?

Nope, there is nothing behind the death veil.

You know what, OP? Get Manga Guide to the Universe and read it:
http://www.mediafire.com/mangaguide
I want YOU to feel the magnitude of the world we all are living in.

I think you just need to sort out your life a bit to stop feeling down about spending birthdays in solitude and stuff. And it's OK to take your time. My father died when I was 18 and from that point on my life went batshit, I dropped out from one of the best universities of my country, lived like a hobo, lost contact with all my friends... well, you know the deal. Took me 7 years to get myself back into shape. Now I know what I want to do with my life and I still can take it easy.
OP, don't give up. Life gets better as long as you are willing to work on yourself.

[Anonymous No.]

Take this to >>>/soc/ , really.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109282
You mean >>>/adv/ or >>>/r9k/
/soc/ is for camwhoring and hookups and god knows what else.

[Anonymous No.]

Happy birthday, OP.

[Anonymous No.]

Don't worry OP!

I was already depressed when 4chan was offline today.

And happy birthday!

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109331
/jp/ is unfamiliar with things of the social type, all of it just fits in to this gelatinous anxiety-inducing /socialpeople/ mass.

That said, I had my 21st birthday some weeks ago by my self, while I feel a litle regret on not having a job and thus money to spend on doujins and all that, I didn't feel lonely or yearn for another.

[Anonymous No.]

This thread made my shitty day a lot better. Thanks OP and /jp/.

[Anonymous No.]

This world is shit OP. Take the portal. I'm going too in a few days.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108960
Try to find yourself a hobby to advance in.
do you like to draw? Programming is much easier to start nowadays too.
Try to find an aspiration. It will end anyway, you can kill yourself any day and any minute anyway, but for now you could at least enjoy something. I dont know, you have to play games or watch animes or something. why would you happen there then?

Im 28, without any specialisations or social links, living with parents, and not going to go anywhere soon.I will probably die old in this room, sitting on this chair. But I can still play games, read other happier people on 4chan and maybe I will manage to learn C# and make myself a program or two, for my own amusement. Still better than not trying at all and interrupt living experience right now. Im still probably at much better situation than most of /jp/.
In the end, you will be left only with memories of yourself, so make good memories and occupy yourself with an activity, even an unproductive one.

This is stupid, yeah. This is wrong, I supposed to post "saged and reported", because you were certainly made a joke thread, like it always been. Laugh all you want, but I wrote what I'm honestly thinking. Im sorry for shitposting like that.

Happy birthday

[PRINNY !nLFbzB/0pw No.]

Happy Birthday, OP. Take it easy as much as possible.

[Anonymous No.]

>sit alone doing nothing

That's how I celebrate my birthdays. Honestly, I don't seemost people doing big birthday celebrations past a certain age....like 40 or so.

So, we just got old sooner than must people, it's kind of sad but nothing to kill ourselves about.

[Deep Animu !EvaLOl..tQ No.]

Hurry up and die, then!

[Anonymous No.]

Honestly, I don't think I can change your opinion, but...
Living this way, is it really that bad?
Just take it easy.
Death will come for you anyway.
There's no need to rush.
At least, that's how I feel.
Happy birthday.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109442
Not him but how would one begin putting things to use? I can learn all the crap they have on websites like w3schools on say PHP but I have no idea how to put things together and do practice exercise. Making recommended exercises something print the date and "hello world" is hardly a stimulating or learning exercise. Most of the time I'm unsure of what different functions and namespaces are used for/together (microsoft's library of info on these things is hardly understandable to me, hence why I'm trying PHP since it seems easier). For an example I want to try making a simple updating web scraper/textdata collector using PHP for starters.

Also about the philosophy, I agree. There's no real end benefit to ending your life because you're bored. Only way suicide would be even plausible IN MY OPINION would be when you're stuck in a situation where you are being harmed mentally and physically to the point where it literally hurts more to live and there's nothing more left to try to change the outcome (I'm implying that you actually already tried to change the situation). If you're on a computer and on this board I doubt you're in any real torture/immediate danger.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109462
Read SICP.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109462
Only meant to spoiler the imo.

Anyway, yeah. Try finding a hobby or something if you're bored.

>>8109466
I was about to type something like that. Nope.

[Anonymous No.]

Well, happy birthday.

No wanting anything is a pleasant illusion, but impossible. Do what you like. Take a bath. Buy yourself grapes that you never got as a kid. Shit like that.

[Anonymous No.]

I haven't counted my birthdays recently. Apparently, I'm already 21. Go figure.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109469
What's wrong with SICP?

It's a great introduction to functional programming for programming novices.

[「ロリあき」 No.]

>>8109476
Time to start working on that alcoholism, then.

[proREMIRIAt Elite Force Commander !rSDMROXTB. No.]

>>8109030
Better than a 22 year old celebrating his birthday in the barracks, far from his home and surrounded by people who doesn't really give a shit about each other.

>>8109439
The world is shit, but you won't be able to experience it again, so you may as well try to enjoy the ride, and end it when you get bored of it.

It's reassuring to know I can get a white hot bullet inside my cranium at anytime if I feel like doing so.


Happy Birthday OP.

[Anonymous No.]

Hey OP!

What about trying to get yourself damaged enough to point where you will die soon but you will have some life before dying instead of killing yourself instantly?

This way you will have at least few great days in your life.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109489
Nobody here wants to actually be around their family because they love them, they just want to mooch off them.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109476
Actually, this is funny
If I'd kill myself at 21, I would miss entire 4chan, for instance. 4chan was my best experience for the past several years. Wait, its supposed to be actually pathetic, right?
They point is, you have so many time still, I envy you so much, and OP as well. Shit, you are going to make me cry now.

>>8109462
Well, I hardly know anything about web languages. Maybe dedicated portals about the language could be more helpful. Some advanced tasks have to be around.

About last reason to kill yourself, its really dangerous. People rarely make correct assumptions about their own future.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109504
>4chan was my best experience for the past several years.

Really? 4chan makes me a worse, more bitter, more cynical person every day.

This site is a horrible, unfortunate addiction.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109516
There wasnt anything better.
I was playing some mmos with some guild of normals for a couple of years, who cared jack shit about the game they are playing. They were wasting time after their work. They would rather talk with each other about whose wife will go on vacation with kids and leave them alone finally, so they could drink beer and watch porn. THAT was the time I am truely regretting wasting. I totally didnt become better after that.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109486
Nothing's wrong with it. In fact it's excellent. However I don't need to learn assembly language or hacking or olly debugging or any of that stuff of similar nature. I just need to learn to make software/scripts with easy high level languages.

[Anonymous No.]

>makarov portal

no.

take this.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109516
True, but where would you be without 4chan? Wouldn't you rather be a bitter, jaded Yotsubite than an empty Facebooker?

[Anonymous No.]

Oh, it's this thread again.

[Anonymous No.]

Happy birthday

[Anonymous No.]

Don't kill yourself OP, just live for the hell of it, because you won't be able to do it a second time round. I don't think I've gone through anything as bad as other /jp/ers since I'm still quite young, I'm sure one of these days I'll fuck up badly but whatever comes in my way I just tell myself to deal with it. In my last seconds I want to tell myself that I didn't die as a pathetic fuck and that I tried. There is seriously nothing else that motivates me to live other than just being alive, because I don't have a clue on what will happen after I'm gone.

Happy Birthday I guess.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8109747
>>8109739
>>8108960
>>>/w/

[Anonymous No.]

OP, please kill yourself.

[Anonymous No.]

That time of year again, eh OP? Happy Birthday.
Who knows if it really gets better? The only thing that I'm sure of is that if you don't make an effort to change things, they'll always be the same.
I'll be turning 21 next month, no job and no future. Just realized I'll never make it through college so I'll have to give up on the only thing that's been keeping me going for the last few years. Seriously thinking about joining the marines to get out of this rut.

[Anonymous No.]

I don't think anybody should kill themselves unless every single day for the last year has been either devoid of pleasures or filled with such downright suffering that enduring it is impossible. Really, what's a year or two out of your life anyway? Or four?

You are probably too young to know what the rest of your life is going to look like, anyway. Ten years is a long time. People like to say they'll be dead by then, but twenty-seven year olds don't drop dead much these days.

[Anonymous No.]

Good luck OP!

Remember to share method before you will go to Gensokyo. Everything will be better there! Hugs and love before your departure!

[Anonymous No.]

/jp/ is simply not the kind of board were a guy would post about his shitty life and then link to a livestream of him committing suicide.

The most normal we get are room threads but there's nothing suicidal about that, just some guys bragging their computer screens.

I'd really like to see someone killing himself live dressed as a maid, though.

[Anonymous No.]

I've turned 21 in march. And I'm pretty much in the same situation with no job, no friends.
I think I'll wait until I turn 30 and if I'm still such a looser by then, I definitely will commit suicide.

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108977
There is. Carbon monoxyde, for instance.

[Anonymous No.]

Ok guys OP here. sorry about not replying so long, had a long day. It got alot better I suppose and thanks for everyone saying happy birthday. Sorry about being an angsty faggot on your board.
also im glad /jp/ is back

[Anonymous No.]

>>8108968
This gif goes perfectly with The Logical Song.

http://grooveshark.com/#/search?q=the+logical+song