/jp/ - Otaku Culture

Do it now instead.

But delete your thread first.

I'd like to say I care, but I don't. Don't get me wrong OP: I don't hate you and I'm not trying to be edgy or whatever, but these threads have lost all meaning.

Good luck with whatever it is you want, I guess.

You won't live long, my son.

how did you lose your job?

>>8927905

There already is a suicide thread. Please condense.

>alpha/beta blockers

you probably won't die, google "the peaceful pill handbook", that has some good advice in it

if you don't kill yourself by immolation you don't deserve gensokyo

Have a safe trip.

>do board redirects to polite posters, and rage about trivial issues
>complain about saten and homu threads
>don't say anything about suicide threads
>call people having fun shitposters
>use greentext to annoy the tryhards
>/jp/

>>8927905
A large dose of Clonidine will make anyone pass out no matter what tolerance you might have.

>>8927937
"and fall from somewhere high".

Read the full post anon, he's not suggesting the overdose will kill him. Some people like to get drugged up and / or drunk before they sit on a traintrack / jump off something.

>>8927905
Shouldn't you try to collect a bit more of informations before going to Gensokyo? It would be a shame to kill yourself now, I think.
If you want a reason to live, just remember that there's still lots of lolis to uncov.. discover.

>>8927964
Am I trying too hard if I politely ask you to write your future posts as prose? I mean, I think you should have respect for the intelligence of your peers. But only if that's okay and stuff.

>>8927964
Who are you quoting?

I wish I could truly believe I will end up in Gensokyo or Aqua in my afterlife. But there is no afterlife ;_;

>>8927919

How did you post my thoughts before I posted, Anon?!

But yeah. For what it's worth, Anon, there's no shame in living with your parents. Americans these days are just too accustomed to rolling in money. It isn't realistic with today's economy. It doesn't help that the projected employment rate for "young people" (which iirc is like 20-26ish) is like 50%

So, yeah. Its your life, do what you want, but it doesn't have to end like this if you don't want it to

I think your decision would be very different if you weren't in pain, OP.

>>8927986

Sure there is. Just most people would probably say it sucks.

>>8927964

That's neo-neo-/jp/ for you. You gotta be autist to play in this league.

And OP, don't be an ass, your bullshit isn't worth killing yourself over. Hell, I'm 27, never been employed, NEET for years now and still live with my parents. The medical stuff sounds like a bitch, but at least you have fucking marketable skills and some hope for the future, unlike some /jp/sies.

>>8927905
OP HERE
What makes you think that? I'm not in constant pain, that's what my meds are for.
But sometimes I run out of them because of economic problems and... it fucking hurts a lot, both physically and mentally. And no, my government won't pay for neuropathic meds.

My decision has to do with me giving a fuck about myself probably. I have nothing of my own (except computers, consoles, games, and that shit), no one to protect, no family... who will care if at least isn't /jp/?

>>8927905
I know your feel OP but please don't do it. Your parents will be heartbroken if you do it. I will be sad, too... Please don't!

In that case, then, I think the prospect of pain returning is influencing your decision. At least wait until you actually have to deal with running out of meds.

Just get a new job already then weekend nerd. Also living with your parents is one of the most tired first world problems.

Don't know about your chronic pain, but I'm sure some people live with worse daily. They probably never even had a decent sysadmin/programmer job either.

If you're just doing it for attention (like 90% of suicide attempts), just make sure you don't do it in a way that'll leave you handicapped for the rest of your life. That'll also get in the way if you ever decide to actually commit suicide.

If you're planning to survive, go see a doctor about those issues. In the worst case situation they can still put you on painkillers to at least remove the symptoms of whatever you're suffering from.

If you're planning to die, know that you're an idiot for wasting a young human life that could be used for many useful things. Make sure to at least become an organ donor so your body will still help somebody.

>>8927905
Don't be hypocrite please. You know with economic/health problems getting a new job it's no so easy.

If you're going to kill yourself, OP at least do it in a way that keeps your organs fresh and intact. you can save the lives of half a dozen. Jumping off a building bruises and cause internal bleeding effectively making them useless.

>>8928065
>know that you're an idiot for wasting a young human life that could be used for many useful things.

Stay delusioned bro

>>8928042
>>drugtan1.jpg

Oh dude I love drug-tan! She's so funny.

>>8928033
OP definitely is retarded when you think of it like this (among other reasons).

You need to find something noble to live and fight for, OP.

Time to join the Revolution.

I was rummaging around my room for something to draw on, and I found a large pad of sketch paper.

I opened it up and found one of my projects from back when I was studying architecture before dropping out four years ago.

I don't regret this decision, but fuck, somehow seeing my old work made me unbearably sad.

>>8927905
You pro-organ donors: Have you read the thread? I'm already sick (neuropathy = nerve damage).

>>8928094
Why in Gods name would you quit studying architecture.
Thats like 1 of the best things you can study and earn good money later.

Feel free to answer please, I have interest.

Think about the pain you'll cause to your family OP.

In my case they are the only reason why I haven't crossed the portal yet.


>>8927986
But there is. We are made of star-stuff dood, when you die and rot you are returning to endless cycle of the universe.

But yeah, if Gensokyo is unattainable, then I think simple oblivion will do nicely.

Do you want to go to Gensokyo, or do you just want to die?

Well, you probably don't believe in Gensokyo, so maybe it's just the latter. In that case, it's fine.

I wish you the best, OP... Good luck on your journey.

>>8927905
Yes, I'm retarded. So is you. Your point being?

It sounds like you're just a bitch ass nigga, OP. Quit being a busta and be a neet

>>8928106
His heart is most likely no good however his liver and kidneys should be fine. Maybe his pancreas if we're lucky.

>>8928112
Because if I didn't I would have killed myself by now.

Really, a host of problems ranging from my own personal issues, issues with the particular university I was studying at, and the prospects for the future in the country I live in.

I'm a NEET spending his time on /jp/ and that's a huge improvement over the kind of person I was before I dropped out.

>>8927905
My family doesn't care about me. They only provide me shelter because they have no other option.

>>8928121
Gensokyo, but I know there is nothing when you die. Anyway, I'm fine with that tough.

>>8928143
hmmm, well at least you don't regret it.
Maybe you can pick it up again in future , who knows.

>>8928033

I just wanted to add to this: 'you have so much to live for' is limp and trite, but it's true. Who knows what the future might bring- lolibots, nanoconstructed /jp/ Mansions where /jp/sies get to be the little girls in moe artificial bodies, Otome Function. Who knows how many more Touhous ZUN has left in him?

Look, I don't normally do this for suicide threads. But from your filename I know you're a fellow Reimu fan, and I genuinely don't want you to die. You should at least sleep on this.

If OP is so desperate for attention he wants to start a shitty suicide thread on /jp/, he deserves to die.

>>8928148
>>My family doesn't care about me. They only provide me shelter because they have no other option.

It's annoying when people say this. They would have thrown you out long ago if they didn't care.

Plus people act like their parents felt nothing from raising them from a baby into an adult. They wouldn't have wiped your ass back then if they didn't care either.

OP, go find other patients who have trouble getting meds and start a movement to claim them from the government.

I'm not trying to stop you OP, but your death would probably cause more harm than good for the people you know. You might not know many, but it will definitely hurt those who do. Don't forget that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem; if you try and wait it out and try your best to deal with life, you might find something worth living for. It might takes weeks, months, years, decades... But something great will happen to you and your life one day.
Please reconsider your possible actions OP.

>>8928164
>deserves to die.
The people on your list must be very many.

>>8927905
If you live in America, your medication might become a lot more affordable in the future if Obamacare doesn't get turned over. There are also work-from-home opportunities that are open to people with chronic medical conditions. I hope you end up deciding that this isn't the end of the line for you.

If you're going to die anyway, at least go out with a bang. Rape some loli or something, get some last bit of good out of your life.

>>8928228
I'm too awkward to do something like that unfortunately. Or fortunately if you look from the moral-society-civilized perspective.

>>8928176
They tried, but couldn't. Economics didn't help us, so I had to stay. Do the math.

>>8928159
But that's all we do. Myself at least, did sleep for too long.

>>8928094
Same for me recently, but it was just calculus 2 work. It wasn't hard for me, I just got bored and gave up. I now work a bottom-tier job. I don't regret it though.

>>8928148
So you want to go to Gensokyo, but you can't believe in it. Well, that's kind of a shame... Even if you assume that Gensokyo is real, suicide wouldn't get you there. It'd just take you to the Sanzu River.

But, Anon? I definitely won't pressure you not to kill yourself. To me, life and death are just two different sides of the same coin.

What I will do, is wish you happiness, even if it's only a little.

Perhaps, if you could learn to dream again. When you were a kid, weren't you able to get lost in your fantasies about things that you can't believe in anymore? And, surely, those things brought you happiness.

If you're going to die anyway, then it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of you. Try to go back to those days, and get lost in happy dreams again, and you just might be able to see how small this world is.

>>8928262
If you don't believe in Gensokyo how could you hope to get there? Make yourself believe. Make it true and real, and if you still aren't happy, then let go of the world before you for that one.

>>8928262

Yeah, I know what that's like. For whatever it's worth, I've had suicidal thoughts as well, for a bit over a decade now. For a while it was a daily thing. I'm sure you're going through some real shit.

But right now, I'm glad I never went through with suicide. Maybe it'll happen eventually. But for now I still hope to get my life back together somehow. Anyway, that's all I wanted to say. You know how easy it is to procrastinate? Procrastinate on this. You can always kill yourself some other time. Night, OP.

>>8927905

Don't do it OP. I'm sorry to hear about your condition, but there are people around the globe trying to find ways to fix problems like yours. And if you have been employed already twice, you can find a job again.

>>8927995
>For what it's worth, Anon, there's no shame in living with your parents.

True. In many cultures that's considered normal.

>>8928159
>But from your filename I know you're a fellow Reimu fan, and I genuinely don't want you to die. You should at least sleep on this

Same here. Just wait few days and the feeling will pass. Imagine someone else in your situation and think what sort of advices you would give the person. This might help you to find a solution to your own problems.

>>8927905
Thanks for your kind words but I'm just another number (given the perspective I could make a difference.. but again.. would it really?)

>>8927905
LOL you make it sounds thats its not hope at all doesnt you?

>>8927905
Hey OP where do you live, I'm sure one of these anons would take you in and only request some menial labor in return such as manly wood cutting in the woods or cooking.

At least take a bunch of faggots who deserve it with you

>>8928875
Argentina

>>8929080
Still living with your parents on motherfucking Argentina? How did you manage that? Weren't you encouraged to find the shittiest job you could, marry and have a kid as soon as possible? At least that's how I think things are around here.

B-but, if you die now OP, you won't get to play 2hu 14.

>>8929208
13 was fucking terrible, why wait?

Have you gotten your fill of people sucking your e-cock yet OP? You could get attention in other ways too you know. The 'I'm suicidal' thing has been played to death on /jp/.

>>8927905
lol you're from here don't you?

and to your question, no, I did it all on my own

I want to cum on Reimu's feet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>8929268
baka! ...don't say things like that!

>>8929352
i want to to cum on her feet, then have her rub her cummy feet together and use my cum as foot moisturizer!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>8929365

>>8929365
oh yeah, well i want to hold her close and whisper sweet nothings in her ear, and have her fall asleep in my arms while we watch tv late at night.

god im so lonely.

Make another thread Monday at least, OP.

One less Reimu fan in the world can only bring good things.

がんばってね、アノン

>>8929389
So frustrated.

>>8928086
congratz on the marriage man

Did that guy from a few months ago with the Helium tank go through with it?

I think he was throwing a party for himself, too.

>>8927905
I shall not die until this monday, I have everything planned...

>>8927905
OP how about killing some jews?
It's a noble cause to die for.

Don't do it. If you were gainfully employed in that line of work that means you're actually an intelligent human being that can offer something special amidst of sea of similarly trained individuals. With the way the world economy is at present, there's no reason to beat yourself up over being laid off. It's just a fact of life. You have to keep going.

Ha you're going to die because you lost a job, you feel sad, and the last thing you'll ever talk to is jp. You honestly think of yourself that lowly? All the years you've been living were just a waste? Everything? You can't rise up from a tight situation to at least continue to exist? It's sad jp, when a one kills his/her self for something so small, when you could have at least 30 or more years to live in quite good health and happiness.

>>8929835
C'mon OP? This is life we're talking about. You'll miss out on not just something, you will miss out on Everything brother. Or in your naivete you think it'll be easy to escape in this imaginary world by dying? Is heaven for the weak who just give up? When there is too much potential, just too much, too just drop because of what? You lost a job. Get another one, and in any case you can still eat and breathe right?

>>8929835
Don't you fucking quit when some people in this world are desperately fighting for what you've got, you weak-ass son of a bitch. We are all going through shit, fight dammit.

>>8929268
>>8929365
YOU
I've been waiting for YOU.
I KNEW you'd show up.
YOU

>>8927905
Im not even oficially unnemployed yet. Those are details.

I have no one to talk to about this, My family will better if I'm dead. it should be enough for me.

>>8927905
You can take all away from me when I'm dead
its a win-win right?

>>8929850
>you will miss out on Everything brother.
hulk hogan pls go

>>8929865
Oh so you're not fucking unemployed and the family who loves you wants you dead?
You stupid or something? Can you add 2+2 together? Can you remember any good memories in your life and be willing to have all of that gone before you even experience a meager fraction of what you can do in this world? Or is it just feeling? A temporary feeling that will make you do something you can never undo, and will prevent you from achieving any sort of happiness?

Please have fun in Gensokyo, op!
Best luck and don't worry about people in this thread!

Suicide over getting laid off and having some disease? C'MON SON. People have gone through shit 10x worse and lived happy lives.

Also, 26 isn't really that old to be living with your parents. I've seen relatively successful 30 year olds with a job that still live with their folks. It's just not something that people admit to or discuss.

>>8929880
lol I consider humanity an extensive brotherhood or sisterhood

>>8929894

>and lived happy lives

More like lived miserable lives, pretended to be happy and were to scared to off themselves, dying instead of a painful drawn out disease in old age and lamenting their sad life.

>>8929885
It is because It will become impossible for me to enjoy that again.

>>8929902

too*

>>8929905
and why is that? Don't be overdramatic and do something stupid as a result

>>8929911

Read the whole thread. Wiki nerve damage. add low self esteem.

OP! We all love you and want best for you - Gensokyo!
People who ask you to don't do it are jealous of your courage! We know you can do it!

>>8929919

Yeah like I said, overdramatic. We're not talking about cutting ourselves, this guy wants to stop living because of a bit of low self esteem and nerve damage. A poor sense in judgement, a lack of insight in his own existence, and an utter disregard for the well-being of all close relatives and people who have given everything, in living conditions shittier than his, just to be able to hold on to priceless life

>>8929902
Yep. You don't enjoy your life so it's impossible that anyone else enjoys theirs. They're all just pretending and in denial.

>>8929936
Sorry for being pissed OP, but I find life, especially human life, a miracle, a beautiful system of emotion, power, potential, and equilibrium that is just a shame to destroy for something stupid like this. You have memories? You can feel happiness? Look toward that in the future, but once you throw it away it's all gone. It can't come back.

OP, tonight you made me tear up.

I've been considering suicide too. I just got scammed out of a bunch of money for being a trusting and naive little NEET, and now I have nothing. I have to get a job to pay the bank back or I'll die. And while that isn't so bad, I've actually tried to get jobs before and I can't because I am too awkward and lack schooling.

Not even Walmart of McDonalds will hire me. I spend every day doing nothing, telling myself I'll die tomorrow.

Well, OP, you reminded me that I could have died today instead of enjoying myself, and that someday soon I'll have to face the music. If you are in Gensokyo, OP, I will join you soon. I hope we can be friends in that world.

>>8929080
Que pena OP. Me hubiera gustado cebarte unos mates y hablar y boludear.

Oh bueno, uno menos supongo.

>>8929943
You stubbornly persist to prove a point? To get failed, sympathetic attention? Because god dammit Op you have no excuse for pursuing love and happiness in your life. Hell, you have a family, you've got love. You'll crush that. You'll crush everything that you've worked for and everything that you can do.

>>8929948
>I just got scammed out of a bunch of money for being a trusting and naive little NEET, and now I have nothing.
What happened?

Well, I've said enough. It's your decision in the end but god dammit is it a stupid decision. Everything gone because of a fucking job being lost and my moral conscious cannot just accept it as something to brush past and not say anything of. It's not like you can't build yourself up, instead you just bitch and whine about how sad you are under circumstances you can't control and cease to exist. No, don't fight to continue enjoying life just lay down and dissappear that will solve everything. Yeah, because the beautiful things that you can and have experienced are that useless to you. I tried, and I hope you at least take some words into consideration

>>8929948

Being homeless is superior to working a slave-like job

>>8927905

Why'd you lose your job, OP? But Neuropathic pain sounds pretty shitty...have you considered trying to get on autismbucks and spending your money on somewhat dangerous drugs like meth, heroin, ketamine, etc, until it all just collapses and you die?

But, I can understand your desire to escape as soon as possible. I hope you'll find peace in death.

>>8929981
>Being homeless is superior to working a slave-like job
No it's not. Being homeless is like working a slave-like job 24/7.

>>8929989
>>8929981
Better a slave than a slav.

>>8929989

Have you been homeless before?

>>8929995
I'm gonna rape your ass with my slav dick, anonymous. Someday, just you wait.

>>8929998
Nope, but working is just boring, no worse really. Being homeless would be boring, too. Having privacy, a nice comfy bed, and a computer to play on is the greatest feeling known to man.

>>8929981
that's very like my situation arcueid

Sage

If you you've hit rock bottom, then the only way to go is up.

>>8930093
Protip: There's no such thing as rock bottom.

Well okay there is, but that's in North Korea

>>8930014

>Working is just boring

I think you mean "fucking miserable". But maybe I just have a horrible, horrible aversion to spending my time folding towels for 8 hour chunks.

If I was homeless, at least every day would be an adventure.

>>8930089
Normals woke up and now they are ruining good thread.

>>8930104
>I think you mean "fucking miserable"
Man, if you think folding towels for 8 hours is "fucking miserable" you've lived an incredibly pleasant life. Folding towels is such a neutral activity. It is really not much worse (if at all) than standing around doing nothing for 8 hours, especially considering you're getting paid for it. As such, it is boring, and nowhere near miserable.

>If I was homeless, at least every day would be an adventure.
Well, nobody's stopping you. But you'll look back at the times when you thought folding towels was miserable and want to punch yourself for giving that up.

>>8930104
cool, an adventure. beats dying

>>8930123

I've stood around doing nothing for 8 hours; it's much more enjoyable than doing something like folding towels.

If I had to do that every day, I wouldn't be able to relax or sleep at night knowing I'd be doing it again when I woke up.

I'm literally laughing at myself at how ridiculous that sounds, but I really just fucking hate retail and food service jobs that much. They're miserable-I don't know how people can stand to do such boring, unpleasant shit everyday for minimum wage.

Don't do it

Go out into the woods and be homeless for a while. You'll find something to appreciate in life

>>8930129

I worked at a salmon farm stripping the eggs out of fish for about a month. From 7am to 6pm 6 days a week you're just squeezing caviar out of these fish that won't stay still.

One night I woke up thinking I was stripping a fish and I had my hands around my head trying to squeeze it like it like a fish.
So yeah, shit like that sucks. If I did that my whole life I'd drown myself in the fish pond.

On the plus side I earned almost $200 a day.

>>8927905

Dude, life can be shit, but there's always another way... Give it some time, think it over, try doing fun stuff, ENJOY yourself!! You live with your parents, right? They should understand and give you some time off, I guess. But if you're determined, I have nothing else to say...

>>8930179
I love caviar.

>>8930179

Were you in Alaska?

At least wait until 12/21/12 OP

>>8930188

I got some for free while I was there, also some smoked salmon. I ate the salmon but I gave the caviar to my parents because I dislike it.

>>8930193

Australia, hence the high rate of pay.

OP you could die fighting for a revolution. A revolution to make the government build maid cafe everywhere in the world. A law to add maid in every cities. I WANT YOU FOR THE MAID WORLD

>>8928176
congrats on the marriage

>>8927905
whats her name?

>>8930560
Cirno

>>8930579

don't go please
stay with us
please

Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
...
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

Good luck with whatever you try to do OP. If you're going to check out early though, go out with a bang and an emo soundtrack playin'.