/jp/ - Otaku Culture

I think everyone here owns a handgun
its not hard to get if you go to a gunshow

I look forward to my daily late night shows and eating junk food.

It's just enough motivation to keep me breathing.

I'm only 19 and I already want to just kill myself.

Chances are you have Medicare so you can get free depression medication. The ones I have make all I feel turn numb.

everybody has been treating me like shit my whole life. I don't even want to do anything anymore. Its just easier to die.

I either sleep or get drunk and go to /jp/

momentum

Dying is such a hassle.

>>8536789
This is basically how I've been doing it, but I've been slowly running out of momentum over the years. Less than slowly these last couple weeks, actually.

Guys I have the answer to depression. I had it so fucking bad for years then one day my mom got some bananas and decided to eat them. Then a few days later I noticed myself getting happier and I had no idea why. I then looked up the nutrition and make up of bananas and it turns out they have a chemical that gets converted into serotonin for us when we eat it.

I urge you guys to go out or some how grocery shop online for some bananas. I wish I could show you guys that they can help you like they did with me. I am still eating them today and I havent felt depressed like I did for years before.

I remember when I was depressed, when I was 15 and in school. After I dropped out my life has only gotten better. It really is the small things that counts. Nothing makes me happier than relaxing with a drink while browsing /jp/ with my window open and seeing the trees and blue sky outside and smelling the fresh air.

>>8536802
I bought a banana once but only so that I could put it up my butt when I got home.

http://fuuka.warosu.org/jp/?task=search2&ghost=&search_text=%22%2Fjp%2F+is+shit%22&searc
h_ord=old

>>8536802
I'm allergic to bananas. My throat swells up and my lips itch.

>>8536802
This.

In fact, getting up from your chair and doing whatever inside your room is enough. The more inactive you get, the more melancholic. That "What? I have to get up? I can't! Preposterous!" moment is only a moment of madness, make that decision and get up, walk around the room for a bit and then sit back down.

I went to a free therapist place last monday. It took almost two hours and the lady diagnosed me with having a social phobia and depression. She suggested I take the group therapy thing and well.. I'm sure you guys know how I felt about that so I won't be going back.

What sucks is this was my last ditch effort at changing. It took months to work up the courage to even schedule an appointment. I guess at this point I'm just going to live as long as I can like this.

Honestly, I used to feel the same way. I got over it by just forcing myself to exercise and go to school. It feels better to feel good about doing shit you don't want to than it does to feel bad about not doing shit you should.

Happiness is relative.

I just recently got out of a 72 hour lock down. Should I sign up for SSI or just kill myself? Though I do not have enough motivation to even carry either out - just thought I'd blog for a bit.

i've collected a bunch of stuff to kill myself with. I have it all sitting in my closet, but I can't seem to finish it.

It would be so much easier if /jp/ would have an offline suicide meeting.

>>8536864
Happiness is not exist

I still have a stupid bit of hope that things will get better OP. Every day a little more of that hope dies. There isn't much left now....
I wish I could go back to school, get a job, or anything really. Or have just one friend I could talk to in real life. Trying to change my life for the better isn't really working. Trying over and over again just to fail kills off that hope faster than anything.

>>8536802

Bananas are okay, but they don't really do anything for me.

>>8536816

I do this every 20 minutes. It probably doesn't count if I do it because I hate sitting still though, right?

Why haven't you killed yourself? I'm not trying to be an asshole, but honestly, when life is unquestionably more painful than it is pleasurable, that's when people kill themselves. So you're either still in a better position than you'd like to outwardly admit, or you're full of shit.

Dissociation.

It's why I'm a soulless prick most of the time.

I'm scared of dying.

what's the problem with your life guys

When i fell depressed i play touhou gta san andreas.

Go back to GameFAQs and roleplay, jackass.

>>8537866
Go back to GameFAQs and roleplay, jackass.

>>8537890
I'm actually posting on GameFAQs right now.

Problem?

>>8537866
Frig OFF!!

>>8537892
I do not have a problem with you being a homosexual, no.

>>8537892

who gives a shit reported

I'm scared of the pain that inevitably comes with suicide, even though I know I won't feel anything after I'm dead.

>>8537899
why are you mad nerd

Reported

>>8537900
Pansexual, bro.

It's a pretty big difference. You should try to remember it.

>>8537916

>>8537901
If your life is consistently painful enough that you're going to earnestly consider suicide, then the pain of killing yourself is nothing short of economical. You feel less pain in the long run and it's just the wiser choice in that case. But this is only assuming you genuinely have a reason and strong desire to kill yourself. If you're just being a little bitch that quietly recognizes you still have a fair deal to keep yourself going, and perhaps even the opportunity (few and difficult as they may be) to improve your situation, then you're just being an attention whore for claiming you're going to kill yourself. It's not a terribly complex situation, honestly. Either your situation is so horrendous you deserve a way out of the pain, or you're being a fucking retard that may really just want a hug to keep his ass going. Only you know which is more likely to be true.

>>8537906
pansexuality is when the guy tries to trick himself he doesn't care about appearance/gender, right?

>>8537929
In my case, it's more like I'm too psychologically broken to maintain a strong preference from one moment to the next.

>>8537928
>>8537916
These are amazing. Why have I not seen them before?

>>8537906
Hipsterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, you are just bisexual.

>>8537906
You're willing to gargle semen in your mouth either way, and thus your presence unsightly even here.

>>8537944
Lol, he's wearing a 4chan shirt.
What a westaboo.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE

>>8537940
Suck my cock, dude.

I am depressed that I go to a terrible University, I have no friends, that my University course is 5 years and I'll be 24(!!!) when I finish.

>>8537960

>>8537960
lol I will be 24 years this year .
that's not old dude

>>8537945
Because I'm fairly sure I am the first person to post those two specific comics on 4chan.
Pictures for Sad Children gets some attention though.

http://www.picturesforsadchildren.com/index.php?comicID=1
http://boohooboo.tumblr.com/page/2

>>8537960
There are people in there 40s that don't have a degree. There are people in there 20s that don't even have a highschool diploma. Stop being stupid for a moment; you'll quickly recognize you're doing just fine for yourself.

>>8537960
>I am depressed that I go to a terrible University, I have no friends, that my University course is 5 years and I'll be 24(!!!) when I finish.
But that's perfectly normal, you normalfag scum.

>>8537960
I'm 25 and I still have a whole year of uni ahead of me. Even though my degree is close to useless I'm just incredibly grateful I managed to lead a carefree student life until now. I'll probably just off myself or something when this is over.

>>8536855
>social phobia
>group therapy

Brilliant! This why I won't see any psychologists. They will either laugh at me and my '1st World Problems' or force me into embarrassing situations like this.

>>8537981

>>8537987
Better than a psychiatrist. Ask a battery of questions without bothering to build trust or get to know the patient, make a snap diagnosis, and send you off with a random prescription or two. Probably for SSRIs.

Hardly a surprise that overdiagnosis and misdiagnosis are such huge problems.

Seeing the US collapse so I can witness a sort of apocalypse with my own two eyes.

>>8537985
Get a masters, dumbass. Just stay in academia if you love it that much. Besides, it can't all be stress free. Coping with the pressure of pumping out essays is still a transferable skill of "putting up with bullshit effectively." You'll do fine even if you can't keep inside a learning environment.

Psychologists are for people that want to actually face their problems. If you're not strong enough to do it alone, but you're too weak (or not yet desperate enough) to seek help, then you're in a stagnant situation. Or one that slowly deteriorates. I know as much from experience.

I guess I'm just in the minority, but I've never found the NEET lifestyle to be depressing. Actually the time I've spent as one has been some of the happiest time I've had. The only thing that ever does depress me is when I think I won't be able to maintain it, but there's no reason I shouldn't be able to at least for the foreseeable future.

>>8538018
And for how long have you been NEET. I'm curious.

>>8537958
I love these videos!

>>8538024
He's been a NEET all summer ex dee.

>>8538018
People always say this but there are highs and lows. Sometimes you feel great and free and like you can do anything from your bedroom because you've 'beaten' the social system and won real life.
Other times you will feel completely miserable that you're ageing and haven't done anything and nobody really cares about you and you're only experiencing a tiny slice of the pie life has to offer.

Putting up with these bipolar states is the curse of being a NEET.

>>8538018
NEET life is great: you have to do nothing. But it's hard. Society works against these kinds of people. I say that assuming the person isn't leeching from his parents.

>>8537906
While I admit it's different, it's not a "big" difference.

>>8538038
Not every NEET is you.

NEET life is different for different people. For me, it has been a way of avoiding the consequences of the actions I would no doubt take were I to interact with others on a regular basis.

I get banned from some websites within a day. Most within a week. Just from being myself. I don't set out to cause trouble, but that's how it is.

My behavior is the same in person. I have narrowly avoided prison up to this point, so self-imposed isolation was the obvious choice.

Still, I hate being alone. I like to observe people. I like to antagonize people. You can't do these things alone. At least I can observe just by lurking online, but antagonism is always met with consequences.

It's a difficult life, but the prison I have created for myself is much more pleasant than the prison which would be provided for me otherwise.

>>8538068
>Not every NEET is you.
Stopping reading/caring right there.

>>8536917
>I wish I could go back to school
This so much.

I keep on living because I just wake up everyday.

I wish I could just disappear, and that every trace of my existence would be eliminated, like I never existed.

The worst part is that I have no real goals in life and I don't care about social relationships, so working and studying doesn't seem logic to me, I just do it because I'm forced to.

I would be conform with just a small shack, with food and internet. But happy?, I can't be happy in this reality, not when my mind and dreams have shown me such marvelous worlds.

The Armageddon can't come soon enough.

>>8538113
This is actually the most idiotic collection of thoughts I have ever had the displeasure of reading on 4chan. It's like you set out to write something both immature and small-minded while trying to seem grandiose.

Damn.

>>8538137
So I'm guessing this is your first time on /jp/.

>>8538137
pfft. Bitch, you haven't see me try yet.

>>8537960
I started university just after a worked and made a schooling for office executive. And believe me, in my university there are a ton of old people. And with old I mean people about 40~60 years old. There are even many of them in the same study path I do.
And I have no real freinds there too. so I guess that's pretty normal.

>>8538154

He tries on the internet!

Me? I haven't left my house in a total of six months and I feel useless. I can't draw, I can't retain information, I can't produce music, I'm ugly and my over all personality is awful. You asked why I keep living? I just want to see what will happen next and I hope that perhaps things will magically change one day even if that sounds impossible I hope that it happens.

I'd like you guys to know you do a better job at having a pity party the actual board for such things has done in years (/r9k/).

Your time will come, although you'll need to find your motivation first.

This thread is pathetic.

Im your friend, /JP/.
Just listen

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdmNzTUnvag

>>8538648
They should post practical advices instead!

im just unlucky and can't die so i have to suffer all this HELL
that feel when im immortal

>>8538717
Only those who have been cursed with immortality know to appreciate the Gift on Men.

>>8536793
I don't want to live, but

It's horrifying that I can see the immaturity of a 20 year old now and I can't even relate to them.

>>8538788
What do you even mean?

>>8536893
like in nhk.

but we need a mailing group to all meet up.
im in maybe. we can all stay connected so much as to decide to die wen we all feel like it

anyone in

>>8537866
get out of jp tripfag

www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wmONSYvRmw

Have some tea and enjoy the nostalgia. It's really never too late to relive your childhood.

That beam of light is just ridiculous. With sucha wide screen and less than half an inch of, it should be spreading out nearly evenly in the room.

I don't even have the motivation to get out of bed these days.

Everything that I want to do I can't due to money or social ineptitude, and I lack the will to fix either.

/jp/ - Depression and Autism

>>8538816
See you on the other side, anon.

This thread is depressing. I wish I could graduate sooner so that I could already become a psychiatrist and help you guys.

>>8538816
Do it tomorrow.

I live for fun. I'm scared of dying because i'm scared of missing on possible fun. That's about it.

>>8538068
fuck off tripfag

Guys, guys, guys!
Why all the hate?
Take it easy!

>>8538858
FRIG

OFF

>>8538825
how can your pseudo science help me find a job?

I dunno, I just like doing fun things because they're fun.

Try doing some fun things, OP.

>>8538825
I've talked to therapist and they are incapable of understanding saying that I'm just depressed which I already know.

I have all the negative symptoms of schizophrenia but none of the of positive ones. Thinking's so bloody hard these days. I keep forgetting words so I just stop mid sentence and give up (not that I've spoken very much during the last 6 months). Sometimes I find myself staring at things without a single thought in my head. I also can't stand going outside because I feel like everyone is talking about me behind my back.

I know this isn't just depression since I've had that for years. Besides, I don't even feel bad these days.

>>8539151

This is kind of happening to me, too, except that I've always been kind of psychotic and I've been sleep deprived for about two months. I've heard that sleep deprivation can really fuck you up.

You guys should really just learn to be happy with what you've got. I was depressed a while back but once I realized how nice I've got it I became a lot more happier.

Really, what's so depressing in your lives? No friends? No future? It's not hard to make friends and it's never to late to change your life.

>>8539177
>It's not hard to make friends

>>8539181
I really have no idea what you're trying to point out with that greeentext there. Maybe if you didn't use it like that you'd be able to form sentences.

>>8539177
Easier said than done.

Why haven't you bought this book yet, /jp/?
http://www.amazon.com/Dude-Youre-Fag-Masculinity-Sexuality/dp/0520252306

>>8539196
It's pretty clear what he's pointing out. Stop nitpicking.

>>8539202
In the end you'll probably realise that it's easier to be happy alone. No amount of people around you is going to magically make you happier. You need to make yourself happy by doing things you enjoy.

>>8539206
No, I really have no idea. You've wasted two posts trying to get your point across without saying anything as to what it actually is. Why not stop being childish and just state what the problem is?

It's funny because we'd be able to support each other if we dropped our pride/shame/fears/insecurity/etc for once and gave ways for willing anons to help.

However, if we tried, all the shitposters who say /jp/ isn't a hivemind would start to say we should remain anonymous, and the insecure anons (the onest who need most help) would give up instantly.

Pretty sad.

>>8539215
>>8539217
I hope you're just messing around.

>>8539230
Why would I do that?

Depression sucks. It's like trying to get a car moving with no gas, and everyone's racing past you wondering why you're being a stupid cunt that isn't moving.

So you get out and start pushing that car, but it wears you out, and people get frustrated with you and complain that you're being a slow asshole, and you try to explain that you have no gas, but they don't really get it because their tanks have been full their entire lives. And you're gonna be alone too, since who wants to travel that slowly? And if you do get someone, she's gonna sit in the front seat and yell at you to push faster. It's what happened to me.

So you either off yourself once your legs give out, or you get a doctor to dump some pseudo-fuel in your car that'll make it go just fine, but once you stop using it, your car will run in reverse and then you're really fucked.

Most of us though get by by pushing that ugly ass car every day little by litte in our dumpy dreary lives. And every time someone roars past you, tossing a fucking soda cup or a beer bottle at you and your fucking horrible car, you just push your face to the fender and keep pushing. You come upon the wreckage of those people who went too fast, who threw shit at you and mocked you for not being able to cruise along, and you see people stopping to mourn the burning dead, but you don't feel sad, no, you just keep pushing that car, ignoring the wreckage.

Then everyone turns around and gives you disgusting looks for being so callous. Your mere existence hurts them, and the spite is enough to make you smile and keep pushing that fucking car another fifteen miles.

>>8539217
I was the original guy, not the one you just responded to. If you're really that fucking dense maybe you should take your normalfagging ass back to facebook or tumbur or wherever your kind comes from.

>>8539242
Just walk to the gas station and carry the gas back instead. It'll be a lot easier.

>>8539247
But I don't have a Facebook. I've been here since 2006. I live alone and I find ways to keep myself happy and entertained. You also seem angry for some reason, with all that swearing and namecalling and whatnot.

>>8539260
Ignore him, he's just a sad shitposter.

>>8539260
It's incredibly easy for you to say to people who are stuck in depression to say "Everything's fine" and say to people with serve social anxiety "Well just go and make friends".

Please just stop posting.

>>8539269
I mean, I don't have problems making friends (or atleast acquaintances), but if that was the one thing that was stopping me from being happy, I would think that any anxiety or whatever he's complaining about wouldn't even matter at that point.

But really, I don't know what he's complaining about from that bit of greentext. Such a shame this is how people from /a/b/v/r9k/ act when they come here.

>>8539242
Beautiful.

internet is a vast world. you'll find something interesting ;)

>>8539276
Perhaps you should become a therapist because I feel as if you understand us as a whole.

>>8539280
Perhaps you should stop pretending as if you belong here? You do not know /jp/, anon-kun.

I was feeling quite positive in my situation recently, until a few days ago when I got hit with the flu.
I don't even have the energy to express how fucking shit I feel.
Just spent the last 10 hours drifting in and out of sleep, I'm so cold right now and my eye sight is blurry and I feel rather faint.

>>8539276
This.

It's nice that you want to help others, but everything isn't always as simple as you want it to be.
If I told you to run faster than a leopard, would you be able to do it?

>>8539288
What so if you're depressed and I say everything is alright, that makes everything fine in your life? Of course it fucking doesn't.

>>8539276
Well I did have depression when I was younger. I was on medication and hated myself, all that stuff. You really need to just realize there's nothing wrong with your life. You've got internet, you've got food, a roof over your head, and a bed to sleep in. To me, that sounds like a nice life. Like I said, if there's only one thing stopping you from being happy, why are you stuck on that one thing? Just do it and get it over with.

>>8539297
O-Okay, but I never said that it did.

;_;

>>8539299
I know I live a good life, ain't going to make me enjoy it or like other people though just because I have a good life though.

>>8539301
Oh no... I misunderstood your first point as being sarcastic I'm sorry ;_;

>>8539287
Well no, because people can't run faster than a lot of animals. People are, however, naturally social. Whatever is blocking you from talking to people is something you've made up yourself to block you from whatever interaction you want to do with other people.

But really, why do you even want to be around people that badly?

>>8539299
hamsters have warm beds and roofs over their heads
doesn't mean they're necessarily loving life

That feel when the only place for you to reach out to others for sympathy is /jp/ and no one gives a fuck.

>>8539309
So what's stopping you from enjoying your life? What's the one thing you want badly enough to let it destroy your life?

>>8539305
You heard the man people, if we just put our minds to it social anxiety doesn't exist.

Yeh no, fuck off.

>>8539314
When you don't enjoy anything in life, you don't enjoy anything. I spend all the time I'm awake posting on /jp/ and doing nothing else but I don't want to do anything else, I just want to disappear.

>>8539311
You know, it's that very same kind of mentality to refuse any kind of change that's keeping you "depressed".

Anons who want to help should make temporary steam/email/AIM/MSN/etc accounts. Maybe we can do something.

We never tried before.

>>8539318
Fuck off, you unempathetic piece of shit.

>>8539312
I don't want to get sympathy, I just want to know that there are others out there feeling the same things that I am. You can feel a certain camaraderie in threads like this.

>>8539320
Surely there is one thing in life you enjoy. Nobody lives their life angry and hating everything. When you were younger, what did you do to pass the time?

>>8539325
If you're only posting for empathy you may want to try some other site or a therapist or something. Maybe even your own parents.

>>8539335
I spent all my childhood locked up in my room playing video games, escapism is great until you finally become bored of it.

>>8539328
Why? So we can get a guy like in this thread telling us how easily he made a life for himself, so you should be able to as well? Of course he knows your feel, he was on some antidepressants when he was 11!

Just go outside bro all your problems will be magically solved.

>>8539339
and then you feel as if you're trapped in some sort of cage.

>>8539335
Great, you don't even know what empathy is.

I can no longer go outside without my whole body burning and my heart racing unnaturally.

Still thinking back to school, all the times I skipped class for weeks out of fear, spent all day cowering in bed then had teachers lump me in with the truants who skipped class to smoke.

Should have known then I had issues, but that faint ray of light never went away, the hope that some day things will magically just get better for no real reason, that this is a temporary rough patch and any day now I'll wake up bursting with confident, ready to go out and take full advantage of life, forgetting all the bad days like they never happened.

Well... I still have hope for some reason, but for how much longer is uncertain.

To step outside this comfort zone is terrifying. It isn't even that appealing, as well... but I know I need some kind of help. Problem is the nature of the beast means I couldn't even begin to speak to a therapist without immediately bursting into tears.

People who don't believe social anxiety is "real" probably have not experienced 10 unrelenting years of it.

>>8539340
I don't really feel as if I'm trapped, I don't want to get better. I don't want to live a normal happy life, I just want to escape into my imagination and dreams forever. ;_;

>>8539339
I never liked attaching words to things no matter how similar they are. Maybe you just enjoyed playing video games. It doesn't have to be escapism.

>>8539349
Nope, I only enjoy playing video games because I can completely switch off, I don't think about my shitty ass life when playing games, I'm the hero in the adventure, I don't feel I exist when I get fully immersed into a game that's the only reason I enjoy them.

>>8539356
Maybe you should try roleplaying or something.

>>8539343
You really are very angry, you know that?

>>8539359
Yeh, because I can make a living off roleplaying can't I? And I would be such a good roleplayer when I can't even hold a conversation in real life with another person.

>>8539359
Maybe you should fuck off.

>>8539364
So in the end you want to make a living? Do you have any kinds of skills at all?

>>8539365
Please go

>>8539367
>>>/soc/
>>>/b/
>>>/tumblr/

>>8539359
I am angry
I'm angry because I can't enjoy things like normals can, so I want to make normals unable to enjoy things either.

If I didn't have so much anxiety from going outside I would probably have an extensive criminal history by now. The best part is relatives tell me how impressed they are that I haven't gotten in trouble with the law like my mother did, if only they knew.

>>8539367
No I don't want to make a living, I want to die. But telling me I should go roleplay is stupid, that doesn't solve anything, even if I do find something I enjoy I need money for that, where do you suppose I'm going to get that from?

>>8539343
No, we would try to help. No one in their right mind would do what you said (I hope).

We would try to be supportive and understanding. We could also play games if no one feels like talking about anything. Just being able to make company would be good.

>>8539373
I agree with you slightly, it sounds stupid but I enjoy looking down on normals and hating other people.

>>8539372
pls go

>>8539373
So in the end, you want to be a normal person or what?

>>8539379
So if you want to die why don't you kill yourself?

>>8539397
I need to kill you before I can rest in peace.

>>8539397
Because I'm too much of a pussy. I'm scared of physical pain, I'm not scared of death I pray every night when I go to sleep that I just won't wake up in the morning.

>>8539379

Dunno why you got so defensive over some guy suggesting roleplay.
You did mention you enjoy gaming as a form of escapism.
I do too.
And you know, most mmo's have RP servers.
RP is great for immersion and a good form of escapism, however it also gives you a mild form of social contact, in that you are at least interacting with others and not just point click slaying computer generated monsters.

>>8539406
Escapism and addiction isn't something you should encourage.

>>8539406
If you're RPing I think it's easier to interact with people because you know the limits of your character and how they would respond in any given situation.

>>8539403
So just look for a painless, surefire way to kill yourself. Take a bunch of sleeping pills and fall asleep in a sealed room with some charcoal burning or something.

>>8539383
It's impossible. Normalfaggotry goes against everything in the way that I am hardwired. If I was to become one I would be a completely different person, it wouldn't be me changing but a new person coming into existence. I guess this might be possible with enough high end drugs.

In this way I don't want to become one of them, instead I want to drag them down to my level.

>>8539423
That's not painless.

>>8539423
And what if I fuck it up? I end up with whatever else wrong with me because of that.

>>8539423
>>8539427
I'm that guy who tried the helium tank last night, trust me that way is way better than what I tried.

It feels like you're getting strangled, its not a pleasant feeling at all. You start to panic after you start losing your senses, sleeping pills are the best way to avoid that.

>>8539427
How does it hurt?

>>8539436
shit, that was my backup plan in life
I wonder if nitrogen would be better

I gave up sometime ago and started looking for a job. I think I got one today, and I'm already feeling exhausted.
I can't wait until my co workers start whispering "it's that creepy guy" behind my back and spreading rumors and making fun of me.
It'll be just like going back to highschool.

I wish the 2012 prophecies were true.

>>8539447
I was hoping the same thing myself on new years eve...

>>8539447
In the workplace, all that really matters is your interaction with any customers and your relationship with your superiors. You can do shit work but be on good terms with your boss and not get fired or anything.

>>8539447
Speaking from experience here, but expect things to get much, much, more awful. Working around people for a fulltime shift is hell and yes, they WILL talk a lot behind your back- and even to your face some.

I never did anything to anyone but heard all about my coworkers telling my boss lies to try and get me fired just because they thought I was creepy. Then there was telling everyone I was gay, then there was asking if I was a virgin in front of half the shift.

As depressing as being a neet can be, forcing yourself around normalfags all day will show you a new level of despair. Money just can't make me happy enough to counteract it, maybe if I was paid 3x as much I could just drink on the job.

And this is why I pretty much walked out of the clinic when they suggested group therapy as a cure for my anxiety. It's not like I haven't tried forcing myself near people time and time again, hell what do you think highschool was?

>>8539463
>As depressing as being a neet can be,

Speak for yourself.

>>8539447
Not only co-workers, but depending on where you'll be working, or where you live, the customers as well. It's terrible, but it's certainly much better than being homeless.

>suggested group therapy as a cure for my anxiety

I hate when retarded doctors and councilors spew out nonsense like that.
It's like telling someone with Acrophobia that parachuting will cure their fear of heights.
Yea, it might, but try getting their ass on to the god damn plane.

>How do you guys keep living?
/jp/ is keeping me alive. Plus, dying is a huge hassle.

>>8539498
no its not, its like falling asleep
in a giant blender

>>8539512
Sounds terrible.

But I was more so complaining about the effort that goes into dying, rather than the experience. It's easier to do nothing.

Once my Dad and grandma die I will no longer have someone to disappoint.


Then I can kill myself guilt-free.

>>8539516
it doesn't take all that much effort to die,Just admit it deep down inside you want to live.

What does /jp/ think about pills overdose? Is it good method?

Whenever I get down I read one of these comic edits.

Speaking of which, who's the guy that changed these from Fed to Jew comics?

>>8539530
It takes huge effort to get over your survival instincts. When you try to die your entire mind screams at you to do stop doing what you're doing. It takes great willpower and courage to kill yourself. Or complete insanity, I guess.

my parents think I tried to kill myself, truth be told I was actually just experimenting with auto erotic asphyxiation. Couldn't tell them that though

>>8539544
am i the only one that finds that beutiful?

>>8539544
One time, I duct taped a bag over my head.
Slowly I started to get sleepy, but as my eyes started to go drowsy, I saw this image of what I beleive was my own skull, and I was so frightened that I panicked. I still remember it, very scary.
But I wonder if I'll have that same fear if I try using my handgun.

>>8539580
a handgun is instant and the mind doesn't have enough time to react to anything.

Suffocation methods require a lot of willpower because you slowly feel yourself losing your senses. It takes a lot to go through with it. It's best to combo with sleeping pills if you want that method.

Otherwise, hanging or guns are the best way to instantly off yourself without any fear of failure.

What would work for hanging if you don't have access to any ropes?

>>8539616
Anything. A famous musician (I think it was Hide?) even died by hanging a towel from his doorknob.

>>8539616
Electrical wires would work too.

Not to be a "get a job" faggot, but you could always get a job that doesn't directly deal with other people, such as a warehouse job or just about any night shift position. Sure, it can suck, but at least you'd be doing something.

>>8539635

>>8539463
here

I've had more third shift jobs than anything, and 2 of those were factory/warehouse type work. The western world is not friendly towards the introverted.

>>8539677
Even with night shift warehouse jobs people gave you trouble?

That's pretty depressing to hear.

Lately I've found myself just getting more and more anxious, and just... tired. I've dropped the vast majority of my university courses due to anxiety, and I'm glad I did, I wouldn't have been able to put up with more than a couple courses. I stopped actually attending class sometime the year before this - I can't bring myself to concentrate for three fucking hours straight on a single lecture, and the thought of someone else sitting near me or even worse, next to me does not appeal to me. Been studying slowly over the last couple weeks for a couple upcoming midterms, now onto studying for the second one, and I find I'm just... Extremely tired of the whole thing. Last few days, it's just been exponentially harder to pick up that fucking book and study. I even took a couple days break from studying because of it, and it didn't help at all (though I've managed to do a little since then.) I don't even dislike the material, I've been somewhat interested in it in the past (read: I'd never study a single word if not for class, and mostly didn't hate studying it when I had to for class.)

The amusing part is, besides having to force myself to study for school, I find myself in a better state than usual lately, aside the occasional depressive spell. Oh well. What about you, /jp/?

Normally I wouldn't blog, but I've found I actually rather like reading posts like this myself.

>>8539335
>If you're only posting for empathy you may want to try some other site or a therapist or something. Maybe even your own parents.
>Maybe even your own parents.
You're a funny guy. If I wanted to be told to get a job, I could just yell at myself and save them the hassle.

>>8540919
You can go ahead and completely disregard that whole post because of one point while bumping this shitty thread.

>>8540926
Sorry, forgot my sage. Kind of tired.

Am I the only guy here who rejects society by choice instead of doing so because you can't socialize?

>>8540946
No, not everyone has social anxiety. I really prefer to be left alone, but I can associate with normals if I want to, at least most of the time.

>>8540954
I can talk to normals and pretend that I'm one of them most of the time, but their lives are so shitty that I don't want to be part of that. I have empathy for those who cannot, though. They are not missing much anyways...

>>8540946
This is pretty much how I am. Love to be alone, love to be left to my own thoughts and actions. I usually end up spending the day cooking food for myself or something.

If you are one of those people who studied a lot as a teenager and at least understood the pain that comes with every achievement in life, my heart goes out to you.

If you have never gone through the pain and tribulations (by making up excuses, blaming your parents/genetics or goofing off...), just die please.

>>8540967
>their lives are so shitty
Oh look, another unique snowflake who likes to call others 'normal'.
http://xkcd.com/610/

>>8540906
It's because you don't really love what you're studying. Being 'somewhat interested' doesn't mean you're able to pursue it for a long time. People only get motivated to study when there is a source of motivation : immense curiosity, competition (having to keep up with your friends), great rewards ....

>>8540999
It's funny because xkcd is bar none the most pretentious webcomic out there. Unique snowflake syndrome up the ass.

>>8541021
It's funny because you attack the webcomic instead of discussing the message of that particular comic. Then you disregard the message. Perfect rhetoric.

It's almost like China saying the US is also totalitarian when the US asks China to respect human rights. Perfect way for idiots to avoid the actual issue. China's wrongdoings don't disappear because the US is also being evil.

>>8540999
>people who listen to you like they're in a car waiting for the light to change
true story

>>8541041
I don't give a fuck what you have to say since people who link xkcd to prove points are invariably retarded. And also terrible posters, seeing as how your idea of a good analogy is retarded /pol/ shit.

>>8541041
>>8540999
Holy shit who the fuck asked you to give your bible thumping armchair psychiatrist opinions here? You are not wanted here. Go to a club and get butt fucked by your boy friend or something.

>>8540999
It's probably your first time here, and please, please make it be the last. Love you xoxo

>>8541070
Oh, I'm sorry. I thought I was talking to someone who could say something other than ad hom. Textbook example, even. That you can't even make a concrete point says a lot.

>>8541080
You call that a 'psychiatrist opinion' ? I don't know where you live in order to have that low a standard. You should come back when you've stoped being emotional.

>>8541101
Nope, I've always been here. The thing that irks me is how a few of these NEETs aren't unfortunate people who actually try their best at things (but can't overcome their conditions). They are actually assholes who intentionally victimize themselves, are narcissistic and look down on others. Fake NEETs, I call them. I don't look down on them, I disgust them.

>>8541130
Everyone they know probably yells at them every day, they just won't change. Come on, how much of those who victimize themselves did you see getting out of their condition? Just accept and move on they won't

>>8541137
>>8541130
I still find your pic bad though

>>8541130
>Fake NEETs

A "fake NEET" would be someone who has a job or goes to school yet claims they don't. Why anyone would do that is beyond me.

Just thought you could use a lesson.

In some respects I'd be upset some reddit/r9k shitposter seems to have been drawn in and is now successfully trolling people in this thread, but then I consider the original blogshit the thread was started for and it's hard to be upset over it.

If you're going to take any opportunity to whine about your lives and claim it's /jp/-related because you're a NEET, don't be surprised when passer-bys from other boards come in and start the "man the fuck up" speech; 4chan isn't group therapy and you're basically painting a target on yourself. It shits up the board with pointless drama and it's only barely the fault of outside parties.

>>8541041
Let me do it for him: All of the people in that image are living life about the same way. People on /jp/ are often quite far outside of the mainstream, making them factually "unique" and eliminating the hypocrisy that image is all about.

Also, I'm not sure if I should pity you guys. You have to deal with depression and social anxiety, but... Well, while you're unhappy with life, you did have a chance, once. You just fucked it up.

Eh.

>How do you guys keep living? I'm so fucking depressed with my life. I'm constantly getting depressed over life and each time it hits me harder than the last.

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Has there even been such a reliable hook for guaranteed replies?

>>8541130
I don't know. I almost envy a lot of the people here saying that they dropped out of high school and college due to various reasons. At least they have somewhat of an excuse as to how they ended up in this position. I graduated college with a near perfect GPA, and applied to countless jobs, most of which were shitty office jobs that paid nothing and only wanted a high school diploma. It's much harder for me to understand or justify how pathetic my life is these days.

>>8541200
shit, that sucks. what industry?

Why don't you guys do a /jp/ meet up and mass suicide?

>>8541130
>a few of these NEETs aren't unfortunate people who actually try their best at things (but can't overcome their conditions)

If anything, these are the fake NEETs; they're scum who tried to fit in the rest of the shitty normals/wage slaves and failed. True NEETs, on the other hand, are those who actually make a conscious decision to forever reject the life of a drone and subservience to jews.

The outcome appears to be similar to the eyes of an indiscriminate observer, but the attitude and intentions--the parts that actually matter, in other words--are worlds apart.

>>8541228
They are weak-willed by nature. They can't build up the nerve to overcome their survival instinct, much as they'd like it.

There are many kinds of cowardice, you know.

>>8541236
Come on now, surely it doesn't take too much courage to grind up a whole bunch of pills, throw that shit in some water, and drink it down. You'll be on your way to dead to in no time!

>>8541236
That's why a meet up would work best.
You wouldn't hesitate as much to slit someone else's throat. Even if you did, you would still die.

>>8541264
woah, woah, woah, WOAH. We are talking about otaku NEETs. These guys can barely function outside of their bedroom, and I think it would take damn near a miracle to get them to actually slit each others throats

Unless maybe you call their waifu a whore

>>8541264
Just force everyone to tie themselves together and someone who doesn't want to die throw one guy off a bridge.

>>8541292
But that's murder.

>>8541304
No one cares.

>>8541312
I'm pretty sure the person being killed against their will cares.

>>8541130
>Oh, I'm sorry. I thought I was talking to someone who could say something other than ad hom. Textbook example, even. That you can't even make a concrete point says a lot.
I could have made a point instead of insulting you if I had felt like arguing with you. However, I didn't feel like arguing with a retard, just calling a retard a retard. But fine, here's the concrete point that you were begging for:

Point 1: You are a retard.
Point 2: You have shit taste.
Point 3: You are the same kind of pretentious faggot you are aiming to call out.
Point 4: Your original "point" was

>Oh look, another unique snowflake who likes to call others 'normal'. http://xkcd.com/610/

This post doesn't have a point besides to call someone a retard by comparison to retarded people in a retarded comic written by a retard. It doesn't even come close to addressing the point >>8540967 which was that he found the lives of other people shitty (not a particularly interesting point). Your post's logical value is zero, that is, pure insult (which is apparently acceptable, since you were so witty about it). Apparently there's nothing wrong with it when you're on the delivering end, of course. If you worked really hard to draw a message out of it, you might get "you are the same as the normal people you are criticizing" which is probably false or maybe "your life is just as shitty,"

And if you're really insisting on a response to a post that runs "your life is just as shitty" and taking the high ground because I called you a pretentious cunt instead, you're a pretentious cunt.

tl;dr: You're a pretentious cunt. Fuck off.

>>8541314
Not when they're dead.

>>8541326
That's a horrible outlook to have.

>>8541334
Aww. Thanks.

>>8541326
I like the way this man thinks. I'll raise my glass to you. 乾杯！

>>8541345
If I raped you would you be okay with it after I finished?

>>8541354
I'd probably be okay with it period.

>>8541360
What if it hurt really bad and you had bruises and cuts everywhere?

>>8541373

>>8541373
Eh. I'd heal.

>>8541382
Not if I kept you in my basement locked up. You sure as hell wouldn't heal if I raped you every day for the rest of your life.

>>8541390
Yeah, I'd be pretty unhappy with that.

What's your point?

YOU KNOW WHAT?

I FUCKING HATE CIRCLEJERKING THREAD.

>>8541393
You wouldn't like it one bit if I came inside you daily for years and cutting chunks of flesh from your body when I grow bored.

>>8541401
Okay.

>>8541403
You would hate me for cutting a small incision in your tied down leg and then having sex with it. Your leg muscles twitching with agony would send me over the edge and I would shoot my seed deep into your veins.

quality thread

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>>8541524
>My English sucks so I'm not going to write a shitwall of text

Stopped reading there

>>8541529
How can my English can be good enough for native speakers if I leave over the ocean?

>>8541529
How can my English be good enough for native speakers if I leave over the ocean?

>>8541572
>can my English can be good
Told you.

>>8541572
>>8541574
XD epicfail

you hikkifags is what makes /a/ better

>>8541404
>>8541403
Wow, get the fuck out. This isn't the board for your fetishes, retards.

>>8540999
>It's because you don't really love what you're studying. Being 'somewhat interested' doesn't mean you're able to pursue it for a long time. People only get motivated to study when there is a source of motivation : immense curiosity, competition (having to keep up with your friends), great rewards ....

I suppose so. But it's far too late in for me to change it (I've already changed majors once, too), and I've never found anything else that ranks above it in interest in the realm of academia, or in any other part of the whole 'school and work' thing normalfags venerate. Guess all that's left is to go ahead and at least try to finish it all, even if it feels more unlikely with every passing day.

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