/jp/ - Otaku Culture

[Anonymous No.]

Do you ever feel like your love for Touhou is diminishing as the years ago by?

Are you losing the passion that you used to have?

[Anonymous No.]

No

[Anonymous No.]

I don't like touhou

[Anonymous No.]

I don't know that feel
Touhou is love
Touhou is life

[Anonymous No.]

Nope! Still love it.

[Anonymous No.]

I swore before the the old gods and the new that I would love Patchouli Knowledge until my dying breath and I will not betray that oath.

The otaku gather, and now my watch begins. It shall not end until my death.
I am the sword of the otaku.
I am the watcher on the walls.
I am the shield that guards the realm of Gensokyo.
I pledge my life and honor to Patchouli, for this night and all the nights to come.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830337
If anything, my love of Yukarin has only grown.

[Anonymous No.]

I don't know the meaning of passion.

[Anonymous No.]

I love touhou when I'm ＳＰＥＥＤＩＮＧ　ＦＡＳＴ　ＯＮ　ＯＴＡＫＵ　ＰＩＬＬＳ but I'm indifferent towards touhou as well as everything else when they wear off.

[Anonymous No.]

My love for [touhou] has always been the same as it has always been

spotty and hindered by substance abuse

I tried to do a thing today and I got sidetracked by alcoholism
what do?
suicide seems like a waste

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830457

>My love for [touhou] has always been the same as it has always been
>spotty and hindered by substance abuse

The greatest love stories are often filled with similar circumstances.

An intense love often burns too brightly for some people to handle and they have to calm themselves down with the drink.

[Anonymous No.]

i started to like touhou less once lamers started to like it more

[proREMIRIAt Elite Force Comman(...) !rSDMROXTB. No.]

My love gets stronger with each passing day.
May I one day muster up the courage necessary to open the portal and serve my Mistress.

[Anonymous No.]

Go back and try playing TH6, it'll rip your rose-colored glasses right off. Graphics are eye-rapingly horrible and the mechanics are mind-numbing.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830473
I don't know. This isn't a case of candles burning brightly. It's more a case of candles that are barely burning at all and giving off more smoke than light.
Sometimes I like to dream of what I could have accomplished for my favourite interests and the broader community if I had stayed away from the liquor and downloaded anki or learned how to draw. I have a lot of ideas, cute ideas, cute things that I would like to give away to /jp/ for everyone's enjoyment. I want to create something better than myself, nurture my love for my favourite little magical girl.

Instead, I'm eating cold pizza in a bathroom stall while suffering from serious whiskey shits.

[Anonymous No.]

My erection will not diminish.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830526
I had one long stint where I was dry for a while. That was the only time when I came close to actually achieving my dream of making some OC.

I have the first ten pages of a flipbook of my favourite 2hu done. I was going to scan the pages when it was done and upload the .gif to /jp/. But ever since I was laid off I've felt aimless and I've been drinking on and off again. I always feel like my body is made of heavy lead.

And I ripped up my flipbook and nascent chapbook to boot in a drunken fit. I regret that. But I can't stop drinking. It's my only friend. It helps me stop thinking. I've even sold a whole bunch of D&D manuals that I found for drinking money. I'm at the point where the only other scratch I can get for my drinking is the copper piping in my apartment. I feel like I'm a disgrace to her. She probably thinks I'm disgusting.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830552
I'm scared

[Anonymous No.]

Why does /jp/ seem to have a tendency to become alcoholics?

Why not use happy pills to make you happy, energized, and full of life? If you live in the US then it would be easier and healthier to get a prescription for happy pills like adderall or dexedrine than it would be to drink all the time.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830583
alkyhol is cheap (for here) and relatively easy to get, since it is sold by people who are just as depressed as you (I avoid the stores where the clerks are chipper unless there are really good deals). You generally have to jump through a lot more hoops for prescription drugs here since they are a popular candidate for recreational use and illegal drugs require you to make friends and be social which I cannot do. I'm too afraid to use silk road.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830583
I drink because I like it, not to be happy, energized and full of life.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830594

I wish there was a way that I could legally share with all of you. My doctor is a bit too free with the medicine and prescribes me far too much for me to handle and I always have to break the pills in half, so I have a stockpile of extra pills that grows bigger and bigger each month.

Seeing depression on /jp/ makes me feel sad, especially when it's so easy to fix it with these and I have enough to help everyone. If it was as simple as just slipping them into a little envelope and mailing them then I'd do it in an instant, but I'm worried that I would be arrested for drug smuggling.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830583
I take amphetamines but I still feel the need to drink sometimes. Usually as a pain killer or something to take the edge.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830614
Don't stick your neck out for me man. I'd probably wind up abusing those pills or using them to finally do myself in.

I suppose no one would mind anyway, no? Kyouko Kasodani doesn't exist and I'd just be another dead drug addict at the end of the day.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830621

Have you tried calcium channel blockers? I spent a couple years trying to figure out a way to counter that feeling of overstimulation, especially the increased heart rate. I tried alcohol, but I didn't like how foggy it made me feel. I tried valium as well, but that didn't really work either since it would pretty much cancel out the effects of the pills.

Calcium channel blockers, a pretty common and easy to get blood pressure medication, is what ended up being the perfect fix though. I'm happy, focused, and productive, but still nice and calm. I never feel jittery anymore and my heart rate stays steady at 80BPM, rather than 105BPM like it used to be.

[Anonymous No.]

i've lost that loving feeling

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830628
The problem isn't really my heartrate. In fact, my blood pressure is a lot lower than it was when I first started taking it 6 years ago. I can't even feel my pulse anymore. It's also kind of a double edged sword for me, because I need vyvanse to function. Without it, I wouldn't do anything ever because I have no energy and I am constantly depressed. But I also have my chronic pain and anxiety issues which worsen with the use of it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830635
I take vyvanse for school. It's better than adderall as it causes less anxiety for me.

I'd like to say that pot is pretty great and definitely helps you take it easy. It's also good if you are depressed and don't find fun in your old otaku hobbies anymore. It really helped me get back on track and find the fun again in life. And Touhou or VN/Eroge while buzzed is amazing.
Only problem is that it's hard to get and you need to be social. I have no problem being social if I have an ulterior motive behind it, but I can see why it would be hard for most of those on /jp/. I hope it becomes legalized in more states so /jp/ers can more easily obtain it and take it easy.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830648
I don't have a huge problem socializing. I just wouldn't know where to find it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830629

>I'd probably wind up abusing those pills or using them to finally do myself in.

They might turn your life around and make you feel happy though. There might still be some legal alternatives that you could have access to. I know there's some herbal stimulants that are legal everywhere as far as I know, but I don't know how effective they are.

I know that stimulants turned my life around though, so it at least might be worth a try. I used to be incredibly depressed, unable to gather the motivation to even attempt to do anything, and I would sleep so much that I would often skip entire days. One day I saw something on the internet that convinced me to try to get a prescription for stimulants though and it was like I was waking up for the first time from this hazy dream of depression that I had spent my life in. I learned so much in these last six years. I blew the dust off my saxophone that I put in storage years ago and just played away on it for hours every day until I had mastered every song that I always dreamed about learning how to play. I moved onto Japanese after that and started chomping through my language studies at a rate of nearly 11 hours of practice a day. After a few years of study, I started doing freelance online translation work on sites like Gengo and that's how I'm able to make my living today from the comfort of my bedroom.

It's not an exaggeration to say that I would probably be dead right now if it wasn't for stimulants. They're the best thing that ever happened to me and I don't think that there is anything in this world that I love more than these little pills. They're my best friends and I wish that I could share them with everyone on /jp/ so that all of you could experience this.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830648
I have severe social anxiety issues and weed makes them worse. I start thinking that the car behind me is a cop car, the person who sold me fries is going to phone me in for possession or public intoxication, and that sort of thing.

Really, I wish I could just be happy and not have my body constantly try to sell my brain on the idea that the next Colt 45 will be different this time, really. If I go far away and drink it early in the morning, and I bring all of my creator's tools, that malt liquor will be just the thing to get my gears turning. I'll be cranking out excellent OC in no time.

And then I usually end up vomiting in public, or accidentally knocking a paper towel dispenser off a wall, or wandering into a slum and having pointless conversations with black men my age who might or might not be gang members.

Though I actually don't mind talking to them. They know me as a local bum (since I've been homeless before) and if I've picked up enough change we split a half dozen of natty light and pump quarters into an old Mortal Kombat arcade machine. They always beat me though, but I don't really mind.

That was years ago though. Stop and Frisk has chased everyone off the streets. Only mean people left. NYPD is not kawaii

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>>11830337
Hahaha- NO. And never.
Also, monthly reminder that Yorihime is my favourite Touhou.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830670
The whole idea of pills scares me given that I've had bad experiences with legitimate medications before. Every one I've taken has made me want to kill myself

Cold turkey has worked for me before with the booze. I'm trying right now. But it isn't working. The whole shock of being fired kinda hurt. It was only 18 hours a week but I got to rent out someone's closet to sleep in.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830681
Do you not get hangovers no matter how much you drink? I kind of became an alcoholic for like a year and binge drank literally almost every day, and at some point I started getting major hangovers that ruined the next day. I usually make sure I keep myself hydrated and only drink vodka which is the last thing to make you hung over.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830688
I've kind of gotten used to them, I just grab tylenol for the headaches and drink lots and lots of water once I'm starting to come down. It's still painful but, eh, my body still wants to feel numb for a few hours

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830687

>given that I've had bad experiences with legitimate medications before. Every one I've taken has made me want to kill myself

Were they antidepressants like SSRIs? Those drugs are awful stuff. I tried them and felt terrible.

Personally, if a drug doesn't have abuse potential then I don't trust it. If something works then people will like it and if they like it then a lot of people will abuse it, but nobody abuses antidepressants. They just take them and walk around like zombies.

Doctors made a terrible mistake when they stopped prescribing amphetamines for depression and replaced them with those half placebo/half suicide pills that they throw out today.

[Anonymous No.]

I'd like to know what kind of tortures Byakuren inflicted to Kyouko when she learnt about the yamabiko's punk tendencies.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830691
>once I'm starting to come down
I literally cant stop drinking until I pass out, so I rarely experience the come down and instead wake up feeling like shit. It's become that bad of a habit when I do drink.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830696
Raw futa sex.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830694
I took Haldol when I was a teen
Made me sleepy and life was like moving through jelly. But at least I wasn't assaulting people anymore wwww

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830708
And Murasa participated.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830708
I'd like to see that.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830711
Pic please. I need it for... science.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830701
Yeah during the worst of my worst stretch of drinking back in the good old days of the GREAT RECESSION I'd drink one. It would get me high almost and I'd just have to drink drink drink. At one point I was just handing over the cash I had in my pocket so I could pre-pay a tab
My AA literature says that that's textbook alcoholism but AA creeped me the hell out and one old hag tried to have sex on me

>>11830696
PUNK'S NOT DEAD

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830708
That doujinshi where futa (I think) Kyouko ravages some faceless male's bottom because she learned from futa (I think) Byakuren how to ravage sissy male bottoms was the best

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830724
Source?

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830724
Link?

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>>11830716
I don't usually drink because i'm depressed and avoided doing that. I drink so I can continue working on things for the day because my vyvanse is still active and I need something to nullify my chronic pain or else it hurts so bad that I can't do anything. I found getting drunk while depressed made matters even worse. It's adding a depressant onto someone already depressed.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830732
>>11830734
I don't know. I'm coming down from six hours of drinking in a public library on Fifth Avenue. I think they're going to kick everyone out in a couple of hours. I'd rather not be caught by some nosy librarian looking at porn on his shitty Lenovo when he should be job hunting.

[Anonymous No.]

Has anyone elses psychiatrist told them drinking so much for a long time will gradually fuck you up mentally and make prescription medication much less effective? My doctor told me that I should never drink again, not even on occasion if I want my issues to improve with use of medication.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830735
I enjoy the numbness and I can pick it up anywhere where fiscally responsible immigrants sell cheap consumer goods

[None !u.ddykRmDU No.]

>>11830745
I don't drink, but reading those posts makes me happy I never tried alcohol.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830750
Well I'm afraid he's overexaggerating things. Because my last psychiatrist never encouraged me to completely stopped drinking, nor did any other medical doctors I had to see for my chronic pain.

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>>11830753
Shit you double faggot, don't be so depressed.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830749
Also there's the hope that someday I'll just not wake up and that'll be that and maybe just maybe I'll reincarnate in a better body.
But that actually kind of scares me because I'm skeptical of that shit.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830687


lithium has a good track record (one early researcher even tried to get it classified as an essential nutrient due to its range of positive effects), but its not really prescribed because its generic, and hence not copyrighted, and hence not profitable.

you can also look into nootropic substances, there are active communities built up around them like with steroids, with lots of information on use, stacks and the pharmacodynamics.

[None !u.ddykRmDU No.]

>>11830757
But are you drinking just a bit, on weekly basis, or do you get, um, "shit-faced" and "wasted"?

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830763
>um
You're so cute

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830750
It was like suicide but I could decide to unkill myself. Whe I drank I just existed I was living but I didn't live and didn't feel. But it ain't permanent. Lately when I drink I feel like I'm going to die though.

I really wanna snuggle Kyouko or even just a fluffy yamabiko. Something fluffy and buddhist

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830763
I have to drink a LOT to get drunk, since I drank every day for awhile. Like 1/4 a 1.75 liter bottle of vodka now. So usually, yeah I get shit faced, and the only way to avoid the shitty come down is to keep drinking.

[Anonymous No.]

holy shit you nerds are losers
lmaooooooooo

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830758
>Shit you double faggot
What does this mean

>>11830763
What do you think

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830770
pls no bully kudasai

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>>11830765
Get a dog.

>>11830768
English isn't my first language. Introducing, um, hesitation is the best way I found to suggest that my mastery of the English language isn't 100% achieved.

>>11830769
One of these days, I'll have to get drunk, and see how much alcohol I needed for that. Well, more like "will need". Or "will needed". But I'm not sure the latter is correct.

>>11830771
This is like a faggot. Except that it's 100% more faggotry than a normal faggot.

[Anonymous No.]

Thank you for posting cute Kyouko. She makes me happy.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830337
I Hate everything after Byakuren save for the tanuki and the zombie.


THe music isn't even addictive anymore, it's not even Castlevania mix like it used to be.


We've reached the point of decline, nothing will conform and fit to follow criteria.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830777


im gona bully you and youre gona like it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830770

They're just misunderstood delinquents.

They're wandering ronin. Lone warriors walking through this dark world alone. They feel a lot of pain, but that's what happens when you're a samurai.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830778
see
>>11830777

>>11830782
your welcome

[Anonymous No.]

Shit, I want to drink now but I barely have any vodka left.

[None !u.ddykRmDU No.]

>>11830792
Want some cute Kyouko? Have this.

[Anonymous No.]

It's hard to feel anything diminish when you follow a series that has been going strong for years and years.

And to the drinking anons in the thread, stay strong, time does heal all wounds.

[Anonymous No.]

I wish I could drink with a fellow /jp/sie

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830797
Drink cock normie.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830791
Being a delinquent these days isn't really all that cracked up to be. I've never had the chance to have a fight on the riverbank at dusk to defend my honour

what is the best non-ironic non-camp portrayal of Sengoku/Tokugawa tribulations of ronin
serious question

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>>11830803
Kagebushi. Unless I mistake the Tokugawa for another clan, and ronins for samurais. But I'm fairly certain I'm not wrong.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830800
Stop being a moron. Everyone here drinks because they need to self medicate, not to socialize.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830809
>everyone here drinks
LOL

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830798
>stay strong, time does heal all wounds.
This is literally the only thing that is keeping me going at this point. Maybe everyone I wronged or stole from will forget and I can just flee NYC and move to some city in the midwest that will hire former junkies to pick tomatoes or dig ditches or whatever. I can be alone and spend my time meditating under trees or practicing the art of tea or learning Japanese

[None !u.ddykRmDU No.]

>>11830809
>Everyone here drinks
I feel insulted by that statement as I drink my tea while caressing my manly moustache.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830813
>>11830816
I think he means "everyone here who drinks alcohol drinks to self medicate"

>>11830810
You may have shit taste in 2hus but I thank you for your honest answer

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830813
>>11830816
I mean everyone who DOES drink.

[Anonymous No.]

Is this the blog thread?

I will always love Touhou, because I probably won't live long enough to get to the point where I dislike it.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830813

I think 90% of /jp/ is either on prescription drugs or drinking.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830815
Go ahead, make something of yourself.
You've got your willingness to change, and your pride, you're already well on your way.

Good luck, anonymous.

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>>11830818
Sorry, I know a couple of movies about ronins (like Yojimbo), but a ronin movie about Tokugawa? Sorry, that's beyond my knowledge.

Also,
>shit taste in 2hus
ಠ_ಠ

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830824
It's the kyouko/streetNEET thread
Please discuss your life living on the margins of society and/or best buddhist

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830828
The only thing I'm afraid of is my family
I stick around to help them out since they're in their 70s at this point. I also have a half-sister who is autistic and cannot take care of herself. I know that if I leave and they are forced to fend for themselves they will suffer. But it's kind of not nice to pray that your family will pass on early so that you can finally have no responsibilities and can leave your home city
I suppose disappearing for days at a time isn't going to help them either...
If I had money I could afford a councillor or shrink better than /jp/

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830843
I would suggest killing them yourself, but it's illegal. And morally not very nice, so don't actually do that.
In fact, forget you just read that post.

[Anonymous No.]

is milk supposed to be drunk? if so what kind do you drink? whats your thoughts on milk? sum1 else said adults shudnt drink it

i found my pokemon cards yesterday. i got this nintindo ds thats my nighttime game. i play before sleep maby. i play mokemon red on there

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830843
forgot kyouko, battery is going to die soon and I'm going to get kicked out of the library anyway in less than two hours

I've heard that there's high wage jobs in places where they do that fracking or whatever for people who don't have too many skills but are willing to work long shifts. I wish I could leave and send money back home to pay for an in-home care worker

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830850
I want to fuck Kyouko. In the ass. Violently. Several times. In front of witnesses.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830846
I am not okay with this post so I will overlook you not being okay

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830851
I'll be a witness.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830851
I am not okay with this post as well, pls go and sty go

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830337

I stopped caring about Touhou when the newest game came out and I never managed to make it work on my WinXP machine.

Even before that it was in a downward spiral because the new games just kind of blurred together and I never felt like I had reason to be excited about them. I think the main TH series peaked with Imperishable Night: it's the perfect Touhou game in both gameplay and story and it is impossible to improve significantly on it in any way. Games after IN that I've been most interested in have been the ones that didn't follow the mold and instead tried to do something new (Shoot the Bullet, the fighting games, Megamari). Even out of those some failed - I couldn't give a shit about Cirno's game no matter how hard I tried.

Touhou had a good run, but unless something unexpected happens, I doubt I will get anywhere near as excited about it ever again. I won't replace it with KanColle though, fuck that shit that's stupid.

[Anonymous No.]

I still deeply loves Touhou.
But I'm mostly a loner now. I can't stand most other fans.

[Anonymous No.]

I know that /jp/sies have probably killed themselves, but does anyone think that /jp/ has saved people by providing them with a receptive forum for their therapeutic shitposting

this thread and Kyouko Kasodani has made me feel somewhat less closer to death than I was three hours ago

One last question I would like anyone still reading to answer if they have an answer: how do I stop worrying constantly

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>>11830871
You don't. You just try to focus on something else, and you manage for a few minutes, maybe a full hour, and then you remember everything, and you start worrying again.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830862
I cop out and just indulge in fanon to fill in the blanks. TD got a lot of good doujinshi artist attention

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830862
stupid bunny only useful for her sex appeal

>>11830879
I'll fight you

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830871

>how do I stop worrying constantly

Follow the teachings of the zen monks

[Anonymous No.]

Ｗｈｏ　ｎｅｅｄｓ　Ｔｏｕｈｏｕ　ｏｒ　ｄｒｉｎｋｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｒｅｄｕｃｅ　ａｎｘｉｅｔｙ？
Ｙｏｕ　ｈａｖｅ　ｐｏｗｅｒ　ｏｆ　ｏｗｎ　ｍｉｎｄ．

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>>11830886
Come at me bro. I'll break your spine like Bane broke Batman. I'll have you crying like Battler cried when Beatrice broke him in Umineko. I'll have you cower in a corner like my little cousin when I showed him Hostel.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830898
People are weak.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830898
The mind is weak.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830898
I'm weak.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830905
>>11831025
>>11831029
How pathetic.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831037

That's life.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830871
>how do I stop worrying constantly
You need to take it easy.

Let's take a look at danmaku for an example. You see, it may seem that Touhou games are hard and stressful, but they are actually about taking it easy. Rather, taking it easy in those brief spaces between bullets. You don't dodge bullets, you simply move inbetween the spaces.
Life may sometimes feel like you are getting constantly bombarded with streams of bullets, so you need to learn to appreciate the paradise that exists between those small spaces in which you can take it easy. Kinda like the extra time you have before doing something important, or the procrastination of putting things off for tomorrow. In that space betwixt work, there exists a paradise.

Learn to enjoy those brief spaces in life. And someday, you might even learn how to graze.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830905
>>11831025
>>11831029

No, the weak can't take it easy. You need a certain kind of strength to be able to tell look important matters in the face and tell it "Fuck you, I'm not going to bother with you." and go about your day enjoying yourself and not giving a fuck.

That said, you need twice that strength to be able to recover and actually do important things when it matters. Plenty of people have the strength to dig the hole but few have the strength o climb back out afterwards.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831079

Deep...

Are you, like, a philosopher?

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831058
Ha, that's funny, I remember reading something like that a while ago. Something about a chef not needing to sharpen his blade because he moved carefully and always sliced between the muscle and cartilage rather than simply hacking through the meat.

>>11830899
warum bernd

[Anonymous No.]

I used to spend my whole day reading those books and even at one point wanted to translate a manga, but after a few months I completely lost all of my love for it. Now I just play VNs. I still dearly hold Satori in my heart, though.

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>>11831079
I don't believe that crap. My brother is a successful asshole able to achieve everything he wants, and I'm a loser looking for a job while writing fanfictions and stories that nobody will read.
And yet he's the one being easily depressed for months, while I recover from everything in less than five days. Including death of people close to me.

Riddle me that, clever boy : if everything depends from that strength, how is it that a successful individual can be depressed for longer than a failure?
It doesn't have anything to do with strength.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831098
Not him, but he probably isn't as familiar with failure like you are.
He probably hasn't dealt with it too much, while for you it might be something you know all too well. And you have learned to deal with it and overcome it.

It's important that one feels failure, so that one can learn from it and how to avoid it in the future.

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>>11831098
I wasn't talking about that. I was just talking about being lazy.

Anyways, I have a feeling it might be because you're used to failure. For example I've failed all my life so I'm hardly even phased by failure anymore. Maybe it's the same with you too.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831098
>stories that nobody will read.

I'll read them. Seriously, I like reading amateur works.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831088
That's something you would hear from a motivational speaker on a rehab center

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831114
Hence the sarcasm.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831114
Whoa, this guy is dense as FUCK.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11831106
>>11831107
If it was just my own failures, it would make sense, but I mean any kind of stuff. For example, I used to write stories at a moment where I couldn't find a job, and that gave a meaning to my life. Like "since I'm bad at having a job, I'll just write".
And I got banned from that website, and sank into depression.
Two days later, I was okay again. Still bitter over the whole thing, but I wasn't depressed anymore.


And it wasn't a failure à la "couldn't find a girlfriend ;_;", it was a failure à la "I thought I had something I was good at". Even more depressing.
I'd like to clarify that I'm not exactly used to being forced to redefine myself, so your "being used to failure" theory doesn't apply here.


Removed my trip because there's a limit between posting "in character" and attention whoring and I don't want to cross it.

[Anonymous No.]

Yes. I have 20GB of touhou images that I've never even looked at after sorting them, and I haven't played any of the games in months. I like it, but you all fuck it to death until it seems completely trivialized and meaningless.

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>>11831132
Why did you get banned? Did they even tell you?

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>>11831118
>>11831131
I was just trying to make a quip..

Assholes..

[Anonymous No.]

Eh, the excitement and rush of digging into a fuckton of fascinating material is gone. My imaginative ventures into the series are more refined, for better or worse. Things have changed but I'm still love the series. But really, think of things like this like campfires. You can't stay at the same camp all the time, but you can take part of it with you into the future. It's not bad nor good, just different, as it should be.

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>>11831114
Did that come off as motivational? My point was that hardly anyone makes it out of the hole so you might as well make it a comfy place and stay there.

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>>11831143
Long story short : a famous writefag on the website started being depressed, and decided to abandon a story I liked. I anonymously posted what I expected to be an inspiring speech about responsability and stuff.
He complained to the admin, said admin proceed to trash me. I called him a hypocrit (since, you know, I posted anonymously, and yet he called me by my pen name), and he banned me.

I guess I kind of deserved it, but what really bothered me is the fact that he lied and made up excuses afterward, pretending I complimented myself while voting in my own stories. Those lies are why I'm still bitter about this.
I mean, come on ! Ban me because I called you a hypocrite and your best friend a piece of shit unable to make up his mind and finish something he started, but don't go around inventing stuff.
Only commies did that. And Maccarthy.

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>>11831165
Oh, you made it sound like they banned you because you were just that bad at writing or something.

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>>11831169
Apparently, there was also that, but the thread the admin made after banning me got some "I should've voted in his stories" answers.
So I wasn't good (especially since I was stupid enough to write in English when I don't even speak it), but I wasn't all that bad either. I think someone described my stories as "good plot, poor writing, shitty writer". Something like that.

So yeah, it's mostly because the admin personally hated me and got an excuse when I attacked one of his buddies.

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>>11831165
Well then you shouldn't be too sad over it, as you could still be good at writing and it was just the drama that got to you.
That's why I like /jp/, there isn't drama like that when everyone is Anonymous.
Course tripfriends and shitposters love to try and cause it anyway.

Even then, if you like writing, you should keep at it. Even if your material seems bad at first. Everyone was like that at first. I always disliked it when pixiv artists delete their earlier works, as I've always enjoyed seeing how they progressed.

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>>11831185
No, I don't need to be consoled.
That's why I posted my story : because I don't believe in >>11831079's theory of the strength, or >>11831106 and >>11831107's theories that I'm used to failures.
Since, you know, what happened back then wasn't just a failure, it was far worse than that.

That being said, I'm probably done talking, 4chan is pulling some really nasty capcha.

[Anonymous No.]

I'm probably going to regret this /jp/ but I just did a lot of thinking and decided to dump all of my Colt 45 into the toilet
Thanks for helping me sober up and well up the courage to call my parents and apologize. I had a good cry so I guess that's that. I'll cheer myself up with Aniki videos on NND, I wonder if they did a 2013 New Year's collab
In return for you're help I promise never to blogpost again

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>>11831224
Good on you, anon.

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>>11831224
>decided to dump all of my Colt 45 into the toilet
What a waste of money.
You shoulda tried to sell them back or something.
Or give them to that weird hobo at the corner of the street who's constantly crying and begging for God to forgive him. I'm sure he'll appreciate the gesture.

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>>11831224
You'll always be a failure.

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>>11831224
/jp/ - Rehab

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>>11831227
>What a waste of money.
Colt 45 is a waste of grain and water. Have you ever actually tasted it? No one drinks it because they like it.

>>11831233
I've already written my life off. But at least I can live to help people who actually deserve help
Maybe I can take it easy in between the bullets.

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>>11831248

I'm rooting for you.

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>>11831248
You'll die a failure.

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>>11831248
Nazrin is a mouse.

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>>11831224

For anyone who wants to know, if you're at the point where you're drinking forties everyday instead of cheap vodka or everclear for your alcohol fix, you know something horribly wrong has happened in your life.

Good luck with getting your life back and not fucking up anymore, anon.

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>>11831550
Thanks man.
I'm just praying that getting back to normal won't be a roller coaster. I doubt I'll be like my dad and start shaking and seeing goats and centipedes everywhere. Last time I quit though I drank a fuckton of coffee and shat out my bowels.

[Anonymous No.]

What happened here? A lot of messages disappeared during the night.

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>>11831135
Anon, go through your 20GB, rekindle your passion.

[Anonymous No.]

Yes, yes it has. I haven't even played DDC.

[Anonymous No.]

The addition of buddhist shits ruined touhou forever.

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>>11832021
Agreed.

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>>11832021
This.

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>>11831998
Bloggers got kicked.

[Anonymous No.]

ZUN really need to take a break, a good one, for a couple of years. Stop making Touhou contents until he can find something to reignite his creativity. What Touhou need now is for ZUN to follow in what Araki did years ago. Touhou need its Steel Ball Run.

[Anonymous No.]

I will continue to love Touhou till I draw my last breath.

[Anonymous No.]

Still love it despite my transition to GNU/Linux, too bad the last three games (TD, HM and DDC) wasn't as good as SA, UFO and Soku. I can't play Soku/SWR without those bugs through Wine though.

[Anonymous No.]

I still love it. I have no problem with new games (I actually like them, all of them) and I've never really been a part of the community, just playing and lurking by myself in my own time. I'm taking it slow and easy so the fire still burns.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11830782
Oh my god I love Okuu
So much

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>>11833350
Good for you anon

[Anonymous No.]

>>11833414
I want to love okuu!

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>>11833425
Want to? Whats stopping you?

[Anonymous No.]

Used to love it, but the constant oversaturation mostly killed it for me. You can only listen to so many remixes of Necrofantasia before you begin to hate the original, too.

Basically, fuck all the secondary shit. I do enjoy playing the main games once in a while though

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>>11830696
>>11830708
>>11830711

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>>11832857
I thought he did take a break after PoFV and TD.

[Anonymous No.]

>>11833439
She doesn't actually exist.

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>>11833443
Not to mention that most remixes are just "take original song, add metal".

[Anonymous No.]

Pretty much.
I really liked the atmosphere and music of the older Windows games, but lately they just haven't been as interesting.
I still fap to doujins every once in a while. It's funny how one can go to being a primary to secondary over time.

[Anonymous No.]

I have too noticed, the quality of the games has been dropping and the characters themselves as well