/jp/ feels thread

[Anonymous No.]

So, um... I haven't asked for a while. But How are you doing?
Have you learned something?
I'm not feeling super great. The worst thing is, I haven't sorted my Touhou images for a long time, maybe like 2/3 of a year. They are now in one big folder with all the other stuff...

[Anonymous No.]

I like leaving my files unsorted. It's like a timeline of your interests

[Anonymous No.]

>>32766071
that's one way to look at it!

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
I don't know.
I haven't really learned anything. Just looking at the rest of the world is almost like a replay. I'm not saying people are stupid, but they're pretty fucking stupid.
Somewhat the same issue here with the images.
Most of the ones I'm fond of corrupted and the others disappeared. Out of 10k, I probably lost a third of them. Half if I include the stuff I deleted. I had a few other game clips too and those are gone each update. It pisses me off to say the least.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32766238
what do you mean by "replay"? Do you mean "events repeat themselves?
Also, I have most of the stuff backed up and all my drives are SSD's, recently my brother gifted me another 250GB one, so I don't even have to back up anything on the cloud.

[Anonymous No.]

I'm slowly growing towards not being able to stand weebshit anymore. At one point you start to become too old for it all.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768120
How long you have been here? This will be the 5th year for me.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
same
it's like impossible to find any image that you want in a timely matter when it's all one big folder

I have a huge file system but got stuck saving things elsewhere in a pile

Also not doing so well, but maybe if I work harder I could actually accomplish something

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768212
2ch had a meme that a newfag takes 3 years and an otaku 7 years. Implying you're better off leaving before it gets to that.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768248
I must admit that... I use google disc... I got unlimited space from the school where I was going... and I still have access to that account. I always fear that they will find my files somehow

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768421
I don't think there is anything for me... goodbye world................

[Anonymous No.]

I hate work, I hate ammo prices, I hate the internet is being censored, and I just want to be a NEET and stay home and watch anime, play 2hu, and shoot guns in my backyard.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768611
Don't go...!

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768625
Ammo never
The guns I want never

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768625
I feel you.
>>32768248
>impossible to find any image that you want in a timely matter when it's all one big folder
This.
Combine it with numerous branching files and you'll spend an hour looking for something.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32769191
At this point, I post whatever I find in a relevant thread if I'm looking for an image. That's if I find it at all.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768625
Recently, the EU banned some certain weapons and single-shot black powder ones. So idk what I will get, when I'm gonna be 21 this year.

[Anonymous No.]

I've made some good headway into my japanese learning journey, I feel like reading manga is getting easier and easier despite my vocab being pretty limited.

[Anonymous No.]

Doing good OP. Yeah, my images are a wreck. Back in the 90s I had folders and everything was nice and organized but now since I go back and forth between phone and computers everything is pretty much on a timeline. I have to remember when I acquired all images and media and scroll through a bunch of stuff.

[Anonymous No.]

I told myself that this would be the year I learned how to start drawing after finding out a commission from an artist I really really liked would cost $300. I even went and bought myself a fancy drawing tablet with those $300 instead so as to have no excuses anymore. It's the last week of January and I have yet to start. Have yet to use the tablet even once.
I bought the tablet on December of 2019

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>>32771619
Oh yeah.. I bought an expensive tablet as well... I didn't draw a single pic... before and after I bout it... it feels like such a disappointment... I don't know what to do

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772181
>>32771619
F
I'm still used to drawing traditionally. I don't know if I'll ever go about drawing on a tablet.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772326
One might say that it's a good place to start from. It has a would, even if not very convenient

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772181
Wanna encourage one another and learn together and stuff, anon? Maybe that'll help. Doing it alongside someone else.

[Anonymous No.]

I'm tired of working construction for 10 hours a day.
I just want to stay home.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772448
That would be great. But I fear I might not have much time for it... but if I will sacrifice gaming time... perhaps I can do it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772416
No, I mean I'm already aware of the discipline, it's just weird since I don't use large sheets. Some people have entire setups, but overall, it's just weird to do.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772496
>Already thinking on how you won't have time for it
You'll never get anywhere like that, anon-kun.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
I haven't learned anything meaningful in years unless you count learning how to speedrun a game.

I am not doing well at all, I fear will loose my job soon as I freeze and can't get anything done.

I do keep my images organize but that' about the one thing I can do right.

[Anonymous No.]

Why is it that unless its vidya when something gets fun to me I start getting depressed and dont want to do it

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>>32765984
I have 4000 unsorted touhou pictures, 36 thousand sorted ones (+200k in total). I need to start sorting them again...
I am just struggling to fix my sleep schedule so I can stop being a NEET. Everything I want to do is hindered by the fact that I can't pay to buy new stuff to help me in that direction. But it is hard to fix your sleep schedule after half a decade of zero discipline.

[Anonymous No.]

I hate that everything I'm interested in is in the creative realm. Woodwork, photography, sewing, illustration, instruments, writing.... everything requires me to push myself, to be motivated and dedicate myself to improvement. Ironically, a drive to be productive is the one thing I lack. It was drilled into me as a kid to be a perfectionist, but because of that, everything outside of droning menial labour is an extremely stressful experience that eats away at me. I want to do something fullfilling, I have so many passions, but the very act of pursuing them exponetially diminishes my will to live.
I just want to be a neet. I want to lose myself in distractions so that I dont even notice the passage of time. Each day mirrors the previous ad Infinium.
But tomorrow I'll get up, telling myself today I'll practise something, get better at it. I don't need to be perfect, I just need to improve, hell, not even that, I just need to enjoy the process of creating. I hope that eventually I'll actually feel that way, and instead of feeling like I want to die when I create something that's not the best mankind has ever seen, hopefully I'll feel good about myself and look forward to the next project.

[Anonymous No.]

My life is kind of a miss but I'll figure stuff out, lately I've been pissed at normalfags shoving politics into my face all the time, I don't care about "right" or "left" or whatever the fuck you care about, I only care about anime, japan and technology, fuck why did moot allow politics to be discussed in this hellhole it destroyed this website

[Anonymous No.]

>>32788645
mess*

[Anonymous No.]

it's a mess and i dont think i will sort out my life anytime soon. I've been meaning to pick up writing again after 5 years and I'm really glad that i have friends that supports me whenever i need help on writing issues. but i just, can't. i always have a tons of ideas but i can't put the words into the paper and i don't think i will ever do any of my idea justice. my japanese study is a real mess too, i don't think i will ever be fluent if i keep being like this.

at least i managed to beat Touhou 6 on Hard! I'm gonna try Lunatic soon

[Anonymous No.]

>>32780413
>it is hard to fix your sleep schedule after half a decade of zero discipline.
damn.

[Anonymous No.]

anons... keep holding on...

[Anonymous No.]

>>32780413
I have way too many boobhu pics that are unsorted and I probably will never get organized in any meaningful way. try melatonin and use it around the time you want to sleep.

[Anonymous No.]

I've actually been successfully tackling my backlog the past couple years instead of just doing the same bullshit over and over

>haven't sorted my Touhou images for a long time
Don't remind me

[Anonymous No.]

Everything is bad.
Nothing is good.
There is no future.
Other than that, things are going fine.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
I know that feeling too well anon...
I have 2 years of files in a mess of multiple disks and various directories messy structures. It's more than a year that I tell myself I'll fix it.
>>32766071
I can't...
After sometime it becomes so messy that I have to create more random directories which makes it even more messy.
>>32768625
They'll never leave us alone.
>>32771619
>>32772181
>tablet and drawing
I just said fuck it and started playing osu! with it.

[Anonymous No.]

Literal /cgl/ thread

[Anonymous No.]

>>32802875
Yeah but no one here has a stinky pussy

[Anonymous No.]

>>32802898
What is this smell then anon?

[Anonymous No.]

I'm getting married in April

[Anonymous No.]

>>32803148
Proof of my love for you

[Anonymous No.]

>>32771619
Put on some music, make some coffee, and go at it!

[Anonymous No.]

>>32771619
I told myself that 2020 would have been the year when I stopped being NEET and started going out and traveling(to 日本).
Life is unfair.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
I'm having a bad time because I now know my real life will never really start, but leaning into my hobbies doesn't make me feel any better because most of them remind me that I am a loser.

[Anonymous No.]

A-anyone in this thread wanna be discord buds

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
>discord
die.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804318
sorry, I meant to type IRC

[Anonymous No.]

>>32803984
>loser
Why do you care about other judgement anon?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
maybe...

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804558
The only person whose judgment really matters is yourself, but I also judge myself to be a loser, so it can't be helped.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
no, fuck discord

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
Are you a girl?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804318
>>32805456
You don't gotta be so hostile. I just want a friend

[Anonymous No.]

That feel when feels thread is sliding.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
It's not the Fleshlight's fault, really. Just the fact that trying to use the one I ordered for my 34th birthday has rammed home the basic fact that I am a loser and that I am never going to get laid in my life.

I am apparently both too small and too big to use the Fleshlight. Small in the PENIS and big in the grossly overweight stomach. The result is that I apparently can't get very deep into the thing and experience the ribbing and other textures.

I ordered four inserts at once, three supertights with the three sorts of textures -- wave, ribbed, bumped -- and one ultratight. With all of them I have been having an incredible struggle to find a comfortable position to get in with my enormous stomach to allow for using the thing long enough to get off. I apparently developed a way to masturbate by hand that deluded myself into thinking I was normal. I am obviously not. I can only seem to go about an inch and a half into this Fleshlight before my fat gets in the way and the smallness of my PENIS defeat the purpose. The incredible depression of the experience makes it hard for me to stay erect as the whole time I am thinking about what a deformed, out-of-shape loser I am, so I end up only half hard or less.

Today is my 34th birthday. I have never had a girlfriend in my life, due to being a shy fatass with an ugly skin condition that I was afraid of having anyone see by taking my clothes off. I am so incredibly fucking lonely and depressed. I just want to be able to hug a woman, to hold her in my arms. Sex is frankly secondary to me, which is lucky given that I haven't had any except with my own hand.

I bought this thing thinking I would treat myself and make myself happier, but it has just driven home how fucked I am. I guess my only hope at this point is to find a woman who doesn't mind me only using oral sex on her because my PENIS obviously doesn't work very well.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32829983
Well, I hope you are able to get a kid someday.

[Anonymous No.]

[Anonymous No.]

>>32772326
Opposite for me. I struggled with traditional for ~2 years and once I got I tablet it was a breath of fresh air. I'll go back to paper one day, but for now digital is fun.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804343
Is there actually a /jp/ IRC that people still use?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32829983
I’m laughing so hard, thank you so much. Made my day

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
Trying to learn cs, but am too retarded to understand the basics. Feel like I'm going to dropout but am helples.
Sleep schedule is only normal thanks to constant doses of Diphenhydramine Hydrochloride & Melatonin, and I've just run out.
My images are not sorted at all.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
doing quite fine, I am having some trouble with a close friend of mine wanting to kill himself because of some relationship he lost and it and I can't really understand what he feels because I have never felt love in my life, then I have been reading a lot of very interesting books and playing touhou since I finally got some free time

[Anonymous No.]

>>32845359
>Is there actually a /jp/ IRC
also interested.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32845172

[Anonymous No.]

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[Anonymous No.]

>>32829983
My penis doesn't work either, I have never ejaculated at my own.
>>32848091
Tried javascript, but lost interest
>>32853208
That's pretty great! I try to read stuff time to time but it seems like my internet addiction is... stronger

[Anonymous No.]

I have started learning how to draw

[Anonymous No.]

I'm doing slightly better now.

[Anonymous No.]

I haven't felt as hopeful as today in a while now.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
Hi anon, I also had a lot of problems keeping my images sorted properly. One thing that helped me out was FlashFolder, gallery-dl and pixivutil so I can easily save directly to folders instead of dealing with a build up,though a large folder has its own charms. I like to digitally hoard things, taking a day or two out of the month to just get started on your image pile will probably feel nice.

I'm ok but have been very stagnant in life, I should work harder at self improvement but I don't.

[Anonymous No.]

Haven't studied Japanese in a bit. People will shit on me and say it's because I'm doing it wrong when in reality this is nothing new when it comes to things that I have some sort of interest in. It's always starting. And once I fall off I fall off hard.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32780413
My current life is the slog of having 5 hours of sleep and 10 hours of work each day with studying at the side
getting no time for myself and the time i do have i am too tired to do anything, i want to go back to the neet life

generally pissed off at normalfags like usual, thankfully living in switzerland means i dont have to deal with the zionist shit like in the usa or EU

>>32768625
nice oni and nice evo

[Anonymous No.]

>>32780413
(double reply)
I have several thousand unsorted pictures aswell, i want to sort them but sorting by date and skimming through them makes me relieve a lot of nice memories.
my current sleep schedule is fucked too, i try to go as early as i can but i dont notice anything except more stress in the evening.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32878028
gallery-dl　is great

[Anonymous No.]

>>32878188
>once I fall off I fall off hard
Been there with you. I was doing well for three months. Doing my reps, watching television programs, and trying my best to read what I could. Honestly was having fun, even if I wasn't too sure if I was doing things correctly, if there even is a solid way when it comes to languages.
Then an issue popped up in life and I dropped it after a while. Deleted Anki and everything. Don't even remember anything now.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32848091
What are you interested in making, anon? I crosspost here and /g/, can point you in the right direction.

[Anonymous No.]

Trying to learn how to draw, ultimately want to get gud at animation and make my own fanime.

[Anonymous No.]

Doing bad these days lads, best friend passed away some years ago and it changed me for good. Recently lost another close friend over gamestop stock of all things. Just feel a constant pain inside and some days it's worse than others.
Combined with the feeling of aimlessness since my friend is gone just makes me wonder when I'll be done with it all. At the very least, I'm becoming a slightly less retarded programmer.

[Anonymous No.]

I feel like I'm wasting time and money on college this year, I'm not even learning anything at home. I really should've skipped this school year.

[Anonymous No.]

I'm due to graduate at the end of the year, so that's nice. Waiting patiently for the th18 demo.
Also feeling really horny for Shou.

[Anonymous No.]

I wanted to work on learning Japanese the proper way last year so I got a textbook since I find it easier to work with that than through computer programs but I spilled coffee on said textbook before I could touch it and will have to get a new one soon before rent kicks my ass financially
All I want to do is read 2chan shitposts and bad Pixiv fanfics

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
>>32805575
I wouldn't mind!

[Anonymous No.]

>>32878028
Ever tried Hyrus Network?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32881549
I've been telling myself I'd try using that for the past eight years or so. It seems like a lot of work

[Anonymous No.]

>>32766071
That's the way to do it. Like an eternally messy room.

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>>32881632
Not really. Pretty much anything you add will already be tagged by someone else. The only work comes with running the dupe filter and deleting dupes when you initially bulk download a ton of artists from pixiv and booru after your initial setup. Unless you hoard a couple dozen thousand images, then it wont take very long; you could do it in a single afternoon. Once you've added all the artists/tags you want to watch and automatically download, then delete any dupes, it's smooth sailing. Easy to manage as you go and takes minimal effort.

[Anonymous No.]

Any nice /jp/sy boys wanna come over and hold hands while watching Gundam?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32829983
>I bought this thing thinking I would treat myself and make myself happier
It will make you happier, just long term. Self-improvement is a day at a time. You can improve even if you're a loser. There isn't much of a way to go downwards at this point.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32881549
Ive tried to in the past but I like changing things around too much and am too lazy to really keep up with it. Ive heard its very good though and would recommend it to anyone.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32766071
I've had the same 4chan folder for 11 years now.
Eventually you learn to navigate it by instinct alone.

[Anonymous No.]

I just ate 4 slices of pizza and 2 donuts and have a NOS energy drink halfway done in front of me. Someone call the ambulance.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32876120
Keep at it anon! Make sure to balance studying with drawing for fun.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32881011
Pirate it anon, try libgen.

[Anonymous No.]

What do my fellow orientalists do to put food on the table, so to speak?

[Anonymous No.]

>New board added: /vt/ - Virtual YouTubers
WE DID IT
The nightmare is over....

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
Eat shit and die

[Anonymous No.]

>>32885609
board is still too fast, but hopefully it will start slowing down soon

[Anonymous No.]

>>32885850
Hopefully things will slow down a bit and we can finally take it easy again...
People are just shitposting because of the announcement, will take some time before things cool off.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32805554
I am when I use my vtuber cosplay

[Anonymous No.]

>>32884964
Let's just say I've swallowed a lot of /jp/ boy cum

[Anonymous No.]

>>32885938
Kill yourself back to discord, holofag.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32768625
>ammo prices
Fuck I feel you man. It's not as bad here in leafland but still expensive. I'm treating the 556 I used to spray like it's made of pure gold now. Only bright spot is that thanks to lockdown I'm not tempted to actually use any.
>internet censored
Yeah, everything only gets tighter. It will never let up.
I'm working hard every day personally, but the daily grind combined with everything being shut down kinda sucks. I feel like fucking コロナ will never end. I want to go back to Japan and pig out at an izakaya. I'm tired of doing the same crap every day with no end or even break in sight. Having to hear normalfags talking about their "zoom dates" and "staycations" and stupid narrow brained politics. Fuck it's all so tiresome. I don't even watch anime anymore.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32887196
why all the buzzwords?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32886191
Are you billy herrington the child molester?

[Anonymous No.]

>>32888424
No, I'm that Saten poster

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
Pretty bad probably... day-to-day I'd say I feel happy generally, but it's only because I can distract myself with fun things like games, chatting with people, anime and manga, music, masturbation, etc., but if I think about my life, my future, how worthless I am, I shut down near instantly, cry/have a panic attack, and think about how I should just kill myself...
As long as I can keep living my life in this comfortable way I think I'll be alright... and as long as I can keep doing fun things in life, I'll want to keep living, but even I know it probably can't last forwever, and while I'm probably not as old as some people here, I still can't think of good prospects for a twenty-something who's never had a job, doesn't have a high school diploma or GED, much less a college degree, and has no real skills or talents. Not that I want to work at all of course, but I'm aware I might have to some day. I ought to try to get SSDI, thought about that for a long time, but especially with the current state of things, might be hard, even if I pretty much undoubtedly qualify. Or maybe I could find a person to live with, thought not sure who would wanna live with someone like me I'm apparently pretty good looking so i guess that could help... Hell who knows, maybe if I had to get a job I'd be able to adjust and deal with that sorta life, but I kinda doubt it.
>>32771619 >>32772181
I've not bought a drawing tablet because I know I wouldn't use it enough with how little I practice traditional art... maybe >>32845172 has a point though, and it's not like I have much of anything to spend money on.
>>32787305
I relate to this very much, I don't have too much more to add really, but, I hope one day we can become motivated anon, and fufill our goals and dreams, it's hard...

[Anonymous No.]

Everyone who's ever posted on /jp/ is my friend except for Gomenasai, but !!U7WY41TIAcG FUCK HIM

[Anonymous No.]

>>32889681
Having a creative hobby that requires you to practice is one of the greatest motivators there is. For me, the idea of making art that people will enjoy is what keeps me drawing.
>no real skills or talents
Pure talent is rare. Most skilled people spent a lot of time and effort practicing to get to where they are now. And like you said, it wouldn't hurt to try out a tablet just for the hell of it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
I'm just chronically unhappy I guess. I regularly lack motivation to do anything except turn in uni assignments on time, and mostly so I can keep my scholarship and not have to do even more work. I spend most of my free hours sleeping. The short bursts of inspiration and motivation usually just leave me depressed that I'm not as good at anything as I would like. I've been chasing grades my whole life up to this point, and never had the time for much past that. I'm absolutely terrified about what comes after school, and whether or not I'll be able to get a job. I don't have any normal life experiences; I've never done drugs, drank, had sex, or any of that kind of stuff. People say that you're supposed to make all of your mistakes while you're young, but what happens if you never make any mistakes? I feel like I'm two steps away from losing everything at all times, so I can never just take it easy and be alive. I kind of want to get a tulpa, even though I'm 90% sure that they're schizophrenic bullshit, because I need someone to hug and talk to and trust, even if they only exist within my head.
Also I don't have enough images.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32805575
I would like a discord friend.... or try

[Anonymous No.]

>>32848091
>Sleep schedule is only normal thanks to constant doses of Diphenhydramine Hydrochloride & Melatonin
Fuck me is that relatable
And the occasional ambien I swipe from my mom when I get really desperate

[Anonymous No.]

>>32886191
W-What?
>>32894780
Wanna do it?

[Anonymous No.]

I'm not doing very well and have been sad since the /jp/ocalypse happened around Christmas but hopefully the board can return to normal soon

[Anonymous No.]

>>32896110
Now that the vt*ber norman cancer has been expelled, the NEET ronin have a home again.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32884964
I unironically trade stocks and crypto for a living since years.
>>32887538
>I want to go back to Japan
Me too.
It's years I want to go back but postponed and now who knows...
>zoom dates
Oh no is this how zoomers will mate from now on?
>I don't even watch anime anymore
Watching yuru camp is helping lately.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32780413
>Everything I want to do is hindered by the fact that I can't pay to buy new stuff to help me in that direction
I can relate to this in a sense"I've bought everything I could need and I didn't do anything with it."
>>32787305
I really do related to this, I kinda try, but I feel so tired to do anything. I bought $500 in sewing equipment and haven't sewed a single thing. Bough a $150 graphics tablet but to this day, there is not a single thing I have finished.
>>32894596
What about some friends from the uni, have you tried talking to people? Personally, I've had issues people, but as I get older, such things are not so problematic anymore.

>sleeping problems/feeling tired all the time
>lacking motivation
>sad/very sad
>high expectations
>trying hobbies
>everyone likes Touhou

I'm glad I'm home guys.

[Anonymous No.]

I dug through some backups for my older PCs, and I came across a batch release of manga translated by gensokyo.org. After reading for a bit, I tried looking up if there was an update to it, and found out that the site was gone.
What happened to it, and where'd the translators go? There was a slow imageboard, too, where they'd discuss translation and editing, but I don't have it bookmarked.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32900561
>What about some friends from the uni
When classes were physically happening, I commuted in order to save money, so I needed to have everything there done before the buses stopped running. Now that everything's digital and remote, I just don't live anywhere near anyone else, and I'm afraid of asking people to be in some kind of study group.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32900370
>zoom dates
Yes, apparently there's zoom dates for zoom zooms.
I should watch Yuru camp, I miss going innawoods. We're not even really allowed to do that anymore.
I'm making good money recently so I think I'll go to Japan longer term next time, if there ever is a next time. But right now all I can do is work and fantasize.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32896019
SURE, same anon who posted petted Chun (pwecious)

[Anonymous No.]

>>32894596
>I kind of want to get a tulpa, even though I'm 90% sure that they're schizophrenic bullshit
Yeah, don't bother with that shit.
It's like split personality, but intentional. That's how I interpret it.

>>32900561
>>sleeping problems/feeling tired all the time
>>lacking motivation
>>sad/very sad
>>high expectations
>>trying hobbies
>>everyone likes Touhou
Hina is /jp/ incarnate.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
university work is surely sapping my will to live, every day is the same monotony because my country is back in lockdowns, and I'm spending more and more time daydreaming
honestly, I'm not sure how long it'll be until I wander off into the woods somewhere

[Anonymous No.]

>>32771619
Don't rush it, true art comes from inspired minds. There will be a time where you will find something so cool that you will want to draw it really badly, and it will be one of your favorite pieces of art. I believe you!

[Anonymous No.]

I became a normalfag by /jp/ standards:
I got a gf, and right now I'm focusing on my own engineering projects and on strengthening 'portfolio', since I wouldn't like to risk being a NEET on a third world country.

On the other side of things, people are tiresome as always, I can't communicate with anyone for some reason. For some unknown reason everyone praises me. Even after pushing through everything, I still feel unmotivated and tired, but listening to doujin music and lurking on the /jp/ really helps.

Maybe one day I will be able to go to comiket and sell my own femdom doujinshi.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
Sure, I would like to have more /jp/ friends. Everyone else is gone.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32804238
Honestly I feel inclined to, but I've never had a good experience with discord people.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32905041
I think It's better to study alone. Honestly, I always did more when doing things alone. Because I get easily distracted.
>>32910481
Damn, she is my favourite 2hu... it really says a lot, doesn't it?
>>32910991
I hear more and more people say ( even my mother ) that they what to go to the countryside. Crazy thing, it really is like that.

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>>32765984
Recent depression and anxiety had me increase my anti-depressant dosage.
Churning through Cert prep despite that.

>>32766071
I personally have image folders organized by the year I saved the image. Haven't done a good sort of them since '18 though.

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>>32894596
It's almost as if you've described me as well, anon, I'm ready to sign under every single word. If it's any help for you, I did some things differently: I did get a tulpa, but it's not a person you can hug or anything, a comforting voice in your head, sure, but it required a lot of dedication and patience over a long period of time. Also, don't listen to anons on tulpa-related forums, they're genuinely delusional in their escapism: learn lucid dreaming instead, it's probably the experience you're looking for.
Also, and it might be coming out of the blue, join a local martial arts club. That shit helped me become way more confident in myself through both physical and mental work of exercising and meeting new people (and, well, fighting them).
Nobody has an idea what the future holds, all one can do is strengthen ourselves no matter how shitty one's state is.
I'll work harder now, knowing there are people I can relate to in the world, thank you anon.

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>>32910400
What's your discord?

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>>32845359
>>32856022
Or what about a DC++ hub? Last I recall there was a /g/ one at least.

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I'm tired of everything being made cynical and politicized.

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>>32920491
>>32920519
fuck off cunt

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[Anonymous No.]

What do you do when the stuff you like is too obscure to find other people to share it with? I used to think that would be cool, but it's actually kinda lonely

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>>32919487
Sucks living in California where everyone is cynical and everything is politicized on steroids

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>>32921549
Maybe try to find something in common with them maybe? I've been a big fan of Touhou since I was 11 but I haven't met a single person in real life who shares that same interest with me. I just had to deal with it or find some other stuff that I have in common with them like a TV show or a video game. Having said that, you shouldn't change your legitimate interests just to be appealing to other people. Be proud of what you like. People like others that are genuinely passionate in what they enjoy.

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>>32768625
keyed otaku gunposter please make an archive of all your funny pics I keep losing them
thank you especially for LAW okuu

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>>32926334
>>32926320
Ran is making me hard...

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Ran wants you to dance.

[Anonymous No.]

was studying too much japanese and too little at school, that makes me feel bad
also nice ran

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that reminds me that i don't have enough ran mmd's i should go download some soon

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>>32926511
Always a wise choice.

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[Anonymous No.]

I've been pretty much the same for 3 years now just feeling apathetic and depressed, I've not learnt anything in these years and I'm poor. No drive or motivation for anything.
And the worst part is that I've not updated my Sakuya folder in years, and I feel too bad to start again because of all the pictures I've missed.

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>>32765984
I got this skin condition that has been becoming worse and worse the more the months progress.
Even if my body temperature just rises by 3 degrees, it immediately feels like ants are biting every surface of my skin. And I live in a hot climate, so it practically happens every day now. I'd wake up in the middle of the night with this itch, and either I sleep it off or I run to the showers to cool off the flare.
My mind has also been degrading because of this. I feel like shit because I haven't worked out for 5 months because of this, but I need to work out to release some pressure. Its my fault to some extent since the only thing holding my life together was working out, not to mention that I've become increasingly anti-social ever since I focused on martial arts.
I put all my eggs in one basket and I am fucking walled off my only will to live just because life dictates so.
Fun world, fun life.

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>>32900370
>I unironically trade stocks and crypto for a living since years.
How much capital did you start out with and what's your income now?
I've been trading stock since the corona-dip but I feel like I need to pull out the big guns (crypto) to avoid being a wage-slave, because there's no way I'm becoming a Touhou gamer-god if I get mindbroken by the system.

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>>32927887
Crypto is a meme
Regular day trading blows it out of the water

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>>32919487
I miss when people could be fully genuine about something instead of having to wrap it in a layer of irony or abstraction
It seems like people can't fully express their love for things anymore without fear of being called weird or creepy

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>>32926556
you know any source of those anywhere? searching through iwara didn't give many results

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>>32932981
Try oreno3d.com which links to Iwara. Its a vastly better search. Also pixiv, deviantart, niconico and the regular places.

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i don't wanna work

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>>32933540
Then you should not live.

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>>32933588
fuck you, humans aren't born to work.Working is literal slavery

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>>32933686
we should work towards the future where we don't work

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>>32933686
Humans are born to work to make things better for themselves and their family. If you are not working, you are dieing and if you are not supporting yourself you are a drag on someone and should be killed to make more resources available for those who work.

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>>32894596
It’s bizarre seeing young kids think they’ve fucked up or missed out when their lives are literally just starting lol.

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>>32933686
NEETs always confuse me. They’re such depressed pieces of shit but will insist that their lifestyle is superior. Working is fulfilling, just get a job you can take pride in.

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>>32935200
I read eroge, play games, and watch anime all day every day. There's nothing better than that.

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>>32935236
What about gaining skills, meeting people, having money to actually do fun shit? Consuming media is something you do in your free time, & relaxing feels far more rewarding when you feel like you’ve earned it.

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>>32935342

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>>32935342

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He is just trolling guys, just call the faggots who don't work for the shitstains on society that they are and move on.

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>>32935731
>>32935639
>>32935342
>>32935200
I have never met someone that calls people lazy and worthless that isn't plain worthless himself. Its real fucking stupid hearing some dude who has never worked a day of his life calling other people lazy.
Fuck off m8, I work to be able to eat and I only truly dedicate myself to my personal projects.

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I DONT COME HERE:

TO SEE DEPRESSED PEOPLE
TO SEE THREADS ABOUT SIMPING 3D WHORES
TO BE BANNED FOR BULLSHIT REASONS

WHERE THE FUCK IS THE FUN, JANITOR?

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>>32936039
>TO SEE DEPRESSED PEOPLE
bad news, retard

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>>32936104
suck my dude, cock

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>>32936180
done

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>>32936685
Mmm, thx <3.

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>>32894596
The same thing happens to me, but instead of working hard and studying I spend my time doing nothing at all. Recently an old friend of mine came to visit me. She told me about some of the problems in her family, but at the time I was quite depressed myself, so there wasn't anything I could do to help her or even cheer her up. Lately I felt guilty for being such a hopeless dumbass who couldn't even help his friend. I wasn't always like this and I used to be a different person, but a year ago my depression literally ate me up and now everything in my life seems different. I guess there's really nothing much you can do about it, but to work hard, keep your courage up, and never lose your hope for a bright future.

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>>32765984
If you want a starting point to organize your Touhou folder, mine's sorted by character. I guess if you want to go another step further, you can sort by artists or intent for those images (e.g. fap folder, reaction image folder, etc.).

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>>32935166
It's just that life's always been like this. I'm afraid that it's always going to be like this. My friendships never lasted past a school year, and every free second feels like it's taken up by the anxiety of having to finish my work before the next deadline. People always say that it's easier when you're in high school, then college, and so on. I'm gonna be 20 soon, and then soon after that I'll be 25, then 30, then 40, and what if things stay the same way they've been since I was 10? I'm scared that life might already be over, and I don't even know if it ever really began.
>>32937423
>>32915024
I'm glad some folks can relate.

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>>32927887
Started with something like 25k from my parents, this was many years ago.
It depends from month to month, I make between 1500 to 5000, depends on how much I am willing to risk and how much I need, some months I am lazy and just want to take it easy with passive income. I lost a lot of money with the corona dip, around 15k, but then recovered.
Careful with what you do as always don't invest more than you are willing to lose we live in troubled times.
>>32900370
>>32930871
>crypto
Some are not a meme but it is hit or miss in general.
I honestly just hold BTC atm, I don't actually trade crypto since a couple of years.

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>>32914543
the more I think about it, the more I realise I'm sick of being in one place. I'm sick of the city, and the countryside at least offers different views
hopefully corona is sorted out sooner rather than later and I can go travel

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>>32939304
Still reading this almost as if I wrote this myself.
What feels the worst by far is the fact that I don't lack social skills at all: I'm quite liked by others, if anything, I'm just unwilling to use said skills because of how boring everyone is around me - and I genuinely tried liking them.
The growing up part sucks too. Ever since I was 10 I thought "I'll be 15 someday, I'll be a tad more mature", when I turned 15 I thought, "Well, I'll change considerably when I'm 20", repeat, yet nothing changes and I don't think anything will. At this point becoming a wageslave is actually somewhat of a dream even though I wouldn't describe myself as a dim bulb. I really hope I can just live a quiet life one day with nobody really bothering me.
Sorry for the wall of text, I don't really have many people to relate to in this manner or whom I trust enough to tell this, and thanks again.

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You guys should head over to tohno chan. They are content with being in a depressing bubble and the more you say you hate your life, the more they accept you. Say anything positive and you will be banned. Head over there ty buh bye.

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>>32939743
It's really more of a vent than a "woe is me" post, everyone needs their downtime, anon. And this is the feels thread for a reason

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>>32939743
Mad because you got banned on a fucking spinoff for being a normalfag huh

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>>32939743
you came to a thread that was called '/jp/ feels' and you're complaining about people posting their feelings

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I came here for Chen. My recommendation isn't any sort of joke or troll. Reading these posts reminded of Tohnochan. Some of you guys would fit in better there than here. I am 100% serious no jewing.

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>>32878824
Trying to wrap my head around JS but will probably fail completely since I'm dogshit at math (can't even multiply/divide without a calc), can't understand chemistry, and have lost interest in reading & history (which I used to like).
I can't even read assignments since I just hear what sounds like a banshee screaming in my head anytime I start reading

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>>32765984
I quit my xanax addiction and now I just feel empty. Nothing to do and nothing I want to do.

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>>32940399
Exactly. Great. I am glad anon. Mind altering substances is never the answer.

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>>32940526
Thanks, still wanting to know what is though.

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>>32878824
I have no creativity whatsoever and have no idea what to do for a "personal project". I'm basically a bug man.

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>>32940957
how about sorting those images? you can use hydrus network for thar

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>>32941013
I meant more tech related personal projects. Programming stuff.

(Apologies that this image is not 2hu related)

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Don't understand why some of you guys are having problems. More welfare than ever before, money being printed and given out at the fastest rates ever and inflation hasn't caught up with us yet. Lots of people are getting paid not to work still because of last years China flu scare. Stock market has been rocketing over the years, food cheap again (wtf 2.99 lb. choice sirloins right now?!), yeah Biden is president so bad times coming but for right now aside from international travel, things are pretty friggin sweet.

You all should be taking advantage of these great times before we have to start paying for it.

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>>32941054
if you want to do some programming - you can switch to linux and learn bash. that's not a real language, but it can do quite some stuff with the right programs and it can be practically useful
>>32941072
i'm pretty sure that's not going to fix all of anon's problems

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>>32765984
And why the fuck vtrash still here?

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>>32941158
I don't think you're getting what I mean by personal projects. I mean like the kind that you put in your portfolio and show to potential employers and stuff. I'm already shooting for a CS degree, so I have the basics down, but I'm basically asking for help with what should be done outside of classes.

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I despise how there are so many people that care about politics on this website despite politics being the normalfaggiest shit to ever exist

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I've kinda come to accept I'll never be happy in the way most people traditionally are. I did what I could, but if it's out of my control, why worry?

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>>32941217
i'm pretty sure that you'll write programs that help you do other stuff you like. for example, there's a lot of software being developed to help with japanese studying, see yomichan and whatever way of mining words from anime they are using

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>>32941304
But like I said, I have absolutely no creativity. Stuff like yomichan already exists, but I dunno how I would even fork that to be a personal project. I'm the type where you can wind me up and point me in a direction and I'll march along perfectly, but can't do much when I'm left to my own devices.

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>>32941072
>inflation hasn't caught up with us yet
In what world do you live in

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>>32941366
Just try to keep in mind that stuff anytime you need something.
For instance, I'm more of an EE guy, but once I wanted some wallpapers from satellite and observatory photos, so I made a python script just to make some.
Another example: Right now the night light I have is malfunctioning, so I'm planning on making my own dimmable light wih a light sensor.

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>>32941607
Usa dude.

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I actually took a fortran course for fun a year and a half ago.

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I've used the crying lilja picture so much and see it posted so often that my memory got erased and I thought it was actually one of her sprites. I was really confused when I didn't see it in her sprite folder. So I had to recreate it full-size.

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I also fucked with other combinations...

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What the fuck's your problem, janny?

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>>32942191
I wasn't paying attention to which tab I had focused, so I posted them in the wrong thread. How embarrassing.

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>>32942218
Should've left them. I like them.

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>>32926192
>keyed
Fuck off, teen.

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>>32941072
All the money in the world can't purchase happiness or a purpose in life. Even if things are good financially, I think actual human-relationships are at an all-time low. It's easier than ever for people to make connections, there's websites for meet-ups, finding people with similar hobbies... Hell, even casual sex is easy to find. Though because of this it feels like relationships grow increasingly shallow. There's less risk involved in cutting the cord when connections are a dime a dozen so people just blow through friends or relationships, thinking they'll find someone better, rather than try reinforce what they have.

Otherwise, depressed or introverted? Hope you like getting sent off to some spook who's only listening to you complain as part of his job, or prescribes drugs which send you even further into a rabbit hole.

I think most anons would be happier or more motivated if they had a partner, a soul mate who actually cares about them and holds their best interests at heart. Not even in a romantic sense, strictly. Just a partner who genuinely enjoys spending time with you. I always think about this when I see these threads.

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>>32845359
>>32856022
Make one.

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>>32940344
>JS
Don't bother anon, JS is useless even for making websites, only thing JS is used is for cancerous web apps.
I suggest you learn Lua/LuaJIT and then C if you want to get into programming. MAth and chemistry have small to do with programming.
>>32941158
>you can switch to linux and learn bash
That is a good advice but... learn POSIX shell not bash uwu
>>32941217
>the kind that you put in your portfolio and show to potential employers and stuff
This is the worst time ever to get a CS job anon... reconsider.

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>>32942368
I think if child love wasn't such a faux pas it would help many people alot.

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>>32918455
Why would you want to use Direct Connect in 2021? There's a reason people abandoned it nearly two decades ago, including RH.
>>32788645
>fuck why did moot allow politics to be discussed in this hellhole it destroyed this website
Because politics discussion was so rampant that it wouldn't stop if he outright banned it, so he opted for a containment board. As /pol/ got more popular it spread out of its containment board though, and RapeApe didn't give a shit and allowed it to fester on other boards.
>>32845359
>>32856022
If you want an IRC channel, then make one and share it. Channels are free.

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>>32942464
Forgot to add that outright banning politics is nearly impossible to enforce/would be to the detriment of 4chan. Lots of discussions bring up politics, whether becoming obnoxious arguments or not, so lots of discussion would be killed.

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>>32942453
Why is it a bad time for a CS job? What should I get instead?

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>>32942514
CIS is a good and more reliable major. Networking, databases, sysadmin work, etc. Wouldn't recommend programming/CS whatsoever, though.

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>>32942514
>Why is it a bad time for a CS job?
Pajeets everywhere.
Politics everywhere.
Market is oversaturated with people, not saying you shouldn't learn programming cause it is very useful but it is gonna be difficult to make into a job.
>What should I get instead?
Eh not sure sorry, are degrees even useful nowadays?

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>>32942640
>are degrees even useful nowadays
Not sure about there, but here degrees are pretty much a necessity for a well-paying job in IT.

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>>32942453
>This is the worst time ever to get a CS job anon... reconsider.
I'm already 3/4 of the way through my major...

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>>32942640
>are degrees even useful nowadays?
No.
Its a system made to work off years of your life and put you in debt you can't repay.
Anything useful a decade ago is probably useless now since everything is taxed to hell.

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>>32943340
And the funny thing is, everything requires a degree when you're competing with boomers that have anywhere from 7 years up to 15+ in their field.
Its shit.

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>>32943340
Being difficult to sustain does not equate to not being useful.
It's a pain in the ass to find a decent job with no degree required.

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>>32943340
Okay, but how useful is it if you managed to get one for free?

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>>32943340
>>32943356
A degree requirement is just a filter for job applications. You're not paying for the education, you're paying for the piece of paper. All the knowledge? You can easily acquire that on your own on a shoestring budget. Trade schools are the only possible exception.
The only genuine benefit you get out of university is an extended adolescence which provides you more time to discover yourself. That's what I've gotten out of it. The loans and scholarships have allowed me to live easy while going through school, and I'm finally picking myself back up mentally. The degree I'll get at the end of this will just be a few extra words on an application, but I'd say it was worth it. I wouldn't be able to get neetbux, so without the safety net of attending school, I would have offed myself by now.

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Don't know if this is the right place to ask this, but it's the best I have.
Where does the line between "internal monologue" & "hearing voices" begin?
I say this as I've been hearing and discussing with various voices in my head since I've been about 11. I've also begun hearing screaming in my head (sounds like) with only way to quiet them being for me to blast music in my ears (& sometimes that doesn't work)
I've also begun having full body convulsions.
Anybody know what degree of broken my head is?

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>Where does the line between "internal monologue" & "hearing voices" begin?
internal monologue
From deduction, it stops when you hear a voice other than your own. If you're imagining the voices of others, then that's a different story.
It's one thing to debate with yourself, it's another to debate with a second figure in your brain if not for something upcoming. I.E. A debate in class, rehearsal for a play, etc.
Hearing voices is outside of my understanding since I don't know anything about that. Say anything about that in public and you're getting a one way trip to the ward.

>I've also begun having full body convulsions.
>Anybody know what degree of broken my head is?
Sounds pretty fucked. I'd say talk to someone and socialize, but it's probably too late for that for obvious reasons.
Get the convulsions stuff checked. Ask relatives if it happened before with anyone else to narrow down the cause. Alternatively, drink at least a gallon of water a day for about a week. A lack of water can lead to spasms.

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>>32944797
I have only heard an external voice (i.e: out of my control) in my life inside my head, so my guess is that you are not alright.
However, the only sound advice I can give you is to stay strong and stay safe.

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>>32944797
Just realized I forgot to put what the screams sound like, so heres the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVinnWp1Pck&t=20

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>>32935200
Wrong board normalfag

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>>32766071
It even makes you relive the memories of that time.

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>>32944797
What do the voices say? You might be communicating with Gensokyo.

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>>32935200
/biz/ and half the site would laugh at you for saying that.
/jp/ would shit on your floor instead of theirs for once.

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>>32944797
Sounds like schizophrenia anon. Get checked out.

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>>32935200
I think a lot of people idolize NEETdom in their early 20s, but I have to say there are better alternatives. It's just most people aren't lucky enough to get them.

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You can't understand NEETdom. You must feel it.

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>>32935200
So many normalfags here since the mods moved all the holoshitters to /jp/

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>>32946151
I wish, normally their just talking about miscellaneous topics, almost like a friend would (I think, never had many to say for certain), although I've lately had them telling me to kill others or that there's something watching me/can hear my thoughts.
>>32946583
I wish I could, but I know the people who I need to actually make that happen would probably mock me for it & say I'm being overdramatic or faking.

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>>32944797
I don't want to alarm you, but if you notice them progressively getting worse you really need to go see a professional, the human mind is very fragile, if a part of your brain's going out of order you can start acting out things you don't want to but still realize as much with what little of your wits you have left. There's a peculiar story about such incidents that stuck with me over the years. Charles Whitman, the Texas Tower shooter, was an upstanding, noble and honest man for pretty much his entire documented life and by everybody who knew him. Several times, he went to psychologists complaining about unusual and irrational thoughts that he could not dispel from his head, and only seemed to grow worse with time. It was a different time period and a lot of psychological stuff wasn't very well documented, so it largely got brushed off.

After his rampage, which seemed to have come out of nowhere, his various notes were discovered, which he had written before he killed his wife, and mother, and many more. About how distraught he was that he was actually carrying these acts out against people he dearly loved. His last request was that his life insurance money go towards mental health research to try and stop such a thing from happening to someone again. After his death, when he was autopsied, it was discovered he had a large tumor pressing against his amygdala which is theorized to have been what was causing his progressing madness.
It's a very tragic story and worth a read, much more well-documented that what I could mention:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Whitman#Events_leading_to_the_shooting

Moral is get yourself checked out by a professional. If you need family to take you or something you don't have to tell them everything if you're worried they'll gossip, just say you want to speak privately when you get there to the psychologist. Psychologists specialize in that sort of stuff and I guarantee you won't be mocked for what is a completely legitimate concern. I doubt the words of a random anon mean much, but do take it to heart. It's not worth suffering over if there's potential treatment.

[Anonymous No.]

What do y'all think of the new mod of ADTRW

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>>32949960
There's a front page?

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>>32941013
Not him but Hydrus is a fucking huge pain in the ass to set up, eats a ton of memory, CPU and hard drive space since it makes a copy of everything in it's own database.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32950590
I regret not immediately saving a copy of that embarrassing furry article. Not even the wayback machine got to it in time.

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>>32951321
I have a similar project going on actually, planning to make it more minimal cause am /g/tard minimalist, it will be tag based.
Anyway I'll post it when I have a prototype.
(I really have to fix my 2hu pics too...)

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>>32951791
>I have a similar project going on actually, planning to make it more minimal cause am /g/tard minimalist, it will be tag based.
That sounds really good, does it makes a copy of every file like Hydrus or does it use a different method?

>(I really have to fix my 2hu pics too...)
Same, it's a chore to do everything manually and a decent automated program would save me countless hours....

[Anonymous No.]

>>32949960
Haven't used ADTRW in years. It's an obnoxious place now.

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>>32915349
Add me:
killyourselfoutof/jp/discordfaggot

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>>32946651
Yeah? It’s just weird to me. I’ve never thought of work as something depressing or something to dread. I’m just kinda neutral on it. And it’s fun having money.

Though I wasn’t aware this board has something people with otherwise normal lives. I thought this was a board for Japanese media, not for r9k rejects.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32952699
>something people
Something against people, forgive my retarded ass

[Anonymous No.]

>>32952699
>I wasn’t aware this board has something people with otherwise normal lives
We don't, it's just obnoxious new people that come here from other boards seeing other obnoxious new people acting like this is some antisocial NEET haven and rolling with it, trying to fit in. Ignore them and just talk about otaku stuff.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32952735
Forgot to add, you probably shouldn't shit on how other people live, though. If you don't understand NEETdom, nobody really gives a shit. Keep it to yourself.

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>>32952810
Yeah, I kinda worded my og post poorly. I wasn’t trying to act like I’m superior, just that neets i encounter never seem to be very happy despite living their “dream” lifestyle. Sorry about that.

[Anonymous No.]

Being a depressed NEET is better than being a depressed wageslave.
t. depressed wageslave

[Anonymous No.]

>>32953259
I disagree completely, I did a gap between high school & college where I wasn’t working and that was the closest I ever came to actually, genuinely going insane.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32953399
You just need some kind of structure. And if you don't have some wageboss you're serving, it's up to you to create your own.

[Anonymous No.]

>>32765984
Last year I told myself I'd set up anki mining and start reading daily before December, and here I am having done none of that.
I've never really sorted my images, thankfully the danbooru default names sort of work for finding images in a reasonable amount of time.

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>>32912866
I'm in two servers with <100 people and they're both comfortable. Most discord servers are garbage filled with normalfags or worse, but there are some good niche ones.
It's usual "90% of everything is shit."

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>>32912866
I'm in two servers with <100 people and they're both comfortable. Most discord servers are garbage filled with normalfags or worse, but there are some good niche ones.
It's the usual "90% of everything is shit."

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>>32951321
it's not perfect, but since it copies everything you can just delete original files. i'm pretty sure that this resource usage is from tagging itself, it says on their help page that tags are cpu intensive metadata, and you can run it without a gui to save on memory. it's not perfect, but so far, what are the other options?

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Taking active steps to mitigate my crippling inferiority complex, hoping that it'll help me in the long run. I've also decided not to drop drawing, since it potentially has a lot more uses than a bunch of completed games. Not everything's lost, /jp/.

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>>32957478
Godspeed, anon, I'm genuinely happy for you

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>>32957478
Do your best, anon.

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>>32829983
>overweight
how can you let yourself be overweight
you give otakus a bad rep

get /fit/

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>>32768625
>basically brandishing weapons online
did you feel cool making this post?

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>>32958316
Maybe he just likes guns. What's wrong with showing a gun online? It's equivalent to somebody who likes fumos showing a fumo online.

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>>32958316
Did you feel cool making yours? It's a feels thread.

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>>32958316
>>>/k/

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>>32887538
>I feel like fucking コロナ will never end. I want to go back to Japan and pig out at an izakaya
Bit of a different case but I'm in relatively the same boat as you. Finally saved up enough money to travel basically anywhere I want for at least a month, and damn if half-the-world doesn't close off international travel just afterwards. Hard to believe it's been like this for a year and it feels like there's still no end in sight for when things will go back to normal. I just want to travel.

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>>32958367
it's just lame and seems to be at least spiritually incongruent with responsible gun ownership if not directly incongruent. i respect marksmanship but blind glamorization of weapons is cringe.

>>32958392
fair enough. just sharing my opinion.

>>32958431
yeah, there's a containment board and it's leaking.

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>>32958625
>i respect marksmanship but blind glamorization of weapons is cringe
Come on, anon, it's a gun next to a Suika, that's probably not how you "glamorize weapons". Better yet, share some feels since you're here, it still is a feels thread.

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>>32958625
>what are military otaku

guns are just cool

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>>32947272
>I don't want to alarm you, but if you notice them progressively getting worse you really need to go see a professional.
I'd like to l, but I seem to be unable to ask for anything, shit like psychology especially.
The thing I hate is that every convulsion is never seen by anyone else which makes it easy for them to dismiss it.
>Charles Whitman, the Texas Tower shooter, was an upstanding, noble and honest man for pretty much his entire documented life and by everybody who knew him.
The fact that only now it's gotten this bad is also easy to dismiss as I used to be perfectly fine, but I've lately gotten worse starting last year. They'll just brush it off as being melodramatic and/or lazy.
The screams and convulsions are annoying to deal with, to the point I legitimately felt like chopping the damn things off (I won't, od course.) I used to take a knockoff ZZQuil when this would happen, but I ran out. I'd have the average minium wage should I had a dollar for each time I was "told" to run into a certain building and splatter brain matter on the walls.

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>>32940399
EXACTLY! every time I quit any addiction, and I had many substance abuses last 6 years, I just get bored and eventually relapse or look for something new to get hooked on

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>>32960647
>The thing I hate is that every convulsion is never seen by anyone else which makes it easy for them to dismiss it.
Which is all the more reason to seek professional help, it's probably not something you tell your friends about, but you were able to confide in us anons and we didn't dismiss you, isn't that a start? Don't assume you'll be dismissed, at least try.
Please take care of yourself, you ignoring it further might make it worse, but since you told us about this you're acknowledging it's a problem. The therapy will be a journey probably as hard as the one where you ignore your condition and things shift to the worst. Whatever road you take I wish you luck and happiness in the future. Stay strong, anon.

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>>32962000
Going to a shrink just has your rights permanently stripped from you for "mental health" on top of getting no actual help from the illiterate 3rd world assassin that somehow got MD put at the end of their name by mistake

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>>32765984
I'm tired. All I do is work and if I'm not doing that i'm trying to get caught up on chores. There were hobbies I wanted to get into but I have no energy to do them

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>>32962258
I wouldn't go with a psychriatist even if you paid me, but anon really seems to have a serious problem. Not going is detrimental to his well being more so than any other reason he should not go, independently of the position you take on the issue.

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I wonder if a good intentional not frivolous beating and being put to work when some anons were younger would have solved some not all anons problems...

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>>32962462
please hit me mommy Yuuka

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>>32765984
Could be doing better honestly. I lost my job due to the coof, and have barely done anything to improve my situation or even to entertain myself.

I am in college so I'm not completely directionless, but man, it's still really hard for me to adapt to the online classes. It's just so easy to distract yourself, it's almost impossible not to do it. I flunked one of my classes last year as a result. It also doesn't help that the social aspect has been completely thrown out of the window.

I'm lonely living in an apartment that fortunately my parents are providing me. I haven't gone out in a while other than for groceries. I've also developed a porn addiction which prevents me from spending time in my hobbies. Help /jp/.

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>>32768421
How far into otaku before that becomes true?
Asking for a friend.
I'm either in the progress or already past the point of no return.

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>>32963487
Shit image.

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>>32768625
Based gunposter I hope you put that gun to good use anon.

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>>32962462
Some parenting beyond dispensing food and clothing and occasional verbal abuse would've been nice, I'd wager.

>>32963487
It seems like it's about discipline in your case, which is hard to help with, especially remotely. I'll share my experience with porn, but I won't recommend my method: I'm on a "diet" for the last 4 years, which means 2 normal-sized meals a day, no sweet drinks, junk food or fast food. (Don't have anything against some chocolate and coffee, though.) Also, I'm working full-time, on-site, no "remote" working. So, basically, my calorie intake is reduced to the point when I can physically only manage a wank a week.

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Also, don't noscript posts bump threads? Very nice feature, mr. hiroshima.

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I have nice job but I'm not interested in career. I want to save up like $200k in stocks so I can retire and just enjoy my neet life again.

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I have 0 friends and I'm happy. But having friends can be very handy but it's so tiresome. Also trying to find friends just because is weird. I can find gf more easily than friends, I have no idea how to treat friends.

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>>32962462
No, the result would have been the same.

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>>32967426
I have 1.3 million and I can't retire yet.

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>>32973335
rip.
I thought that was the case, but it's probably going to be worse going forward.

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>>32978912
? No, its because some of us started out with more and grew up and parents moved out and some insisted we keep up the ranch, the condos, the workers, the company while parents live a comfy life in Florida. I can't give up my homestead, but I need more than a couple hundred thousand to keep it running till I die. What life is it living in a glorified cubicle in some dirty city and only needing a couple hundred thousand to keep you alive until your death.

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>>32765984
well thats nice and all but when you haven't sorted anything in +10 years it starting to be quite mess 2hu related stuff with everything else, only folders named after day that it was made to go through. Been NEET far too long and still just wondering what i should do with my life or what is the thing that i find worthy to do, money is not really reason to work for me since i find time to be far more precious.

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I'm thinking of reading Kafka.
I never knew about his background and personal self before, it's quite relatable. Makes the supposed talk of isolation and alienation feel more genuine.
But I cringe when saying a smart man is relatable. He wrote in his diary about feeling that everyone hated him and found him repulsive, but people who knew him were fond of him. People have outright told me I'm dumb and ugly.

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I'm thinking of reading Kafka.
I never knew about his background and personal self before, it's quite relatable. Makes the supposed talk of isolation and alienation feel more genuine.
But I cringe when saying a smart man is relatable. He wrote in his diary about feeling that everyone hated him and found him repulsive, but people who knew him were fond of him. People have outright told me I'm dumb and ugly.

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>>32919487
I'm tired of the cynicism and politics of the other boards here.

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>>32957478
>I've also decided not to drop drawing, since it potentially has a lot more uses than a bunch of completed games.
I've become so trash that I haven't finished games in years. I want to finish them AND draw.

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>>32957478
>>32979279
Your situations sounds far too familar to me, atleast i have completed some games but gotta aim higher though and you should too my friends.

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>>32935014
Humans find every way they can to limit the necessary amount of work needed.
It's why we made agriculture and farms instead of trying to hunt down meat whenever we got hungry.
Eliminating unnecessary work is the goal for all humans, and hardest workers in the world are people who die as slaves or had very little choices in their life. In their religions, they want afterlives where toiling doesn't exist.

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>>32979346
Convenience guides everything. Perfect example is the mass switch to social media and platforms like Discord. Rather than using better alternatives, people just go towards whatever is most convenient for them and takes the smallest amount of effort to use.

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>>32935014
working is not exactly only way to make things better for yourself and you most likely make more money to those you work for than yourself, time is far more precisous commodity anyway. Or atleast payments for work are not in line with that time that it takes to do that work.

>>32979355
Not exactly everything, gains are also another thing, People will do almost anything for monetary gain but sadly there is almost always someone who does it dirt cheap so we all are forced to waste or time for mere cents, atleast honest work that is.

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>>32979458
Doesn't monetary gain lead to convenience as well? The more money you have, typically the more convenient your life is (assuming you're not a billionaire or some shit).

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>>32979479
well i guess yes, but again how it currently is people are mostly really underpaid for the time they put in their work, so it is not really convenience and more like wageslaving.

also people take everything our current media spats out as convenient truth rather than try to question it which is also one thing that is not really trully convinient and with all this discord and social media bullshit, they just take people information and might sell it or otherwise take advantage of it but people dont care since its convinient until they start to see that they might start to get shit from that deal, deal beign "my information for chatting platform".

Also having drinks so dont mind my shitty writing, but its not exactly convenience guides everything, there is more to it.

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>>32951321
>Not him but Hydrus is a fucking huge pain in the ass to set up
No? The fuck? And why would you need a copy? Just import everything and delete the originals.

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>>32979574
I think I understand what you mean, hope your drinks are good.
It won't be convenient in the long-run, yes, but immediately it's convenient to just do whatever is easiest and leave the future to your future self. Instant gratification is rampant in today's society.

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>>32979609
well yeah cant blame people to want convinient services, but still i hope people one day stop beign too blue eyed. Also drinks are good and hopefully you have also nice day anon.

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>>32939304
>I’m gonna be 20 soon
It’s so damn painful hearing this doom-y talk from a literal child. Look, I’m not saying you can’t complain about your problems, but you can’t allow yourself to believe you’re ALONE in your problems. In fact you’re so incredibly normal, but you’ve allowed this pessimistic worldview to convince you that you’ve fucked up your life up until now. I’ve been where you are, as have millions of other people, and guess what? Shit unironically, genuinely gets better, as long as you don’t stop trying. You’ve had a shitty youth? That’s pretty much the normal experience. Just keep fucking going, like everyone else does. Life’s not always gonna be like when you were a depressed ass kid, it’s so shortsighted to think that it will.

And I’m not gonna tell you to leave this board, but surrounding yourself with severely anti-social NEETs who’ve given up on life is probably the worst thing a kid like you could do. I understand your lack of friends makes you wanna seek out people you can relate to, but a lot of the ones here are just poison. There’s tons of completely normal people out there who share your exact same experiences but are keeping a healthy, lightly optimistic mindset, and are working towards a better future.

Look forward to things. The future should be a source of hope for a kid, not a source of dread. Just remember that you’re doing fine & you’re gonna okay. Pessimism is the enemy.

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>>32980053
Not the same anon, but one that can heavily relate.
I was never oblivious to the fact that my problems aren't unique, quite the opposite, in fact, but I never got a proverbial hit across the face I needed to get my shit straight.
Thanks.

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>>32980193
I think the worst part about not having any buds, is that you’ve got no one to call you retard when you need it. I’m glad my message was able to get through. They’re my genuine feelings, but I was afraid they’d come across as shallow or cliche. Basically, you’re not always gonna be able to see that light at the end of tunnel, but as long as you just keep MOVING, you’ll find yourself in a better place. There will come a day where you’ll be able to look back on your depressed self & just laugh your fucking ass off. I promise.

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>>32980053
not that anon but pessimism is not necessarily enemy, its fine as long as it is in mild doses and its fine as long as its not only thought that there is. its good to know you limits. And also like you said in sense, challenge those limits. I personally been long in witch's circle that i just cant start achieving anything and i just keep going in circles. i can really relate things you said but thing that i need is just to know what i want to do or what i find worth it to do, which i just cant evaluate and come up with.

>>32980323
and i guess my problem is that i am not moving and just staying in place. also the drinking anon so dont take my writings too harshly.

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>>32765984
definitely been doing better than i have in previous years, but i'm really tired of feeling like my only progress in life is on a intrapersonal level. i used to love school and learning everything i could read, but adhd has made school/college a nightmare for almost a decade straight now and i'm just burnt out on the entire system. would love to just drop out and work a boring IT job and live a quiet life on my own but that'll take me another two or 3 years at minimum. if anyone has tips for making long term goals seem not so far away i'd love to hear them.

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>>32980600
>if anyone has tips for making long term goals seem not so far away i'd love to hear them.
It'll sound like I'm a prick, but keep going towards them.
That's really the only way. You just have to tough it out.

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>>32980053
Too saccharine. Things never get better as a rule, you just learn to deal with them.

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>>32980629
don't worry about sounding like a prick i didn't take it that way. been hearing that same advice for years now and trying my best to just stick through it all, but some days it feels like my whole life is just waiting for things to eventually get better.

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>>32980665
Idk man, for me life’s so much better than how it was in my teens & early twenties. That’s just a time where you’re supposed to suffer & be depressed. But the rest of life? Man, it really does get better. I think it’s immature, retarded (maybe naive?) to believe life’s always gonna be how it is for you currently. If shit sucks for you now, I genuinely hope you’ll be pleasantly surprised by how life can switch up on you outta nowhere, at any point in your life.

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>>32980323
>no one to call you retard
It's unfortunate that it's only possible to find such people on the internet. Believe me, I tried making friends with a lot people and had a lot of success, yet all of them either turn out to be uninteresting or it is not really possible to regularly talk to them.
>They’re my genuine feelings, but I was afraid they’d come across as shallow or cliche
That's probably what every single person who sincerely posted their feelings in this thread feels like, I would assume nothing but genuineness.
>you’ll be able to look back on your depressed self
I really wouldn't call this depression, since self-diagnosis is never reliable - it's certainly a weird feeling, though. Life doesn't let me moderately relax and the more I think about the future, the less I feel like it ever truly will.
There's only one way to find out if that's true, though, and I'll just keep going no matter how much of a loner I am.
Thanks again for the sincere reply.

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>>Tohnochan

To die.

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>>32803310
Congrats!

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>>32885938
b-based

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>>32927745
heat hives?

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>>32981794
Hell me, the kid wasnt3ebmven in middle schhool.

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>>32981953
Not a to bros pladakan, but without nick a ramos frgjostbus3rs because n9t. Windiws NT not relevants witb 11 yos lol WHO WHOAH AHAHAHA! AM U CORRECT?

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How many friends you have?

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I completely lost my ability to talk to people when /jp/ died at the end of the year and just left, and now I don't know how to start again.

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>>32985312
None, and I haven't had any since I dropped out of high school 11 years ago.

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>>32978995
You're the hope of the west countryside anon, don't surrender.
>>32979102
>money is not really reason to work for me since i find time to be far more precious
I came to the same conclusion with time...

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>>32912769
Do you practice femdom with your gf?

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>>32985312
I only have one friend left over IRL friend from high school, though we only talk or hang out two or three times a year. However I have traveled to meet a good friend I made online over a decade ago a couple times, not sure if he counts as an IRL friend or not.