I have fallen hopelessly in love with a fictitious, undead character dressed in gothic lolita clothing, whom I first saw on this board. Yuyuko means everything to me. I know she's just a fictional character, and that is what crushes me the most inside. I can no longer really see any other girl, real or otherwise, in the same way as Yuyuko. I haven't fapped for about two weeks, porn just doesn't do it for me anymore. I wish I could play all the Touhou games over and over until I fall into a coma and dream about being with my precious Yuyu-sama for the rest of my life. I don't leave my apartment often anyway, so we would spend lots of time together and I would pay more attention to her than that Youmu ever did. She would bake me sweets and we would play games together. We would go to the cinema and when the movie was over, some smart mouthed middle schoolers who would have been staring at us would make wise cracks about me playing with a ghost to which I would respond, "Well this is a ghost that I love and and she is a lady who I will take back to my home tonight! How many of you can say that about anyone?" Yuyuko would no longer be upset by the boys' comments. She would only blush and her eyes would water a little from happiness, replying, "Did you really mean that?" I would gently wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes and tell her, "We don't need them. I don't care if you're already dead, I love you just the way you are," then I would kiss her lightly on the lips. On the way home, we'd take a walk through the park and maybe stop by a cafe for some hot chocolate. I don't even care about the sex. I could spend the rest of my life with her and not even think about it once because I only care about making my Yuyu-sama happy.