/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Yes.

Just not for rotting flesh. Pussy.

I have depression, thus,I have anhedonia, and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all. I believe that a lot of people here have this condition as well.

I like to talk to counselors cause they wont outright laugh at me about my troubles.

Sure they'll laugh when i'm gone but I can deal with that.

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

; ___ ;

>>9148841
You can have depression without having anhedonia.

Anhedonia isn't exactly a loss of emotion, either. I believe there's a word for that, but I only know anhedonia is about lack of motivation and/or ability to experience pleasure.

>>9148841
>I have depression
>and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all

>>9148852
I think know a song that kind of goes like this, please tell me which one.

We all feel emotion.

>I have depression
>and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all

>I have depression
>and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all.

>>9148870

Not me, I have depression, thus I don't feel any emotions, not even sadness.

Only emotions I ever feel are depression and anger

I'm the edgiest

>>9148815
Jason?

I feel emotions, but they're a secondary existence.

I could easily shrug off 'sadness' though of course I'd still be depressed because holy fuck life sucks.

>>9148863
>>9148871
>>9148877

>I have depression
>and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all.
Hahahahahahahaha!

>>9148880

No, this is patrick.

>>9148880
Where?

>>9148895
Oh, hey. Where's Spongebob? I haven't seen him in a while...

Don't you feel the embarrassment of the fuck up you made while trying to be a misunderstood edgy genius NEET?

See, you can feel emotions. Rejoice.

>I have depression
>and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all.

I can't wait to post in this thread and be told how grimdark and edgy and teenaged.

I couldn't really mourn a "loved one" (here meaning family member). Recently I have been plotting moving interstate without telling them to escape them once and for all. It never occurred to me before now that it'd have practically the same effect of going overseas with a tenth of the effort and red tape.

I don't have any friends either.

>>9148902

STOP IT

I SHOULD HAVE NEVER taken pictures of me wearing girl clothes and worn them in front of my dad and took pictures and shown them to friends and family and TRY TO GET MY MOM TO PUT MAKE UP ON ME AND ASK MY FRIEND TO SEE IF ONE OF HIS FRIENDS CAN HELP ME ACT MORE GIRLY

>>9148914
We should be friends. Where are you thinking of moving?

>>9148902

Depression and a dependency for alcohol. No, I normally don't feel anything.

The only time I feel something is after I've drank enough, and even then I don't feel anything, but at least it's a good type of "nothing" - numbness instead of apathy - which is enough of a feeling for me.

>>9148902

Rejoice, because he/she..
>>9148841
>..have depression
>and thus, no, he/she can't feel emotions at all.

No.
Never.

>>9148917
It really sounds like you shouldn't have done that.

>>9148917
>SHOULD HAVE NEVER
Yes you should have. The alternative would have been you experimenting these things on your own. At least you got others' opinions and advice while experimenting, which was smart.

the pleasure of being dead inside.

>I have depression
>and thus, no, I can't feel emotions at all

>>9148917

What happened? Why did you change your mind?

I would treat you like a girl anon... We could drink tea together and then do something on the bed.

>>9148948
Hey, you.

Shut the fuck up before I drive this golf club up your ass. The joke's played out.

>>9148942

Advice!? Hell no people thought I was a fucking retard and I damn straight was.

>>9148952

I still cross dress, it's just I have memories that haunt me and cause me to spaz out and spout swear words like tourettes and cringe into a ball.

Sometimes I get mad at video games. There's also a brief moment of triumph/satisfaction when I reach my goals. Some music, movies, and television series can give me feels.

>>9148957
You deserve to suffer, you fucking fairy. I hope you go crazy from memories of that ordeal.

Whenever cute anime girls that I like get seriously physically or emotionally hurt in their shows I am smiling broadly and I don't know why.

I do have feels, I think they are just the wrong feels.

>>9148957
>have memories that haunt me... spaz out and spout swear words... and cringe into a ball.

I can relate. Not to crossdressing, but, there are memories that haunt me as well.
Alcohol tends to help with this.

>>9148963

ill kill you in my sleep

I feel them, they are just kind of messed up (since I can't think of a better way to put it) since I spend all day being content and enjoying myself.

Hell, I'm probably completely emotionally healthy and just confirm it since I don't do things that require feeling anything other than contentment.

>ill kill you in my sleep

>>9148963
>>9148967

Yall niggas need to chill the fuck out and smoke some weed

>>9148973

*just can't confirm it

I will atone for this horrible crime of making a typo on the internet by presenting whoever had to read that horrible mess with this picture of Rumia holding a meat club.

>>9148985
Drugs and weeds are not NEET, not even Otaku related.

I cry a lot... I still haven't finished Katawa Shoujo because I cry every time I read it T_T

>>9148957

>Hell no people thought I was a fucking retard and I damn straight was.

I absolutely hate how the majority of people will react to cross-dressing, they'll make you feel bad about it, make you feel stupid, etc.

You have to have alot of confidence and be able to not care about others opinions to pull off openly crossdressing...

They will never understand, bastards.

I'm a schizoid with a family history of schizophrenia, people always think it makes me a robot but it's really more like I don't care enough to feel one way or the other about things (in my mind at least). I've never had a problem making friends either but they fall off pretty quickly because I don't do more than react to their efforts to they get dejected and go away.

>>9149036

Even though I am haunted by the past, I learned proper cross-dressing etiquette

1. Some people are uncomfortable with cross dressing so its rude to push your likes onto them.

2. Cross-dressing takes little skill, so it's not something to brag about to people who don't have any care for it.

3. Cross-dress only in private or accepted areas.

4. Wear shit that actually looks good on you rather than tight dresses that make you look like a retard.

5. Don't wear make up if you don't know how to use it

6. Get over the novelty idea of wearing the opposite sexes clothing and appreciate how you can legitimate look good in them.

>>9149036
I feel the same way, except with eating food from bins instead of crossdressing.

40% of this country's food is thrown away like that, why should it be gone for good? No need to bully and outcast me because getting free food without fueling the production machine is worth more to me than hyperdumb social constructs.

Of course OP. I feel lust all the time.

>>9148983
Oh shit you guys, he's freddy kruegger.

>>9149036
Of course they react that way, it's unnatural, you fucking homo. Why do you feel the need to be accepted by everybody? Please stop forcibly pushing your sick beliefs on others.

Damn, we need the extreme right in power, right the fuck now.

>>9148956
Was a name not enough? Hey, might as well as a get a signature and avatar while you're at it!

that's a good question... i don't know.
i kinda know what you're talking about, but i also think i could be refered to as hyperemotional at the same time. i act as if i constantly experience extreme emotions, but i feel pretty much always empty inside, and i don't know why i act the way i do.
so long story short, to the outsider i look like an overly emotional person, but on the inside i do feel like OP. so not sure if i count.

i also have clinical deprssion, and while its terrible in its own way, i like how it makes me feel calm and generally prefer it to my normal state. which would suggest i do experience emotions while somehow avoiding to actualy feel them. i have no clue how it works. my brain must look like a swiss cheese.

>>9149076

>>>/pol/

>edgy social conservatism xD

>>9149064
So is it that you want to look like the little girl and be the little girl, or is it just that you want to wear their clothes, even if you are very clearly a man while wearing them?

>>9149080
1. Guy puts on tripcode, suddenly posts everywhere
2. Fail to realize that one of the five people who make /jp/ up has suddenly become a lot more visible, instead assume he is posting everywhere all of the sudden to get his name known
3. Begin responding to his posts on the basis of your misunderstanding

>>9149080
>>9149080

Accepted? No, I don't care.

I'd be fine with people just ignoring it and not treating it like a big deal, if they really don't like it.

>>9149100

Well, there are some outfits (particularly marisas costume) that look great without any make up and stuff. I would consider being a trap more further down the spectrum of cross-dressing.

I like the little girl feeling, but I just look so god damn nice in them too.

>>9149134

Oh, I didn't answer your question.

Sometimes I wear a bandana-mask thing to cover my face except my eyes. I wear for leisure and personal fashion. I don't have much motivation to look like a girl but I do hide blatant masculine traits.

>>9149111
>>9149129
You forgot to put your trip back on.

>>9149134
What I mean is I'm just curious as to if there are people who are interested in wearing female clothes without any intention of ever being closer to looking or being female.

I saw this guy once, an bearded old guy who was at least 60, walking out of a store in a black dress, stockings and high heels.

Yes, every day.
Listening to music I like heats up my chest and makes me smile, but, not as much as browsing jp when it's not shitty, in these times I smile with such force that my eyes close.

>>9149175
And why didn't you take pictures, exactly?

Jeez. Your whole life is a missed opportunity, isn't it?

>>9149175

>I saw this guy once, an bearded old guy who was at least 60, walking out of a store in a black dress, stockings and high heels.

"I don't fucking give a shit I'm going to wear womens clothes anyway and I don't care what anyone thinks".

That's when it just gets funny.

the only thing i want is to be alone forever so i can be on the internet forever without being disturbed by people that's why i want to be alone so i can do it by myself

>>9149175

Yeah I wear female clothes with no intention to look like a female.

I'm by far the edgiest here:

The girl on the checkout said 'hi' when I bought my groceries today.
I pretended not to hear because I'm emotionless as fuck, bro.
When my dog died I just left him there for a few weeks until the smell became unbearable, I'll probably do the same with my parents.
If souls were visible mine would be like, totally black 8| (that's an (anti)emoticon for not giving a fuck, note the sunglasses: I wear them so people don't get scared of my emotionless eyes).

Emotions have a very hard time reaching me.
Getting me angry is really an achievement.
World conquest with Ryukyu is easier.

Masturbating a frequent 3-5 times a day for a few months also had it bad effects, getting my dick hard has become impossible but a half hard dick is enough to masturbate.
I've already fapped with a totally flaccid dick once and it is one of the most exhausting things in the world.

I farted when I heard my mom died of cirrhosis.

Does that count as emotion?

Usually no, I don't.

But once every 6 months or so, I just start crying in the middle of the night and I don't know why.

>>9149252
I thought NOT ejaculating often was what led to testosterone decline and possibly erectile dysfunction.

I vowed to never masturbate again so that I could trade sexual potency, for which I have no use, in exchange for the possibility of not losing all my hair

>>9149250
>When my dog died I just left him there for a few weeks until the smell became unbearable, I'll probably do the same with my parents.
I see myself doing the same with my mother some day.
I would probably skip funeral to masturbate on some DP porn...

I can get really sad watching my chinese children's programmes and reading my interactive porn books but nothing about real life evokes anything

>>9149268
Don't know, but a penis isn't made to be used so much as I use mine.
I also need an iron grip so it doesn't take an hour before I cum.

i spent much of tonight trying to suppress deep and very painful fury at meido.tumblr.com.

>>9149285
Just because she happens to be attractive?

What is it with some of you people? I've been NEET for almost 7 years, and before all of this was when I felt like I didn't feel emotions. Each day was the same. It was boring, and then I would come home from school, sleep, wake up, and repeat. When I stopped school I realized it was the lifestyle I was forced into that was making me feel depressed.

Nowadays with no school and no job, I'm pretty cheerful and easygoing all of the time. Every day when I wake up, I look outside and feel happy. The world feels open to me, like I can do whatever I want. I find myself giggling to myself at dumb things, or having a huge smile on my face while watching things, or sometimes even crying while watching things. I don't know why people like me are not the majority here.

>>9149295

yeah. it's really too bad that disgusting pieces of shit like to insult young girls on the internet. just to make themselves feel better.

>>9149301
I wish I was a NEET, but I don't have any enablers. My best bet is to save a lot and then NEET for a time and then unNEET and save again.

But I don't think you can take it easy if you know your NEET days are coming to a definite end at a certain time, even if that time is far away.

>>9149064
why are you so concerned about looking good or gender performance when superlatively drab, boring, uninteresting clothing is par course for acceptance (unless you want to "be a girl". not just wear "feminine" clothing).

most of the public ultimately won't comment or hassle you on your clothing decisions as long as you're upholding basic decency standards, and if they are you should really consider moving to a less conservative area

>>9149311
Even a year is a long time when you live it one day at a time. I don't see myself living a life other than this (with my parents providing) for at least the next five years or so. After that I'm sure I'll be able to either apply for some kind of benefits, find some kind of work from home, or rent out the house to just live quietly in a studio apartment. I want nothing more than that.

Love doesn't lead to the dark side. Passion can lead to rage and fear, and can be controlled, but passion is not the same thing as love.

Controlling your passions while being in love, that's what they should teach you to beware, but love itself will save, not condemn you.

>>9149348
i love you, wrggle!

>>9149311
Life had a definite end at a certain time, even if that time is far away.

How does the NEET argument make any more sense?

I'm not planning to live past the point where I can't be supported.

I don't know if my emotions are genuine. It is incredibly upsetting.

I finally don't want to die, maybe that's a good thing.

The only emotion that I can feel nowadays is fear. When I wanna feel like a human again, I just fire up a horror movie and get scared shitless. Otherwise, I'm as emotional as a Japanese robot.

>/jp/

>>9148841
>depression
>no emotions

I do feel emotion, but it is like they are suppressed. I'm so sad all the time, but I can't ever cry.

I used to be depressed about various things.

These days I just don't care.

I think I liked it better back then.

I feel emotions too much which is why I became a shut in.