/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Nothing, I am quite content spending my entire day indulging in the the things I enjoy.

I think about killing myself, then I imagine the horror of non-existence, and then I'm happy again just to be alive.

Not sure! I think I would be able to get out of depression if I lived alone, but it's impossible to get government money here.

Looking at nice things

>>9931818
Find yourselves a cute /jp/sie to be best friends with like me.

Medication for the disorder. Love and other good feelings for the mood.

Practice muay thai
Try to do a handstand
Read the Bible
Practice sign language

Go to sleep

Listen to happy music
Then again I've never been depressed and have a difficult time understanding how people can remain sad for so long (chemical imbalances and shit like that aside)

>>9931833
Paranoid about meds having terrible side effects. Have seen it happen to others. I also find it ironic that antidepressants may make you MORE depressed. Like vomiting and bleeding yeah but the one thing it should do should be to make you even lower.

>>9931851
should not do*

Stop being depressed and start being awesome.

>>9931859
I'm depressed now cause I'm not a meganeko they look really cute and I think I would be a lot happier on /jp/ if I was one too

>>9931830
It looks like a cute bug （キュートバッグ） （可愛い虫）

>>9931851
If you're bad enough you'll be willing to risk a little trial-and-error to find the one that will lift you up with minimal (or no) side effects.
I went through two before finding the one that was right for me. One (esctialopram) gave me the shakes something crazy and had me almost passing out all the time, the other (nortriptyline) didn't work but gave me some of the most terrifying, physically excruciating nightmares I've had in my life.
The third (Mirtazapine) has worked slowly but surely with no side effects other than a short-term sleepiness after taking them (but you can take them before bed so that becomes a good thing).
Still, rather have a few intense periods of suffering followed by 7/10 for the rest of my life (which may still be improving) than constant, unending suffering.
If you can, ask for that third one because it has a reputation of having little to no side effects. I think it's new or something.

Smoke weed 420 faggots

>>9931839
If I could keep on sleeping, definitely. Waking up and having to look at myself and reality in the mirror washing up is one of my lowest points daily though.

>>9931898
I don't where to buy weed.

last time i tried to, i got a bag of oregano.

>>9931902
Haha, joke's on you, I don't even look in the mirror when I wash up.
Which is a relief, this body is an ugly prison within a prison.

>>9931867
T-90 is fairly adorable for an armored fighting vehicle.

>>9931828
This pretty much.

Why can't there by an afterlife so I can kill myself in peace?

>>9931894
I can't afford meds. Parents don't believe in them and have no intention of buying them for me. I only have the bare minimum in terms of allowance. Too scared to meet with the people and lazy to fill out the absolute fuckton of paperwork to apply for low-income drug plan support. Going out at night to a convenience store once or twice a week is the best I can manage.

My misery is my only friend. No seriously, I recently went through a period where I felt absolutely nothing. I missed being depressed.

>>9931818
I don't 'pull' myself the feeling generally goes away once in a while for a few days then it comes back.

I'm not even in a bad situation yet it's still there

I drink hard liquor.

>>9931932
when I scrolled by that I thought you had drawn blushes on the tank but it was just lights, now I'm sad

>>9931945
Oh, well that's a shame. Surely there is SOME kind of free organization for this thing where you are?

>>9931828

And then you realize you will eventually die someday ... making you even more depressed

>>9931963
Will this make you not sad?

del

>>9931962
i thought you'd roll around in mud like the saying " as happy as a pig in shit " would suggest

>>9931970
The cycle continues.
At least I am alive and enjoying it for this moment. oh but I will die sometime, that is not so good, at least I am alive and enjoying it for this moment. oh but... etc.

>>9931976
>>9931976
>>9931981
Holy fuck you got owned so hard Sudo, jesus christ that was brutal, gg no re pig

>>9931976
No I am horribly depressed or feel nothing unless I'm drinking, ie: right now.

>>9931985
plz no bully

>>9931981
What's a good cheap liquor to get drunk off of?

>>9931995
After how hard you just got owned I dont even need to bully you, holy fuck

>>9931985

Is sudo fat? I'd think he'd be skinny as his name suggests

>>9932025
A fat disgusting piece of shit, so much so that one gets the impression he is more pig than human.

>>9932014
I prefer vodka.
>>9932020
See image.
>>9932025
No, I was really fat like 7 years ago but not anymore.
>>9932028
no bully

>>9932025
SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Not once in my life have I ever been depressed. No idea how people do it.

>>9932025
from what i remember he used to be horribly fat but now is skinny or something like that

>>9932036
>>9932036
I'd be in tears if I was you holy christ I don't think I've ever seen someone get owned that fucking hard before, WOW

>>9932037
>>9932044

>>9931818
fap

>>9932047
No amount of cute anime pictures is going change how fucking devestated you must after that, just fucking gg

>>9932050
>>9932050

I dont have depression.
So I do not need to get out of it.

Feels good to live bro.

I've never been sad in my life, never once. I've experienced grief from the death of pets/people, but never sadness.

I'm almost always happy and content. I actually have a real disease called happiness disorder.

>>9931833

What drugs should I take to cure my disorder?

>>9932052

I think you have a stalker. You know how you were always mean to the girl you secretly liked when you were younger? Yeah ...

I used to cry quite a bit but now all I feel is empty and lethargic. I honestly don't know if it this really is an improvement. I just feel as if I'm outside my body watching a robot do the same routine every day.

I recently had a psychotic break, I took drugs.

>>9932062

Sounds like fun. Grab the controller and make the robot do something different

>>9932062
I've had that
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization

I actually kind of liked it.

>>9932060
Maybe you just didn't see the initial post dude, I'd say thats pretty fucking owned.

>>9932071

Sure, sure stalkah-san

>>9932068

I wish I had some kin of cool, crippling mental disorder. It sounds ike it would be very interesting.

>>9932059
Happiness and sadness are emotions that catch you unaware. You probably won't be able to avoid them nor will anyone, anon.

>>9932073
I don't think you can get away from how owned you are Sudo, unless you're taking on another identity as a way of compensating for how completely owned you are. That would make sense though lol

btw haven't had a chance to use this image in awhile lol

>>9932081
Take DXM or DPH and give yourself HPPD, easiest way to give yourself depersonalization. Not like you have to be on your A game for sitting on your computer 24/7.

>>9932081
In my experience it was far from crippling, it was just kind of like a thing that happened and had no positive or negative impact.
Unfortunately it came when I was stressed for a time and went when I was no longer stressed. I would rather it stayed.

>>9932082

Nuh uh, they're diseases caused by chemical imbalances in the brain that have never been found.

>>9932084
That other guy isn't me.

Whenever I feel another wave of depression coming on, I tend to listen to motivational power metal songs and watch comedy. I did just that today; I watched some MST3K.

But then I fucked it up by watching all of ichi ritoru no namida in one sitting

>>9932095
Uh huh, sure thing Sudo that "other guy" isnt you lol

>>9931818

Can you be sad and read this manga at the same time?

>>9932098
He really isn't.

>>9932129
Sure thing Porky.

make a human connection

>>9932129
Next image, hulk with a shooped Yuko hair.

>>9932132

Remind myself that with a little helium and a plastic bag I can end it and everything will be peacefully non existent. It makes me feel better to know I can still opt-out at any time.

I'd rather die than take pills to turn me into someone else just so I can continue to pay into society.

>>9932147

>>9932144
Doesn't it concern you that your method of suicide might lead others to misunderstand your cause of death? Or that your corpse would look pretty ridiculous?

>>9932144

>>9932148
My cat is really nice.

>>9932159
I've never cared about looking good for normalfags while alive, why would I when dead?

I'd probably write a note telling them how to handle my corpse (no funerals, cremation) and request that it be known that I died of "laziness."

>>9932170
Mine's better.

>>9932174

>no funerals, cremation

I don't think it's legal to just have someone order your body to be thrown out in the woods or something.

Is it?

>>9932185
I think he means he doesn't want a religious ceremony

>>9932170
Its colours are kind of boring if you ask me.

Go to tohno-chan. there's sadder people there and it always makes me feel better about my own situation.

ogrishforum and gurochan work too.

>>9932196

>>9932198

>gurochan

Everyone is pretty happy there from my short experience.

>tohno-chan

Nah. Just looks like it because they have a board specifically just for talking about being pathetic and fucked up. That doesn't represent the whole.

>>9932205
Your house looks really plain. You should redecorate.

>>9932213
I changed the bedspread, that image is rather old.

Alcohol works. Other than that I have no idea.

>>9932233
Alright I'm done, I wasn't really being serious I was just really bored, have a good night Sudo.

I used to get a bunch of food and keep eating till the point I looked pregnant and be in a lot of discomfort, I would try not to throw up though because throwing up feels gross. I can't afford this anymore though so I just try to sleep through it.

No I'm not fat

>>9932254
Is that so you would take your mind off of depression and instead worry about not puking?

>>9932059
See
>>9931894

It will likely require trial and error, as it differs for everybody, but if they will give it to you, take mirtazapine. I have also heard good things about citalopram (not EScitalopram)

>>9932366
Wait, nevermind, I didn't actually read your post.
Fuck you.

I need help getting depressed so I can finally focus on academics. Any suggestions?

>>9932400

If you get depressed you aren't going to feel like doing much of anything besides being depressed.

>>9932400
Depression won't help you there mate.

>>9932410
Well I learned that I can focus better when I'm too down to enjoy distractions so I figured that depression will turn me into an academic genius. I guess this means I need to find a way to become just the right amount of sad huh?

Someone should really invent a pill for this.

>>9932400
Just become an alcoholic.

>>9931818
Suicide.

>>9932453
I can't. I'm one of those happy drunks. Getting drunk will only enhance the fun in my distractions.

>>9932459
I am too, I don't see how anyone could become violent or sad when drunk.

>>9932469
They say that alcohol releases people so they can act how they truly want to. Good on you for being a happy person at heart.

Because I live with a mean drunk and it isn't fun.

>>9932469
Because what alcohol does is it strips away your personal layers of protection- the facade you put on yourself to appear normal.
If it makes you sad or violent, it's because you're a sad or violent person and you refuse to admit it.

all i do when drunk is fall asleep

I wish you'd stop drinking so much Sudo... You aren't the same any more...

>>9932494
Shut it nerd, Sudo hangs out with the cool kids now.

Lift heavy weights; it works.

>>9932477
>>9932480
Well that sure was a fun thing to learn if it's true.

>>9932515
It's a well known fact that it destroys inhibition. Part of the inhibition it destroys are the social norms that the person forces on themselves. Without inhibition, their instincts come through and they become the violent piece of shit they've been suppressing for societal reasons. Or sad, or happy, or whatever.

>>9932515
Plot twist.
You are the adopted one

>>9932477
>>9932480

I can't seem to find out how I am when drunk. I couldn't stop talking nonsense jokes as if I was a terrible comedian, and then I became all mushy romantic for a 2d girl outta nowhere.

>>9932543
Shocking since I'm an only child.

I don't. I just have come to accept depression and general unwellness as my baseline, like how someone eventually almost gets used to chronic pain.

>>9932477
>>9932480
Damn, now I'll never be able to create a state of artificial depression.

>>9932567
You are such a complete fucking faggot:
>>>/r9k/
>>>/b/
>>>/soc/

I ignored most emotions I don't like, and just got over it, kinda.

I think I'm somewhat happy with most things, though most of my time I'm just content. It's not all that great for motivation, and not being able to accumulate stress or get angry even if I try really makes it hard to get around to doing anything, but at least I feel fine with not doing it.

Now that I think about it, I may have just found a very roundabout way of being as apathetic an lethargic as I was when depressed, but with less emotions..

>>9932568
Can I be exiled to /v/ or /a/ instead?

>>9931818
I fap, which is a temporary remedy.

>>9932568
Do you ever look at yourself in a mirror?

>>9932576
Wait for your next review period please.

I play ｎｅｔｏｇｅ

By ruining the lives of others. I do whatever I can to make sure people have a bad time and go through hardships. It makes me feel a lot better. Today I made a girl cry.

Yesterday I finally bought the envelope I planned to put my (written) suicide note in. It's all coming together, /jp/. Maybe we'll meet each other in Gensokyo soon. Now I just need to find something to write down before I leave.

>>9932606
Maybe you can write down your pathetic reasons for killing yourself, that way your living relatives won't feel as bad.

>>9932606
Stay with us please, you are a valuable contributor.

>>9932609
Tell me about it. I am aroused by the tears of the inferior sex.

/jp/ - Suicide Culture

What are you gonna write on your suicide notes? I'm going to put down "I am not dead and this is not my corpse, I'm alive somewhere else"

What do you think? Don't you think that sounds cool?

>>9932616
What goes through your mind when you say things like that, my son?

>>9932634
"He has risen again"

>>9932634

I'm not going to leave one. Who cares? Also, it's not like it would surprise your parents.

>>9932634
Tell me why you want to die. There is definitely a reason for you to live!

>>9932627
I just made multiple accounts on a steaming website and used multiple proxies to join a girls webcam chat room. I was 10 of the 11 users in there and I was using all of them to insult her and tell her how ugly she is, etc. She started banning them and I had more and more. eventually she started crying and wen't offline.

It was pretty epic.

>>9932634
Waiting to respawn...

>>9932632
It'll give his family some piece of mind when they realize how selfish this individual was when choosing to kill himself. As a result the period of grievance afterwards may be lessened to a degree, either that or replaced by disappointment.

>>9932634
You know, If I were ever planning of killing myself I would have just got out of the house and do some crazy ass shit because nothing even matters anymore.

>>9932638
If you really believe He has risen you won't kill yourself.

>>9932639
That's right, you're not gonna leave a suicide note because you're not gonna suicide :)

>>9932647

>>9932650

I think leaving one would be the edgy thing to do.
What is there to be said?

>>9932627
Man and woman were created equals!

>>9932634
Mine's just going to be short, maybe something like
"No-one died"

>>9932639
Don't be edgy, just leave one anyway. You can make a cool message too!

>>9932657
But somewhere along the line that changed.

>>9932657
And women fuck it up their entire lives.

>>9932636
That's beautiful.

>>9932645
Oh but it's going to be a lot worse than dying by your own hand if he really has risen.

>>9932655
Not leaving one would actually be edgier. Everybody usually leaves a suicide note so not leaving one makes it look like you wanted attention that nobody could give. And begging for attention is so edgy and uncool.

>>9932636
/soc/ pls go

>>9932660
Yes, inequality exists when humans act outside the laws created for us.

>>9932657
You were created from man's ribs. Just a small part of him equals one full woman. Furthermore, we'd still be in the garden of Eden if it wasn't for you, you gullible, gullible bitch.

>>9932672
Wait what?

>>9932672
What are the laws created for us?

>>9932675
Check your privilege.

>>9932678

Well said, friend.

>>9932657
Not really. I have a dick and you don't.

>>9932678
The founding fathers said that all men were created equal. Not women. Men.
Going against our founding fathers is worse than going against our lord and master- Jesus.

>>9932675
The Ten Commandments, the words of Christ, no one can go wrong if one follows these laws.

When are we going to make an artificial womb, /jp/?
Also, if there was a mass female genocide in this year I wonder whether it would be created within the life expectancy of people born today.

>>9932634
I-It's not like I killed myself for you or anything! I w-wanted to die anyway! Baka!

>>9932703
>you're mom: ``dd-d-d-d doushio!!!''

>>9932678
The books of the Torah can't really be taken literally. Do you also believe the sky is a solid barrier around the Earth? Genesis says that too.

>>9932705
God was clearly talking about escape velocity.
Learn to metaphors.

>>9932494
I can stop anytime I want.

>>9932688
The Ten Commandments are easy to follow, don't kill anyone and don't steal and all that shit.

>>9932705
If Adam and Eve were the first two humans and they had two sons, does it mean in order to continue they had to have sex with their mother?

>>9932678
You say it's my fault we're not in Paradise, but at least I'm trying to get us back there.

>>9932711
Rape is totally okay though. So go all out with that.

del

>>9932688
When it comes to women being the downfall of men and need to be put in their place, religion has it nailed. Hell, even the Koran and the Holy Bible see more or less eye to eye on this. For example, wives are compelled under the Koran not to refuse their husbands sex. Even Confucian doctrine which pervaded and continues to influence pagan Asia (mainly Commie China) says you gotta beat the bitch weekly to show her who's boss. The oldest, most influential beliefs systems are all in on this one.

>>9932708
Probably. I wouldn't look too far into it, nobody I know believes the first humans were a couple of white people in a magic garden.

>>9932734

But they were though, because it says so in the Bible. Sorry, kid.

>>9932727 Rape is totally okay
How do you figure?

>>9932734
Well you try explaining things like spacetime and escape velocity to a bunch of mudpeople.

Nice I like how we went from depression to suicide to equal rights between men and women.

>>9932740
The bible, both new and old, completely endorses rape. It's not against the 10 commandments, it's not even against Jesus' teachings.
When guests come to stay, you can offer them your female relatives to rape so long as they leave the male ones alone.

>>9932740
Commandments don't mention it so I assume god's cool with it.

>>9932734
So you're one of those apologists who conveniently like to forget that things like the Old Testament never happened at all? Oh, let's pick and choose what to take literally and by pick and choose I mean what you agree with.

I can't tell if we're having a serious discussion or if everyone is joking.

>>9932751
All extremely relevant topics for /jp/ if you ask me.

>>9932754
Why is rape okay but eating cheese and meat together isn't? God fucked up somewhere along the line.

>>9932758
we're all dead serious.

>>9932768
Old testament god was not exactly a sane one. Good thing we got a fresh new god before the modern age.

>>9932714
Besides questioning how you are going about doing that, trying to right a wrong isn't something people have to be particular grateful for. In a free, civilized society such as that of the greatest country on Earth, it is expected. If you do something wrong, you pay up somehow. Getting us back into paradise simply equates to your redemption. Also, if you're going to finely pick and choose what specific lines of the Bible to believe in, you might as well make your own religion from scratch. Instead of using generic names like Adam use Xenu or some shit. Oh wait.